I wish

[Butterfly-death]

I wish suicide was easier

I wish I had options to ctb but I'm so limited with no money or no resources

I wish I didn't feel so horrible

I wish all the therapy and pills worked

I wish I didn't have nerve damage

I wish my dad was a better person

I wish I had good vision

I wish I wasn't in debt

I wish the people around me didn't ctb before I do because I end up jealous and alone and wish that it were me

I wish I wasn't mentally ill

I wish I didn't live with my family

I wish I wasn't unemployed right now

I wish I was doing something with my life

I wish my heart would just stop beating

 

[EndlessRage]

I wish suicide was easier

I wish I had options to ctb but I'm so limited with no money or no resources

I wish I didn't feel so horrible

I wish all the therapy and pills worked

I wish I didn't have nerve damage

I wish my dad was a better person

I wish I had good vision

I wish I wasn't in debt

I wish the people around me didn't ctb before I do because I end up jealous and alone and wish that it were me

I wish I wasn't mentally ill

I wish I didn't live with my family

I wish I wasn't unemployed right now

I wish I was doing something with my life

I wish my heart would just stop beating

We wish a lot of things, the world is such a cruel & harsh place to be in. Everything and everyone moves on with or without us.
I feel hopeless exactly like this everyday hoping all my problems would be fixed by a miracle but nothing happens, it gets to a point when i just stopped caring about lot of things that were bothering me and let it happen, we're not perfect we have flaws but that's just a part of life. I don't know if i would last long in your shoes i hope you achieve what you wish for, friend :(