been months since i've wanted to do this but once i secured a method, i started to kinda procrastinate? like this whole idea of suicide got me daydreaming of my last days, last letters, all that shit show except one thing that i should be doing i.e. trying the method if it is all good! but neh, i didn't try it. so once i sat down, i fit up some socks around my neck, i try the night night and obviously i fail ( i got it right with the fingers tho ). didn't give up, tried again another day, and yet another and so on but just can't seem to get it right. oh and i did overdose too but the medicines were some shitty ones, nothing really happened but red eyes and good sleep. i- i want myself dead, this month only and idk if it's gonna have a painless road. so fuck that shit, let's endure the pain and get through with it. not like i care about my emotions anyways.
btw any of u writers here? or like do u write smth like some poem or short stories or anything ? i just wanna have a chit chat, get better at those things, got a self made gig.
btw any of u writers here? or like do u write smth like some poem or short stories or anything ? i just wanna have a chit chat, get better at those things, got a self made gig.
