immolation
mensajera de la santa muerte
- Oct 31, 2025
- 21
the sites acronym for suicide being "catching the bus" rlly inspired me !! so i wrote this !! 
its mediocre in my opinion but very personal to me. havent decided on a title yet.
ive decided to catch the bus today.
i left quietly, secretly
ran off into the night.
i left a goodbye letter on my bed
and all my belongings tidy, in their place
i wont need them where im headed.
the scenery along the first stop is beautiful.
gorgeous crystal waters
that wash along my skin
and turn a deep red
the view of my past getting smaller
more distant
escaping the life i couldnt bear
at the second stop, i realize i am alone
the emptiness of the bus
heavy, pressure on my lungs
as i reminisce those i left behind
but the thought dissipates just as quick
i know they wont miss me
thats the reason i took the bus at all
the third stop is the worst by far
my head is spinning
i cant think straight
im scared, and the bus is so cold
i cant feel my hands
every noise is muffled
except the incessant ringing in my ears
and my chest is pounding
it could explode any minute now
by the last stop, im euphoric
laying on the aisle floor
my mind is clear
my eyes are closed
and my limbs feel like sugar
my movements feel floaty
i feel floaty
im ready to get off
the bus route is finally done
i am done.
finally
i am no longer.
its mediocre in my opinion but very personal to me. havent decided on a title yet.ive decided to catch the bus today.
i left quietly, secretly
ran off into the night.
i left a goodbye letter on my bed
and all my belongings tidy, in their place
i wont need them where im headed.
the scenery along the first stop is beautiful.
gorgeous crystal waters
that wash along my skin
and turn a deep red
the view of my past getting smaller
more distant
escaping the life i couldnt bear
at the second stop, i realize i am alone
the emptiness of the bus
heavy, pressure on my lungs
as i reminisce those i left behind
but the thought dissipates just as quick
i know they wont miss me
thats the reason i took the bus at all
the third stop is the worst by far
my head is spinning
i cant think straight
im scared, and the bus is so cold
i cant feel my hands
every noise is muffled
except the incessant ringing in my ears
and my chest is pounding
it could explode any minute now
by the last stop, im euphoric
laying on the aisle floor
my mind is clear
my eyes are closed
and my limbs feel like sugar
my movements feel floaty
i feel floaty
im ready to get off
the bus route is finally done
i am done.
finally
i am no longer.
