Venting i wish i wanted to live

[northmigration]

yesterday i went out for a walk and had a cigarette on my balcony. all the nature was really beautiful and the sun was shining on my face and i felt calmer than before. but i still wanted to die and i cried because i wished i could appreciate the world. there are so many beautiful things that are worth living for and i will never see them again when i'm gone, but my internal struggle is too much. i love this world and wish it loved me back

 

[Gangrel]

I'm sorry you feel that way, i relate by being jealous of people that have will to live, they just go by their day without pills or without dread like why am i not like that, what is wrong with me.