Venting i wish my attempt was succesful

[user933957]

I tried to commit around February of this year. It was unexpected, I just had the pills under my pillow. Don't even remember what pills were named. It's completely my fault for not researching, but I wish it would have killed me. After my attempt my bio dad straight up told me he didn't believe me that I had attempted. I cried alot after that. It was humiliating for myself to go back to school the next day like nothing happened. I felt so ashamed that I was so stupid to not research enough.

 

[mannyu344]

you can always try again

 

[FuneralCry]

It sounds really awful what you've been through but anyway I wish you the best, failing a suicide attempt is exactly what I fear.

 

[user933957]

you can always try again

I am going to next week, but i can't find any pills, my parents hid them all .

It sounds really awful what you've been through but anyway I wish you the best, failing a suicide attempt is exactly what I fear.

thank you, me too I was afraid my suicide attempt would fail but I was very confident. in the end it failed so it was embarrassing

 

[Kikoo]

I am going to next week, but i can't find any pills, my parents hid them all .

thank you, me too I was afraid my suicide attempt would fail but I was very confident. in the end it failed so it was embarrassing

Have you considered other methods?

 

[user933957]

Have you considered other methods?

yea , for right now I'm planning on ending it painfully. maybe cutting my veins in my wrists or just ending it with a stab to my stomach. not sure yet. any ideas? either painfully or peaceful would be nice.

 

[girlsboysthems]

same, and i regret it so much i wish i was dead.