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micheal7271

Member
Apr 6, 2024
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Genuinely being a woman makes my live 100x harder than it should be. I wake up everyday thinking about killing myself but I am just a loser who doesn't have have the courage to do the deed.
 
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swan7o7

Member
Apr 15, 2026
38
it wont be scary i can make it less scary, msg me.
Genuinely being a woman makes my live 100x harder than it should be. I wake up everyday thinking about killing myself but I am just a loser who doesn't have have the courage to do the deed.
im ftm as well
 
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hdead

Wizard
Jun 2, 2026
613
Coming from a human being with a penis, it's not as much fun as you might think.
 
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lastappleonearth

lastappleonearth

Слёзы на щеках
Jun 11, 2026
686
Coming from a human being with a penis, it's not as much fun as you might think.
I concur
Genuinely being a woman makes my live 100x harder than it should be. I wake up everyday thinking about killing myself but I am just a loser who doesn't have have the courage to do the deed.
That doesn't make you a looser at all. You're strong for holding on and trying, even if it seems hopeless right now. I hope everything gets better and you find something worth living for
 
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Mitaru

New Member
Aug 29, 2024
3
Genuinely being a woman makes my live 100x harder than it should be. I wake up everyday thinking about killing myself but I am just a loser who doesn't have have the courage to do the deed.
I see you. I'm ftm and I want to kill myself too lmao. Government wants to fuck us over every step of the way and we might get genocided in the near future. msg me if you wanna talk
 
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micheal7271

Member
Apr 6, 2024
22
Coming from a human being with a penis, it's not as much fun as you might think.
My culture is heavily misogynistic also my family is really religious and the religion is also very misogynistic. I was denied several opportunities just because I am a woman. I cannot fully express myself, I was taught that was the problem from day 1.
I see you. I'm ftm and I want to kill myself too lmao. Government wants to fuck us over every step of the way and we might get genocided in the near future. msg me if you wanna talk
Thank you so much 💕. I love being a women it's just the crazy double standards, the expectation, the limited opportunity all of it is because I don't have a penis.
 
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hdead

Wizard
Jun 2, 2026
613
My culture is heavily misogynistic also my family is really religious and the religion is also very misogynistic. I was denied several opportunities just because I am a woman. I cannot fully express myself, I was taught that was the problem from day 1.
While I cannot say I can relate to that, since i've never experienced that perspective, I have the perspective from a cis-white straight male that has and acknowledges his feelings. Society basically tells me what I am without me having any say over it. I have to navigate judgement, expectations and behavioral standards that do not align with who I identify as a person. I never felt like I wanted to be a woman but I strongly identify with my more feminine traits - however being a tall muscular cis-white male that is tattooed apparently can't be a sensitive man in this world either. Believe me when I say that this heavily fueled my depression and my suicidal tendencies. I have a really hard time navigating this society.
 
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_Gollum_

I wish the ring had never come to me
Mar 9, 2024
1,831
Same, I despise female biology. I wish I had testosterone pumping through my veins. I wish I was the one doing the penetrating, not the one being penetrated. I wish my entire worth wasn't based on my physical appearance.

Sorry for your situation living in a misogynistic culture and family though. That compounds the biology aspect by 1000.
 
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watergun88

Member
Aug 13, 2026
75
surprised me you still wish to be high intellence being... i just wish to be an animal ... a bird....
 
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itsgone2

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Sep 21, 2025
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My culture is heavily misogynistic also my family is really religious and the religion is also very misogynistic. I was denied several opportunities just because I am a woman. I cannot fully express myself, I was taught that was the problem from day 1.

Thank you so much 💕. I love being a women it's just the crazy double standards, the expectation, the limited opportunity all of it is because I don't have a penis.
What culture? I'm thinking Muslim since you mentioned hijab before.
It seems you like being a woman, just not a woman in that environment. Is that correct?
Regardless, im sorry you feel this way. That you're here.
 
lu15007

lu15007

Purest child
May 2, 2023
20
Society has been punishing women for just being born, id say dont give up if there is even a small chance to escape mysogynistic culture, but if it doesnt let you escape its all just torture, i feel you, man. Almost all women i know wish they were born male, men have it so much easier.
 
suicidalyuri

suicidalyuri

Suicide is a word that resonates within me...
Mar 17, 2025
69
exactly opposite for me lol I don't wanna have to be in the role of the masculine man anymore, I wanna be a girl running around in frilly dresses and listening to kawaii jpop all the time
 
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turned_to_one

turned_to_one

Dog Days of Bummer
May 7, 2026
58
Coming from a human being with a penis, it's not as much fun as you might think.
get what you're saying but be real would you want to keep living if you had a womb + vagina -and all that entails?
 
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imissmycatsomuch

Member
Aug 11, 2026
21
"That I was born a woman, instead of a man. That is my one regret." - Nico
 
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watergun88

Member
Aug 13, 2026
75
you dont even have to wish , you can just pretend to be a man for a month and then u would taste how the world is, i think there is someone done that and ctb after, she worte a book too i believe.
 
Gild-Holm-’Ur

Gild-Holm-’Ur

Ghost of relationships past
Jun 28, 2026
156
Forgive me, if this is too silly for this conversation but I can't help but think of this song:


If I had a penis, I still be a girl. But I would make much more money and conquer the world.
 
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afraidoflife

New Member
Aug 30, 2026
3
exactly opposite for me lol I don't wanna have to be in the role of the masculine man anymore, I wanna be a girl running around in frilly dresses and listening to kawaii jpop all the time
Same I'm trans mtf. Wouldn't be here if I just fkn transitioned when I knew I should have. Didn't get any support from anyone. Now my body's fucked. Man. What could have been :/
 

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