Venting I wish i could talk to somebody right now

[sleeplessboyinbed]

I can't express with words the way im feeling right now. I want to scream and cry. Im so scared. It's all because im stupid. Why does it have to be this way? Im just a mistake. Im a failure. There's some negative news that i would have to bring to my mom and it's my fault. I can't do this anymore. Is this a punishment for me because i didn't ctb earlier? Im suffering so much right now. From myself. She's going to hate me. I hate myself too. I feel sick from all of this stress. Why am i like this? Im crying
I have to place in this world. I wish i could have SN

 

[2muchpain2]

you can talk to me if you want!