If today was your last day...

[WornOutLife]

What would you exactly do?


As for me, I would try to live life to the fullest.

Morning: I would go to my parents' house and spend a great time with them and my lovely dog. No arguments, no hatred, just love.

Afternoon: I'd like to date a girl, walk around a park, kiss her, have some drinks with her and best case scenario go to my apartment and have some fun for some hours.

Evening: I would like to be alone and get drunk and high as fuck while talking to all of you and sharing my last moments of life on SS as I'm embracing death and describing what I'm feeling and experiencing with my chosen method. I wanna die in a state of ecstasy.


What about you?

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

Would literally change nothing and would most likely not think about it at all. Kill time with music and browse the forum like always, maybe spend extra time alone with my thoughts just because that's what ppl in movies would do . Might feel slightly happy when going to sleep though, guessing it's a peaceful death after I've fallen asleep in this scenario. If I don't get specifics as to how I'd die I'd probably try partial lol. Wait, then that is guaranteed to fail.. hmmm. Or maybe not actually, and I have to take hard determinism into consideration here. Fuck it, whatever, guess I'll stick with my original answer of just wasting time.

 

[WornOutLife]

Would literally change nothing and would most likely not think about it at all. Kill time with music and browse the forum like always, maybe spend extra time alone with my thoughts just because that's what ppl in movies would do . Might feel slightly happy when going to sleep though, guessing it's a peaceful death after I've fallen asleep in this scenario. If I don't get specifics as to how I'd die I'd probably try partial lol. Wait, then that is guaranteed to fail.. hmmm. Or maybe not actually, and I have to take hard determinism into consideration here. Fuck it, whatever, guess I'll stick with my original answer of just wasting time.

Well, that day you could also come to the SS chat and get drunk with some of us lol.

 

[Symbiote]

Most likely fuck all, just keep things on a low profile and quietly slip through time into the next. I can't imagine doing all the things you just listed and still have enough energy to kill myself at the end.

 

[WornOutLife]

Most likely fuck all, just keep things on a low profile and quietly slip through time into the next. I can't imagine doing all the things you just listed and still have enough energy to kill myself at the end.

I'm actually quite surprised by my answer.
I'm like "Damn, why can't you do this just every weekend at least?" because just like you, I don't have too much energy these days. I can barely work and drink some booze lol.

 

[BornBrief]

Heh. This immediately put that Nickelback song stuck in my head

I've been thinking about that lately since I will probably do it soon providing I can get SN. Otherwise my SI will keep me going longer as other methods scare me


So in this case, I would do everything the day before since I would probably have to fast. I've always wanted to do an Omakase but never got the chance so it's really unfortunate everything is locked down. So I guess I'd order something special using Uber eats if it's within the next few months. They have essentially ALL restaurants in there now including the higher end ones. Maybe try some Wagyu and nice sushi. Stop by my my favourite cocktail bar if outdoor patios are open and enjoy a drink.

Then ideally, I'd like to just have a really fun night with the people on discord I've been spending time with lately (plus the one IRL friend & occasional FWB/ex guy who introduced me to them). Watch show/movies like we usually do, have some laughs. Get drunk and game. It's been a saving grace for me since finally cutting the cord on my previous toxic relationship late November.

Unfortunately though I know I can't form any real long term connections with these people, despite being close to a couple. I can't ever be completely honest with them about myself and my life and who I am.

I am really grateful that my ex/FWB reconnected with me and gave me a place to give me that last chance at feeling what it's like to have a group of friends again and people who enjoy talking to me these last few months. I feel guilty knowing one day I am just going to disappear since some of them are so caring and I imagine it will be quite a shock. I don't talk about anything related to ctb. He and the one other I've grown closer to know some past experiences I've dealt with years ago, but nothing to imply my decision to CTB.

But yeah - rambled a bit here.

TL;DR. Enjoy some new things I've always wanted the day before in whatever way I can if things are still locked down. Spend the night enjoying the company of I guess.. my friends, drinking gaming etc. Then disappear.

 

[Lostandlooking]

What I think I would do: label my possessions, write final suicide note, clean up my apartment. Put all my documents out for people to find. Delete stuff on my phone etc. I don't know how I'll manage those last few hours of waiting. I'll have to be sober because my method of choice is SN. I doubt I'll be in a calm state of mind. So probably just a day of grinding my teeth and self harming. I'll probably run around tidying up my appartement, so that people don't have to take care of it for me. Might even start boxing stuff.

 

[FuneralCry]

Just find a steep cliff to jump off. There I can make peace with myself and be glad my suffering will be over. Hoping I will immediately go unconscious once I've jumped.

 

[Moose.000]

I would isolate myself, stay away from everything that helps my mood (supplements, chewing tobacco, meds, family, friends.) Force myself into a total crash of misery so my determination to complete the task peaks. I wouldn't want to do anything that makes me second guess my ultimate goal.

Oh, I'd definitely eat a peanut butter twix bar at some point throughout the day though.

 

[lofticries]

Close down all my accounts on other sites. Say goodbye to my friends on these sites but don't exactly tell them why I'm saying goodbye. Probably make up some shit about wanting to turn a new page in my life (which is somewhat true since I'm turning that shit to the end). Start disposing of all my shit while listening to my fav music. Hug both my parents and tell them I love them. Take a long ass drive to calm me down while listening to my fav music. Visit a pet store and pet some kittens. Get some iced coffee and cake pops at star bucks. Start writing a will of some kind on what do with my body and how I don't want a funeral.

 

[noname223]

Same routine as always. But it really depends on whether it is a natural death or suicide.

 

[popcorn]

i guess it would go a little like this;

drugs, alcohol, drugs, alcohol, music, cigarettes, drugs, drugs, music, drugs, head spinning, falling down, nausea, alcohol, music, drugs, alcohol, falling down, laughing, singing, drugs, drugs, more drugs, alcohol, crying, laughing, drugs, cigarettes, alcohol, alcohol, alcohol, alcohol, cigarettes, drugs, SN

probably in that exact order too

 

[loopylou]

Can't possibly comment. :p

wait...

 

[GarageKarate07]

i guess it would go a little like this;

drugs, alcohol, drugs, alcohol, music, cigarettes, drugs, drugs, music, drugs, head spinning, falling down, nausea, alcohol, music, drugs, alcohol, falling down, laughing, singing, drugs, drugs, more drugs, alcohol, crying, laughing, drugs, cigarettes, alcohol, alcohol, alcohol, alcohol, cigarettes, drugs, SN

probably in that exact order too

....Like its 1999....

 

[WornOutLife]

Can't possibly comment. :p

wait...

I bet, on your last day, you would at least certainly drink a lot while chatting with me! Lol

 

[loopylou]

I bet, on your last day, you would at least certainly drink a lot while chatting with me! Lol

I can't drink with SN dammit :( but , if I could then sure would

 

[GarageKarate07]

Do you guys remember Y2k? Probly a dumb question. For about 5 years before '94-'99, we were told we were all going to die and end up in a mad maxx scenario and airplanes would fall out of the sky and the atms were all going to spit money in the street and drain our bank accounts. All because there was no "ZERO" put into a computer somewhere. I don't know if anyone ever told you guys about it. We took acid and had lots of nicotine and weed that night and nothing happened. Everything went on in the same shitty matter the next day. It was a crazy thing. Much like 2012 but people were really scared. Maybe not scared but hoping for the dark ages...

 

[Celerity]

I plan to go out into nature and trip or maybe get high on something. I plan to CTB out in the middle of nowhere. I'll spend the day doing fuck all out in the middle of nowhere. Then, as the sun rises, I'll either blow my brains out or do something drastic with my life.

 

[StringPuppet]

Literally just sleep

 

[finalexit]

Panic

 

[Bigpink]

Bin my little journal of thoughts. Have a day like any other, check any remaining lottery tickets in case, booze and ............

 

[Adamsnolife]

Morning have breakfast. Good old English fry up and afternoon, go to beachy head and jump.

 

[Saki]

I would if I could drive to a beach have a drink and just enjoy my last moments. Leave behind some nice words. My idle death.
But being realistic I would just go apeshit. Sing around dancing, buying useless stuff that makes me happy; maybe see nature a last time and then end it.

 

[Isisnefert]

I spent the happiest years of my life in neverending parties for more than 12 hours in macro discos, I would like to spend my last day as the person I once was..

 

[nolongerhuman]

Today specifically? Well the day is almost over my time so I'd better start walking. Can't die here because I have people that live with me so I'd have to get a hotel really quickly or find somewhere in the middle of nowhere. Fortunately today is not the day. I plan to make the actual last couple of days as comfortable as possible and enjoy the parts of life that are good when my anxiety disorder doesn't ruin them. Music, nature, books, the few friends I do have.

 

[Dutchyala]

I would do nothing much different. Probably just send a message to my few online friends saying I love them. Eating is painful for me otherwise I would eat something tasty.
I will just sleep the most I can and waste time on the computer the rest of the day. The happy days are long gone, the best I can expect is having a good dream for one last time. It's the only way I can feel happiness.
I had a near-death experience two times where I saw my whole life in my mind, it was just for a few seconds but it looked like an eternity. It was a peaceful feeling, I hope I can feel it again and remember all the happy moments and how they felt like while being in peace with my death.

 

[SofieSofie]

Close down all my accounts on other sites. Say goodbye to my friends on these sites but don't exactly tell them why I'm saying goodbye. Probably make up some shit about wanting to turn a new page in my life (which is somewhat true since I'm turning that shit to the end). Start disposing of all my shit while listening to my fav music. Hug both my parents and tell them I love them. Take a long ass drive to calm me down while listening to my fav music. Visit a pet store and pet some kittens. Get some iced coffee and cake pops at star bucks. Start writing a will of some kind on what do with my body and how I don't want a funeral.

"Visit a pet store and pet some kittens.'
That's a lovely idea, although will make it harder to leave this earth, never hugging a cat anymore, that hurts.....

 

[Downbylife]

My whole life has been - more or less - based on escapism. It's not that I hate this life, but I love the "worlds" music and videogames take me. My last day would be listening to my favourite music, maybe replaying some of the best parts of my favourite series and probably that. I'm going to die with the music in my ears.

 

[verloren]

first of all: that would be a great thought / mindset to live as if you woke up in the morning, for example, and knew that it would be the last day of your life.

it's so comforting to think you'd be dead tomorrow.

if today were my last day, then i would only do what i usually do: watch youtube and visit sanctioned suicide. Nothing different

first of all: that would be a great thought / mindset to live as if you woke up in the morning, for example, and knew that it would be the last day of your life.

it's so comforting to think you'd be dead tomorrow.

if today were my last day, then i would only do what i usually do: watch youtube and visit sanctioned suicide. Nothing different

it helps to get rid of the time until the ctb, if you imagine that the day you will experience will be the last and you dont have to worry about shit anymore

 

[rata1]

if i knew that this is my last day, i wouldn't believe it. but i think i would be hell as happy. i would be thankful and think "finally yes yes yes yes finally". it would probably be like chrismas for children, can't wait for the day when they get their presents.
i would take a bottle of red wine, a joint and two cigarettes, ask a nice sympathic woman if she wants to join me, if not, i don't car i would go to the woods, a place with a nice view (problem: the best spots would yet be occupied bcause everybody knows that its the last day). and then drink it and dance of joy and happiness smoke the last cigarettes and get finally where i always wanted to get: the end of the times, the end of my senseless existence. o happy day! glory to this moment