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is this by design?
Jan 27, 2025
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it won't happen just an disney movie ideal i have lol
 
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SangreMelancolica

SangreMelancolica

Member
Apr 15, 2025
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i know how you feel. i haven't had a girlfriend and i still think about the girl who was the closest she ever got to be. i personally have more reasons for ctb than just love but it's one factor for sure
 
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Unlucked

Unlucked

Student
Jul 10, 2019
194
I actually dont want to fall in love again because in my experience it hurts more than not loving anyone.

Im actually the most stable ive been in ages because i finally fell out of love.
 
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gunmetalblue

gunmetalblue

Suicidal Jesus
Oct 31, 2025
419
Love is honestly pandora's box for me. It's a beautiful feeling, I cherish it every time. And have all the intentions in the world for it to be pure and good. But it seems to open up every dark corner and repressed trauma response I've ever had. And every romantic adventure I've had throughout life, has just made things worse and worse. I no longer think I am capable of being in a relationship, I am just too messed up.
Celibacy has been a relief in that sense. But I can understand the pain form yearning for human connection and a deep love that makes you feel wanted and understood.
I hope that you find it, and if brings you the peace you seek. Even if for a while.
 
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WhiteSkinRedBlood

WhiteSkinRedBlood

Member
Aug 17, 2025
20
Wish I could go back in time to when I was in a relationship. Things were so much better for me then.
 
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SparkleWater

SparkleWater

Student
Oct 13, 2020
118
Even if you do at some point the feelings will come back
 
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