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Passenger4224

Passenger4224

I appreciate everything that can kill me.
Mar 8, 2026
525
Let's just assume it's easier to CTB there than it is here...
 
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ctb_warrior

ctb_warrior

I wish to CTB asap
Feb 11, 2024
828
Let's just assume it's easier to CTB there than it is here...
I'm not sure about the afterlife, but given a chance I would definitely CTB in this life. If afterlife is fun, then i don't think I'll ctb there. It depends.
 
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TwistedNightmares

TwistedNightmares

My life is torture
Nov 1, 2025
381
It really depends on how the afterlife is like (if it exists). If there is no stress, pain or corruption, then I would probably choose to stay.
 
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starboy2k

starboy2k

“I’ve been digging my own grave for years”
May 21, 2025
718
If the afterlife sucks, then yes.
Tired of being stuck in shitty places/realms/realities with no way out, whilst being told I should be "grateful" to be there.
 
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Malfunction

Malfunction

Experienced
Jul 27, 2024
252
I'd hope for an afterlife where no one would have that desire.

If there's an afterlife, and it's the same crap, then yea I'd be pretty disappointed. I wouldn't stick around.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
49,556
I'd always choose to cease existing, I don't wish for any kind of existence, I'll always see it as such a terrible mistake to suffer in this existence and I'd never wish to be conscious of anything at all, I'll always find it so deeply undesirable to exist in every way. All that this existence does is just cause all this harm, cruelty and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, I'll always see existence as the problem, I just want to erase this existence so it's like I've never suffered, only the peace of non-existence can be positive to me.
 
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BQ27500

Member
Nov 25, 2025
20
I would CTB unconditionally. Even if I was in heaven, it would get boring there anyways
 
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Passenger4224

Passenger4224

I appreciate everything that can kill me.
Mar 8, 2026
525
I'd always choose to cease existing, I don't wish for any kind of existence, I'll always see it as such a terrible mistake to suffer in this existence and I'd never wish to be conscious of anything at all, I'll always find it so deeply undesirable to exist in every way. All that this existence does is just cause all this harm, cruelty and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, I'll always see existence as the problem, I just want to erase this existence so it's like I've never suffered, only the peace of non-existence can be positive to me.
Me as well. The afterlife cannot fix the problem that I exist when I don't want to.
 
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lastappleonearth

lastappleonearth

Возвращайся
Jun 11, 2026
467
Depends heavily on the afterlife itself I guess. If it'd be very cool and chill, then I probably would want to just stay there
 
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doneforlife

Mage
Jul 18, 2023
577
No I wouldn't. If there is an after life then by all probability there shall be an after after life and an after after after life. So what's the point in doing CTB ? I had rather find a way of undoing the original CTB and go back to before life !
 
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10mmc

10mmc

Member
Aug 18, 2026
14
I'd always choose to cease existing, I don't wish for any kind of existence, I'll always see it as such a terrible mistake to suffer in this existence and I'd never wish to be conscious of anything at all, I'll always find it so deeply undesirable to exist in every way. All that this existence does is just cause all this harm, cruelty and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, I'll always see existence as the problem, I just want to erase this existence so it's like I've never suffered, only the peace of non-existence can be positive to me.
I feel you on this.
 
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Lost in a Dream

Lost in a Dream

He/him - Metal head
Feb 22, 2020
2,198
If there is an afterlife then it better be a very good one for me to want to stay there, but even if it is, I should still have the option to end my afterlife because when I get bored of it, what's the point? Being forced to exist for eternity against my will sounds horrible.
 
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valar_morghulis21

All men must die.
Jul 17, 2026
147
I would certainly hope that things would be easier on the afterlife that I don't have to kill myself again... or at least take away my consciousness so even if it's hell, I wouldn't know it.
Let's just assume it's easier to CTB there than it is here...
 
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ZwartHartje

ZwartHartje

Experienced
May 5, 2026
240
All my loved ones are already there so I hope I'll be reunited with them, that's what I hope to find when I CTB here.
So no, I hope in the afterlife I can finally find joy and freedom and be at peace with my beloved nutria family who were murdered.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
15,809
I imagine it would still be complicated. Presumably the family members who didn't want you to suicide in this world also wouldn't want you to suicide in the next. And, vice versa. Say we get to finally meet/ become reunited with grandparents, great grandparents, pets etc. but then- they then want to leave. When will saying goodbye, experiencing loss and mourning ever be ok? Will it be ok in that next life to leave them again? How could it be- if you still love one another and don't want to be sepatated?

I tend to think being brought alive in any kind of community/ family creates codependent relationships that cause pain when they end.
 
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Lost in a Dream

Lost in a Dream

He/him - Metal head
Feb 22, 2020
2,198
I imagine it would still be complicated. Presumably the family members who didn't want you to suicide in this world also wouldn't want you to suicide in the next. And, vice versa. Say we get to finally meet/ become reunited with grandparents, great grandparents, pets etc. but then- they then want to leave. When will saying goodbye, experiencing loss and mourning ever be ok? Will it be ok in that next life to leave them again? How could it be- if you still love one another and don't want to be sepatated?

I tend to think being brought alive in any kind of community/ family creates codependent relationships that cause pain when they end.

Just another reason why I don't care to be reunited with dead family. Screw my entire family as far as I'm concerned, I want nothing to do with any of them. If I CTB, it will be on my own terms and if they don't like it, it's their problem whether it happens in this life or the next.
 
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staticdepression

Member
Jan 18, 2024
29
Will I be same person with same problems? Well obviously yes.
If I'm a normal person there chilling then there's no reason to ctb
 
Cauliflour

Cauliflour

I'm the doodler, I make terrible doodles.
Mar 24, 2025
841
Really depends on what kind of afterlife we're talking about here...
 
h4ppyhypoxia

h4ppyhypoxia

Student
Aug 8, 2026
125
if youve seen the show the good place id hope its like that where you can stay there for as long as you want but you have the option to leave forever when youre ready
 

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