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oh wow, innovation. Was wondering about even methelyne blue OD producing methemoglobemia (potentially reversible with ascorbic acid)
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This dose isn't logical to me. The 200mg amount refers to injection into the abdominal cavity and it's expressed in mg/kg. The 25g amount isn't some special threshold for poisons either.
They appeared to have succeeded with 33.8g so perhaps there is some mechanism/interaction we are not yet aware of.
Agreed.
Benzococaine is not soluble in water. It needs to be dissolved in alcohol. What you had was not benzococaine.
We do not know for sure but their goodbye thread is almost two weeks old with no word from them.
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This was 1984 so my memory might be a little foggy but it was benzocaine. That part I'm sure of we would use 10 grams of benzocaine to 28 grams of cocaine. Back then you could order it by the pound. That stuff would dissolve in water. It is also the same ingredient in orajel toothache medicine. Not trying to argue and if I am wrong I have no problem with that .
Ah, you mixed it with regular cocaine which is soluble in water. That explains it.
Yeah lol. Long time ago. And look where I'm at now. But seriously I never heard or thought of it for ctb. But who knows. I'm sticking with fentanyl. It seems like lot of people want to know about it but there are no threads on how to do it or how to get it. I'm new here am I not supposed to post that kind of information? I also see a lot of people talking about using paracetamol. Do they not know that is Tylenol. They will probably end up causing a lot of liver damage and throwing up before they ctb. I wanted to say something about that too but I'm not really sure what I can and can't say on here.
I really like this place and would hate to get banned or cause grief here
It seems like the least uncomfortable way to go. How are you sourcing it? It seems like a substance you can get only if you are trying to buy something else.
I hope she found peace. But I am confused about the amount she took. At one point she said she has 4 smalls bottles which total 8.8 Grams then she says something about mixing 25 Grams with alcohol. And that in total she took 33 grams but I'm not sure how she was able to mix the 25 grams if she only had 4 small bottles totaling only 8.8 grams.there was a recent post about this method, she seems to have found peace with it.
Ctb thread with Benzocaine/Cyanotic Fallout
This is a pre-made post for when I know I'll be gone. I plan to have this post on my birthday... the day I'm supposed to turn 27. I took benzocaine powder and oral anesthetic. I'm taking a significant amount way more then I'd actually recommend anyone ever take... but I'm exhausted from making...
The small bottles were benzocaine spray which are 20% benzocaine, she used those and 25 grams of benzocaine powder dissolved in vodka, if I'm not mistaken
Ahh ok that makes sense. I found a bottle with 100 grams which should be more than enough assuming this method works is that correct. I would probably need more than 33 grams at least since I am a male and around 220 LBS.
It's sounds like you might be from a different country so I'll tell you a totally made up story about a dude named....hmmmm..Brian in America!! Brian was a d rug addict for quite a few years and he was experiencing withdrawal symptoms from a relatively new street drug called fentanyl. Now Brian has been out for almost 2 days now and was starting to feel like total shit. Brian knew that if he didn't find something quick he was going to be a really fucked up place((did I mention this was an totally rated r made up story) for adults only? Since Brian has been a drug addict for a couple years he knew a couple reliable street dealers he would go see. The first one he went to see was a young gang banger and aspiring rapper named cheesecake. Brian walked to cheesecakes door and knocked hisoma came to the door and said ain't you heard Brian, cheesecake is doing 9 months in prison for assault. Ok than Brian said to cheesecakes moms. He jumped into his car and said FUCK I guess I'll go see Bob and old veteran who sold it to keep girls hanging around him. He knocked on Bobs door, Bob said come on now man but make sure the police ain't right there behind you. See Bob was also a tweaker and very paranoid. Brian walked in and Bob said what you need Brian. Brian said I got 100$. Now all that bob sold was points. A point is 1/10 of a gram. So Brian got his gram and skipped happily out the door. Jumped in his car threw a little on a piece of tinfoil( about a half a point) lit it and got three puffs damn, Brian thought, this is some good shit. He could still drive so off he went. A couple of minutes later he started
thinking this is good but I'll be out tomorrow. Better find some.more while I still got cash. Brian scratched his head and thought long and hard. Where can I find some of I don't know anymore rapper gang bangers or paranoid tweakers? I know I'll find a prostitute they always no where to find the good shit. So Brian went to the shady part of town where they hung out and spotted on. Hey girl, Brian said I'm sick as fuck I don't want a date but if you can find me some slow Ill buy 50$ dollars and pay you 50$ for getting it. She thought damn 50$ for no work, hell yeah I'll get you some oil be right back.5 minutes later she came back and handed Brian three packages. Brian said damn that's it?!?!. She said hell yeah it's 20 a point and there's three points and it's the fire 
! Brian said aight and paid her and sped off once again. He stopped at Burger king 
and got his trusty foil out put a little sprinkle on it laid the flame to it, Three more puffs later and Brian was all kinds of fucked up. It was some good shit but it was also cut with xylezine and strong animal tranquilizer. Brian knew he'd better be careful with this shit. No more until I get situated thought he. He drove a little bit and thought hmm I've only got about a gram and a point I better get just a little bit more. But where he thought? I know! I'll go to the needle exchange there's always people hanging out there who could help me score. But I got to get prepared to go in there and I can't drive cause I'll get pulled over cause it's a known drug area. So Brian took off his rings and 15,000$ rolex(I told you it's a made up story)got 2 50$ dollar bills out and locked everything up in his car. Since the bus ride by here I'll just leave my car here and ride the bus. Or I could take a cab or Uber. Naahh I'll just ride the bus look more the part. Speaking of looking the part Brian untucked his shirt and ruffled up his hair. That's better thought Brian while he was getting off the bus right next to the needle exchange. He.spied a dude sitting on the bench looking kind of messed up. Brian sat.down next to him and said what's up man? Damn I'm sicker than a dog. Yeah the man said me too. Brian told him the same line he told the prostitute and dude said hell yeah I'll do it t!! Give me the 50 and I'll be right back. Brian said yeah right Im sick not stupid bring me the shit and I'll pay you. Oh no dude says I got to have the money up front. Brian says he'll no, no shit, no cash, I'll find somebody else. Dude said alright goddammit come on. So dude took Brian around the corner to some.rough looking apartments and knocked on the door and jumped in his car yet again and sped off to his house where it was safer. That should be the end of the story but Brian was really in a bad place in his life in fact it was so bad he didn't really want to be around any more. He lost his girlfriend of 25 years to colon cancer 2 years ago. That messed with his already damaged from 40 years of hard drug abuse. He got back on drugs after being totally clean for 7 years with his love, Zelda. She was pretty much his whole world. She helped him get clean and kept both of them that way. Brian had a stroke and a heart attack a couple years ago and him and Zelda kind of figured on him going first, so they planned everything around that. Imagine Brian's surprise when she died all the sudden out of nowhere. He was totally lost and really didn't know what to do so he did what he knew. Got on meth and fentanyl. Well that worked for about a year then he lost their car home and everything they worked so hard to get and keep. The n he had two more heart attacks and two more strokes. Top of that he got pneumonia and could no longer work. He lost their three dogs that he really loved like his own kids because he couldn't take care of them. Now he's on oxygen all the time and had to have a defibrillator implanted in him because his weak ass heart would keep stopping. He's having to rent a room off an old friend and everything he owns would fit in 2 trash bags. When he sold dope when him and Zelda got together he had a shitload of money and was proud to get Zelda anything she wanted. He could take her in a jewelry store and tell her to get anything she wanted. She never took advantage of that and they never cheated on each other. They were happy for 15 years. She got tired of the life and asked him if they could stop before he got busted. He said sure anything for you. So he sold out and stopped selling stayed home with her and took care of her their house and pets. Brian was addicted to the hustling and running the dope game so he got a job and worked 6 or 7 days a week 12-14 hours a day and was happy and still was able to provide a good life for them. All she wanted was for him to spend more time with her. He figured he could work for15 more years buy a camper and the truck and spend the rest of their days together seeing America. Well that got totally fucked up when she died now Brian has no point to go on and nothing makes him happy but he knows what and when to what he needs and enough fentanyl to do it . Fuck it the end. Oh yeah he figured he has 13 points of Gen he knows if he mixes them all together and breaks 3 points down with water and pulls that up into a syringe and puts that to the side just in case he can't take three points and snort them. Put the rest on foil and keepS on puffing he'll slide onto that bus he planning on. If the snorting and puffing for some odd reason don't do it the syringe will. Is it the beginning of spring yet?? Itt will be soonHoly shit!! That was long!! Sorry yallIt's sounds like you might be from a different country so I'll tell you a totally made up story about a dude named....hmmmm..Brian in America!! Brian was a d rug addict for quite a few years and he was experiencing withdrawal symptoms from a relatively new street drug called fentanyl. Now Brian has been out for almost 2 days now and was starting to feel like total shit. Brian knew that if he didn't find something quick he was going to be a really fucked up place((did I mention this was an totally rated r made up story) for adults only? Since Brian has been a drug addict for a couple years he knew a couple reliable street dealers he would go see. The first one he went to see was a young gang banger and aspiring rapper named cheesecake. Brian walked to cheesecakes door and knocked hisoma came to the door and said ain't you heard Brian, cheesecake is doing 9 months in prison for assault. Ok than Brian said to cheesecakes moms. He jumped into his car and said FUCK I guess I'll go see Bob and old veteran who sold it to keep girls hanging around him. He knocked on Bobs door, Bob said come on now man but make sure the police ain't right there behind you. See Bob was also a tweaker and very paranoid. Brian walked in and Bob said what you need Brian. Brian said I got 100$. Now all that bob sold was points. A point is 1/10 of a gram. So Brian got his gram and skipped happily out the door. Jumped in his car threw a little on a piece of tinfoil( about a half a point) lit it and got three puffs damn, Brian thought, this is some good shit. He could still drive so off he went. A couple of minutes later he started
The door popped open and a man said what y'all want . Dude said 2 50$'s dude handed Brian the dope. Brian gave his new friend his bag plus twenty bucks he had cause dude looked hungry. They parted ways Brian got back to the bus rode back to burger king
Oh no its every where and people ask for it by name. It's still in everything else but people want it too a lot cheaper and a lot stronger than heroin and since the government mad it so hard to get actual pain pills it was a natural redi- made replacement for the opiates people were already hooked on. I always thought it would be great if they legalized pot. Well they did and look what happened. The cartel's lost 6 billion a year in weed profits. Did they expect them to just say oh well we are I'll just cut back on eating out and make sure we turn the lights off when we're not using them? Hell no they just started shipping boatloads of meth fentanyl and trafficked women over. And the government knew this would happen
Well, as it is a fairly inaccessible method to most people, there are not a lot of guides here, as not many people would be able to use it for a method.
That information was fine, I believe. You can toss it into the opioid mega thread, if you would like.
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Many people do not know what will actually kill them and try to use anything they can get their hands on easily. This usually involves OTC pain killers. We try to inform them that this method is non-viable and will more likely lead to or end damage than death.
For more information, you can check the rules thread, and you can always ask a global mod.
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Doubt. American here who used to use meth daily then used to drink all day long then quit it all. All my dealers are sober or dead.
I always suspected paracetamol was a heavy duty opioid until I got a headache in France.
It is not.No it's Tylenol if somebody could hold down enough to ctb without throwing up it would be a miracle most likely end up with bad liver damage. Poor old cheesecake is really doing time right now. I cant comprehend just all of the sudden one second Brian is here next second Brian is not. When I od'ed I was dead for about , five minutes. Until then I thought I was good with God and an afterlife but now I know when we die we're gone no God no devil no angles, no bright shining light to go towards, and no loved ones waiting. Just nothing for the rest of eternity. But we won't even know it will be dead. But when I came around that was the most relaxed peaceful feeling I've ever experienced. S hundred times better than any other drug or alcohol could produce. Not the high but he peaceful relaxed feeling. It was wonderful.Doubt. American here who used to use meth daily then used to drink all day long then quit it all. All my dealers are sober or dead.
Brian's story is as uncomplicated as I expected. Does cheesecake take assault requests? I can give them my address.
I want death in over-the-counter pill form, I guess. And while we're talking about my fantasy wishlist, I would like to enjoy a few weeks of conscious non-existence. I would like to watch awful things continue to occur while I'm no longer affected by them. I would like to see, in 20 years, people come to the conclusion that I made a well-timed exit. It is the most unnatural thing in the world to experience non-existence. The paradox is so vexing that it detracts from my ability to avoid existing now.
I always suspected paracetamol was a heavy duty opioid until I got a headache in France.
And at this point, I'm just collecting things that can kill me so there are fewer ways to fail and more ways to find peace and feel power before I use them.
i havent even ordered it yettt! give me time ^_^We haven't heard anything from muu in over 900 seconds. If muu (rest in powder/) can hear this message, we humbly ask that you please give us a sign (
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Cranberry + vodka would make it taste less awful. You can add some club soda too. From what I've read on benzocaine powder that's pure, it needs to dissolve in alcohol. If you're really against mixing it with booze, you can purchase empty pill capsules and fill with the powder. Your stomach acid should(?) dissolve it and you'll experience the effects, especially if you've fasted prior.
