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Playingwiththedead

Playingwiththedead

Lilah
Jun 8, 2025
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I dont want to be healthy, i dont care about my well-being. I want to destroy all the senses that keep me connected to the world around me. I feel like earth is hell. ive gone through some ridiculously bad experiences especially recently that make me feel this way and its been obvious now that the only way for me to escape all of it and break the cycle is to die. But dying/ killing yourself is way too hard.

I want to die how people that dont want to die die, from taking too many pills or having some weird disease, maybe cancer, its too hard to plan all this shit out and take the perfect amount of this or sneak out at just the right time so you can go do that, i hate it, i dont want to live, and that means i dont want to plan any of this shit either.

I like being in pain, especially physical, and ive been in a lot of it. i could absolutely bare whatever was inflicted upon me by myself or some cause out of my control. I dont care if its slow or quick, i just want to die, and i want it now
 
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booplesnoot34

I’ll miss the winter, a world of fragile things
Feb 8, 2023
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I pray for cancer every day. Suicide has a 3% success rate. It's a cruel joke that humans are so fragile and die from accidents, yet so unbelievably resilient when we actually want to die.
 
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Lilah
Jun 8, 2025
95
I pray for cancer every day. Suicide has a 3% success rate. It's a cruel joke that humans are so fragile and die from accidents, yet so unbelievably resilient when we actually want to die.
I feel like i have to die regardless. Ive had dead people coming to me since november, before i was even fully suicidal. Im not sure whats taking so long. I want to be with my husband more than anything. Earlier he told me "very soon", I hope.
 
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Apr 26, 2026
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Having a deadly disease is not anything to want or hope for. It won't bring you what you are wanting. Believe me.
I pray for cancer every day. Suicide has a 3% success rate. It's a cruel joke that humans are so fragile and die from accidents, yet so unbelievably resilient when we actually want to die.
Wanting cancer is not anything to hope for. It will not bring you what you think it will.
 
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PersonBeforeLife

I'm The too many surplus
Aug 28, 2026
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Oh the cruelty of fate. Those who want to live life is stolen from them. Those who do not, death is stolen from them.
 
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