If today was your last day, could you say you lived live to the fullest?

[Darkover]

live to the fullest enslaved in this awful shit your having a laugh

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

Sadly, no. Have always been too afraid, anxious, cautious, and fatigued. I've squandered so many opportunities.

 

[Deadly_Intention]

If today was my last day I would be running toward the end with arms wide open and tears of joy.
Not that I have lived my life to the fullest, I hardly lived at all really...
I was stuck in a fantasy world for so many years, I thought it was normal to wake up everyday and hate everything and that I was born to live an unhappy and unfulfilled life. Then my BPD diagnoses came, and everything crashed and burned. I honestly never gave much thought to all the times I had impulsive behaviours or the countless arguments and tears shed or the self-harming and suicide "practices"... turns out that wasn't normal at all. I lived in a world that wasn't even real, and while I consider myself in the real world now, I don't even enjoy it any better. Knowing and seeing the harm I cause is worse than being stuck in the "victim" bubble and blaming everyone else.
Either way, life is worthless.

 

[som1]

no, I barely experienced life, all my life I was controlled. it used to bother me but it doesn't matter now.

 

[Ashu]

To the miserable fullest of my extremely limited ability.

 

[LastFlowers]

Fuck no. I have not gotten to live my life at all, unless you count perpetual misery and emptiness a life.

 

[Sherri]

Absolutely a big YES!

 

[hdahsa]

I have had some really good times - I cannot deny that but lived life to its fullest ? No absolutely not. Prepared to ctb ? Yes. Want to ctb ? Yes but can I ctb ? No because my daughter depends on me after losing my wife. So I have to live on I guess.

 

[Ada]

No, definitely not.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Nope, but if I had the ability to I wouldn't really need to CTB in the first place.

 

[Rational man]

I never had a bucket list or too many expectations. I tried to live just for today. I.guess fulfilment was made each day especially now im ill. I have no regrets..Perhaps i should have been kind to me,but i always put other people before me. But i realise how foolish i was and how i was treated like shit.