Venting i wish i could understand people

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i think i've gotten better at it but i keep getting proven wrong. it's so difficult.
people keep doing things that i don't understand, i can't figure out anyone's intentions and it all feels negative. i think i'm misunderstanding certain things and not picking up on different signals. i'm completely fucking cooked and i feel like i'm going insane just trying to understand. it's so overwhelming. just breathing has been so difficult the last few days because it's so confusing and overwhelming. now i can't help but overthink every interaction i encounter and it's horrible. my paranoia has gotten so much worse, idk what to do. i just avoid everyone at work and i think that makes it worse but idk. people sre horrible i dont understand why peolle cant just be clear about what they're doing or at the very least just answer me when i ask so i dont have to be stuck with these constant thoughts. just one extra thing to make life more unbearable, i'm so anxious and i'm trembling all of the time, i just feel sick and lightheaded and i can't fucking breathe and my heart never stops racing
i genuinely need to end my shit asap lolol

 

[purebliss]

Have you considered checking if you have autism?
This sounds all pretty much like it ^^
Maybe a diagnosis can help here and there are probably some medications available as well to help with that in some way.

 

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Have you considered checking if you have autism?
This sounds all pretty much like it ^^
Maybe a diagnosis can help here and there are probably some medications available as well to help with that in some way.

i don't think i have autism, i've just spent the majority of my life with almost no social interaction and that fucked me over, i think. plus, i was doing somewhat okay until recently because people are doing confusing things; that's the only reason why it's so frustrating right now.
thank you for the response

 

[bl33ding_heart]

If it affects your life so much you could consider studying psychology a little. You wouldn't need to study it as in depth as an actual psych major, but just the basics. And specific sectors of psychology dedicated to human behaviour. It would probably give you a clearer perspective on people's intentions and actions and ease your mind.