Passenger4224
I appreciate everything that can kill me.
- Mar 8, 2026
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Let's just assume it's easier to CTB there than it is here...
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I'm not sure about the afterlife, but given a chance I would definitely CTB in this life. If afterlife is fun, then i don't think I'll ctb there. It depends.Let's just assume it's easier to CTB there than it is here...
Me as well. The afterlife cannot fix the problem that I exist when I don't want to.I'd always choose to cease existing, I don't wish for any kind of existence, I'll always see it as such a terrible mistake to suffer in this existence and I'd never wish to be conscious of anything at all, I'll always find it so deeply undesirable to exist in every way. All that this existence does is just cause all this harm, cruelty and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, I'll always see existence as the problem, I just want to erase this existence so it's like I've never suffered, only the peace of non-existence can be positive to me.
I feel you on this.I'd always choose to cease existing, I don't wish for any kind of existence, I'll always see it as such a terrible mistake to suffer in this existence and I'd never wish to be conscious of anything at all, I'll always find it so deeply undesirable to exist in every way. All that this existence does is just cause all this harm, cruelty and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, I'll always see existence as the problem, I just want to erase this existence so it's like I've never suffered, only the peace of non-existence can be positive to me.
Let's just assume it's easier to CTB there than it is here...
I imagine it would still be complicated. Presumably the family members who didn't want you to suicide in this world also wouldn't want you to suicide in the next. And, vice versa. Say we get to finally meet/ become reunited with grandparents, great grandparents, pets etc. but then- they then want to leave. When will saying goodbye, experiencing loss and mourning ever be ok? Will it be ok in that next life to leave them again? How could it be- if you still love one another and don't want to be sepatated?
I tend to think being brought alive in any kind of community/ family creates codependent relationships that cause pain when they end.