Venting idk my self

[wellbetteroff]

i haven't been well these past few month and i lost all my friends due to depression and i feel like my family don't really care about me. im genetically ugly and have been lonely all my life i do have a loving family but its me i know im hurting them especially the wth the way im going. 12 gauge and im just really unstable right now going back and fourth shaking if i should ctb or not
im going to work rn so ill see how i feel when im done

 

[dragonofenvy]

I've felt similarly to you for a long time. I haven't had friends for five years. Outside of this site and Discord, I don't interact with anyone. I didn't want to hurt my father with my death since he's already suffered a lot from having to deal with my mother and the trauma he's experienced from his abusive sister and from being a police officer. It's good that you have a loving family. It would be really shitty without them. Whatever you decide to do once your work day is over, I wish you the best and I hope that one way or another things get better for you.