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Al Cappella

Al Cappella

Are we there yet?
Feb 2, 2022
888
Hell no. Mine is strictly a quality of life issue, so if that's fixed I'm happy to carry on until it becomes an issue again.
 
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Seafoam

Seafoam

Student
Jun 26, 2020
103
A resounding no from me as well lol. That'd be a dream come true.
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
3,342
Yes even if some non-existent genie offered me to trade places with someone with a really "good" life good high paying job, health, youth i wouldn't take it because they don't know what i know. ... tomorow i could get into a car accident and end up like that guy that can only move his eyes and they are experimenting on him. Also even young people can get a stroke, cancer , paralyzing car accident etc.

Some rich successful humans with great lives one day fell into the abyss of hell . like Christopher Reeve became paralyzed, Robin Wililams lewy body dementia = hell , Terry Semel (yahoo ceo) got alsheimers.

imo knowledge is everything. imo i learned what it is that i really want and that is ctb non-existence. Only in non-existence can there be no suffering, no pain, no diseases, no problems , no work , no damn cleaning crap etc.

i was brought into life/existence without my consent and then programmed to think i loved useless crap in life to keep me prisoner. They made me think it was my idea to love sports , TV news, TV shows, youtube videos, movies . No that wasn't my idea . i reject all that garbage. no i didn't ask for any life nor any of this crap in life . i reject all of it . non-existence is what i want.

Even if some again some non-existent genie could grant me immortality with no chance of pain which is impossible because life is suffering / pain i'd decline : i'd get bored after the first trillion years , no actually after a few days . To me i think life and all the garbage crap they brainwashed me into thinking i loved like TV, TV shows, movies, sports, media, news etc is just garbage .
 
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Buddha.e.c

Buddha.e.c

Depressed Forever
Jan 18, 2022
121
In my case, I know that I would never want to live no matter what happened. For me, the problem is life itself. I do not want to live in a world where there is so much pain and suffering, I do not want to experience life at all, I prefer the sound of non existence. Life is just a pointless experience that we go through for the sake of it, and I have no interest in living.
Im sorry you feel this way i know how painful it can feel to still be alive. Same Day by day Ive longed for the day i leave earth and i am in peace i question my existences i wasnt meant to be born :(
 
jimmy7754

jimmy7754

I just want to be myself again
Dec 15, 2021
508
Yes even if some non-existent genie offered me to trade places with someone with a really "good" life good high paying job, health, youth i wouldn't take it because they don't know what i know. ... tomorow i could get into a car accident and end up like that guy that can only move his eyes and they are experimenting on him. Also even young people can get a stroke, cancer , paralyzing car accident etc.

Some rich successful humans with great lives one day fell into the abyss of hell . like Christopher Reeve became paralyzed, Robin Wililams lewy body dementia = hell , Terry Semel (yahoo ceo) got alsheimers.

imo knowledge is everything. imo i learned what it is that i really want and that is ctb non-existence. Only in non-existence can there be no suffering, no pain, no diseases, no problems , no work , no damn cleaning crap etc.

i was brought into life/existence without my consent and then programmed to think i loved useless crap in life to keep me prisoner. They made me think it was my idea to love sports , TV news, TV shows, youtube videos, movies . No that wasn't my idea . i reject all that garbage. no i didn't ask for any life nor any of this crap in life . i reject all of it . non-existence is what i want.

Even if some again some non-existent genie could grant me immortality with no chance of pain which is impossible because life is suffering / pain i'd decline : i'd get bored after the first trillion years , no actually after a few days . To me i think life and all the garbage crap they brainwashed me into thinking i loved like TV, TV shows, movies, sports, media, news etc is just garbage .
I'm at a very low place and reading this has made me feel better. I'm really at peace with death but it's the journey to get there that's the problem.
 
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SuicidallyCurious

Enlightened
Dec 20, 2020
1,715
Yes

Because humans always want more
 
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Buddha.e.c

Buddha.e.c

Depressed Forever
Jan 18, 2022
121
I'm at a very low place and reading this has made me feel better. I'm really at peace with death but it's the journey to get there that's the problem.
😞i can relate im ready ...
 
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veryhappyhuman

veryhappyhuman

Specialist
Aug 25, 2021
340
Lol I've reached such a state of cynicism that if something bad doesn't happen on a day, I'm like, "alright, today was normal -- what's the catch, what horrible thing is going to happen next to compensate for this".

Even if all my problems go away overnight, that suspicion/doubt alone will cause me to ctb. I just don't feel like I was supposed to be happy, ever.
 
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WorthlessTrash

WorthlessTrash

Worthless
Apr 19, 2022
2,429
No. The whole reason to CTB for me is because i am not what I desire to be. You turn me back in time and I am born as a female, i will make the best of it.
 
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long4rest

Member
May 5, 2022
12
Don't know for sure, mine is currently unsolvable. Probably would delay things but ya never know.
 
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LongtimeLoser

Member
Apr 25, 2022
94
If I had good health again I would be just as happy as I ever was.
 
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Spiritual survivor

Spiritual survivor

A born again but occasionally suicidal
Feb 13, 2022
510
No
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
11,733
I'd be so confused if everything started going right. Think I'd go from being depressed to paranoid that it wasn't real. It's hard to know if I would still want to ctb. If things were improving, maybe I would push on through but I guess this still means we are stuck with our same brains and perceptions? That's probably part of the problem... Likely nothing would stop me worrying about the upcoming catastrophe- even if one never materialised.
 
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Soulless Angel

Soulless Angel

Did someone say Rum?
Jul 6, 2020
1,272
I don't want to grow old, so matter what, ctb is the only way out for me, its just getting that time!
 
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Fadeawaaaay

Fadeawaaaay

Visionary
Nov 12, 2021
2,160
No I would not. It's the last thing I want.
 
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brood

brood

It's how I live, not how long I live.
Sep 4, 2019
62
We're all going to die, I have chosen to control when and how, so no, let life take its course
 
Rosiel

Rosiel

Member
Jan 24, 2019
45
I'll definitely carry on!

Like someone on here said, I'd live forever if everything went well for me, but life is not designed as such.

I would even try to live and take up challenges, if I didn't have such major major stressors in my life right now (lack of money, unemployment and most recently threatened to be made homeless, etc., feeling isolated ). All this despite trying and working so very hard these past 37 years…
 
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SanitySalvage

SanitySalvage

The Ugliest King
Jan 11, 2020
22
Maybe? I don't like saying never, but there are things that I know won't last forever and would probably bring back right back to where I am.
 
lastonealive

lastonealive

Member
Nov 17, 2018
8
the problem is that even after you get whatever you want.
you still are you, you still have your thoughts & memories.
if you don't work on yourself it doesn't really matter how many of your dreams come true.
 
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natali4

natali4

Student
May 24, 2021
147
Although it sounds wonderful, I agree with others. It will probably delay ctb, but I can't say for sure that I will never think of suicide again. I have PTSD, it's difficult to get rid of traumatic memories and not let it affect your day to day life.
 

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