I will try SN right now

[SorakaMein]

Hello guys i tried to be positive in life, everything, but it doesn't work. I just found out that my gf is lying to me.(she broke up with me). She said that she will come back but i read her chats (thanks to someone providing me) that she wont come back

So yeah im tired waiting im tired crying everytime. Im tired feeling this pain every second for 7 months

I feel like im a failure and i am. Always hoping to her promises.
If i didnt replied here for a week it means i succeeded

The guide that i will follow will be the #1 post in this thread

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/review-of-stan-sn-guide.60956/

I hope i will leave in peace. Didnt ate for 9 hours but i drank coke 6 hours ago . I was not planning to do SN except that when i read the chats about... Yeah very painful

 

[Julgran]

Hello guys i tried to be positive in life, everything, but it doesn't work. I just found out that my gf is lying to me.(she broke up with me). She said that she will come back but i read her chats (thanks to someone providing me) that she wont come back

So yeah im tired waiting im tired crying everytime. Im tired feeling this pain every second for 7 months

I feel like im a failure and i am. Always hoping to her promises.
If i didnt replied here for a week it means i succeeded

The guide that i will follow will be the #1 post in this thread

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/review-of-stan-sn-guide.60956/

I hope i will leave in peace. Didnt ate for 9 hours but i drank coke 6 hours ago . I was not planning to do SN except that when i read the chats about... Yeah very painful

This probably feel horrible for you, but did you also talk to your girlfriend..? She could have written those text messages to one of ther friends for any kind of reason - as a way to comfort a friend who's also contemplating leaving her relationship, for example.

 

[lifeisadream]

Please don't feel like a failure. Sadly, we have no control over the choices others make & it's natural to believe what others tell us. I'm very sorry this has happened to you & brought you to taking SN. If you decide to take the SN then I hope you find peace on the other side. It's also ok if you change your mind.

 

[FuneralCry]

Living can certainly be very cruel and painful, and I know that it's hard to carry on existing when things just get worse. I wish you freedom from suffering.

 

[SorakaMein]

This probably feel horrible for you, but did you also talk to your girlfriend..? She could have written those text messages to one of ther friends for any kind of reason - as a way to comfort a friend who's also contemplating leaving her relationship, for example.

Very horrible. The pain doesn't go away. Its been like this for 7 months then i read that certain chat. They are both talking about me.

I gave all in the relationship. And this is what i read? Sorry im crying a lot right now. Will drink SN after 1hour 30 minutes. I am using the 2 hours stats

Please don't feel like a failure. Sadly, we have no control over the choices others make & it's natural to believe what others tell us. I'm very sorry this has happened to you & brought you to taking SN. If you decide to take the SN then I hope you find peace on the other side. It's also ok if you change your mind.

I am nothing without her

Im just full of pain terrible pain right now

Living can certainly be very cruel and painful, and I know that it's hard to carry on existing when things just get worse. I wish you freedom from suffering.

Thank you very much you always reply to my threads.... Sadly this might be my last. I am serious in taking SN i am just following the 2 hours regime

 

[farakini]

I'm no stranger to heartbreak. In fact, I'm healing from a major one right now. I know you're hurting and want the pain to stop. I support your decision to ctb as I too have chosen the SN method, but if u welcome my advice, I recommend crying your eyes out and be as miserable as u wanna be. FEEL the pain and conquer it so u don't just ctb out of desparation. You've got a bunch of support here on this site. Feel free to vent and express your pain. We'll suffer together and support each other. I wish for u endless peace and relief from your pain and a comfortable journey.

 

[kooktae]

Hey i know it's not my business but I encourage you to stay. You will get over this person and you will find someone better than them. Even if you don't you will learn to live without them and you won't feel like a failure. I'm speaking from experience. I have had to go through something similar.

 

[SorakaMein]

I'm no stranger to heartbreak. In fact, I'm healing from a major one right now. I know you're hurting and want the pain to stop. I support your decision to ctb as I too have chosen the SN method, but if u welcome my advice, I recommend crying your eyes out and be as miserable as u wanna be. FEEL the pain and conquer it so u don't just ctb out of desparation. You've got a bunch of support here on this site. Feel free to vent and express your pain. We'll suffer together and support each other. I wish for u endless peace and relief from your pain and a comfortable journey.

Thank you but she knows well that this is my last attempt and im in my limits, yet she left me. So yeah even i want to continue, this memories will just keep on hunting me (just what i experienced in this 7 months. Nothing changed. The pain just keep on getting intense.)

I will try 2 glasses of SN tho of course i will try 1 glass first. If i vomit then i will consume the next
Honestly. Im full of pain. Then numb. Then full of pain again. Im tired crying

Hey i know it's not my business but I encourage you to stay. You will get over this person and you will find someone better than them. Even if you don't you will learn to live without them and you won't feel like a failure. I'm speaking from experience. I have had to go through something similar.

My reply will still be the same above

I am nothing without her. And she knows it well

 

[MidnightDream]

Good luck lovely, wishing you a safe and peaceful experience <3

 

[hopelessgirl]

I understand feeling like life is worthless because you cannot be with the one you love. I am there myself.

 

[BaronVon]

I would ask you not to carry this through, give yourself some time . this is a major decision if you are still in your younger years, i understand people on here who have long lasting illness or pain like myself who want to CTB , but for the hurt of a relationship , this is not the time to do it, time will heal this feeling , unlike medical or severe mental pain. Being heartbroken over a relationship is something most of us deal with sometime in life, i have had a few but i have never thought about taking my life over it. Time will heal this pain, i wish you good luck in your recovery

 

[hopelessgirl]

I would ask you not to carry this through, give yourself some time . this is a major decision if you are still in your younger years, i understand people on here who have long lasting illness or pain like myself who want to CTB , but for the hurt of a relationship , this is not the time to do it, time will heal this feeling , unlike medical or severe mental pain. Being heartbroken over a relationship is something most of us deal with sometime in life, i have had a few but i have never thought about taking my life over it. Time will heal this pain, i wish you good luck in your recovery

Can his love for her save him?

 

[botch3d]

Not worth to ctb for someone else. Fuck her . If you're healthy keep moving .

 

[Mtnwildflowers]

Your life, your choice but if this is your first or second heartbreak, it might be worth giving it more time. Some people are slow grievers like myself as well. It took me YEARS to get over prior heartbreaks. 4 or 5 years for one. I am so so so glad that when I ctb it won't be over a relationship but truly my choice independent of an external factor like a person. I would be pissed if I would have killed myself over my prior relationships because honestly you do learn to get past them and handle future break ups better. You realize you can live without a person you may have once thought was so critical to your life. Most things in life are temporary just like relationships and people. Hard lesson to learn though. I might not have the whole picture though, so you know you best and if it's right. Respecting whatever your choice is though. Sorry for your pain.

 

[hopelessgirl]

Safe travels <3 Are you still with us?

 

[makethepainstop]

Can his love for her save him?

 

[Cathy Ames]

I am nothing without her

I'm very sorry about what you're going through, but this part is not true. And it doesn't seem to me like you've been apart long enough for the pain to dissipate so that you can see things more clearly.

I wish you peace and relief from suffering, regardless of what happens next. Please do come back if you change your mind.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I'd never CTB because of anyone else. I'll only take myself out because of me and me alone.

 

[onetapgandhi]

I'd never CTB because of anyone else. I'll only take myself out because of me and me alone.

This. I am going to die because people kept on fucking me over and I'm fucking tired of fighting.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

This. I am going to die because people kept on fucking me over and I'm fucking tired of fighting.

We'll have to not see eye to eye on this. I won't ever ctb because of anything someone else does to me, or has done to me. I wouldn't give them the satisfaction.

 

[Finding Sirius]

If you decided to go through with it, I hope you find peace. Rest well.

 

[onetapgandhi]

We'll have to not see eye to eye on this. I won't ever ctb because of anything someone else does to me, or has done to me. I wouldn't give them the satisfaction.

Curious why are you here? Are you going to CTB? If yes, why? If no, why are you judging others on their fights?

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Curious why are you here? Are you going to CTB? If yes, why? If no, why are you judging others on their fights?

First off, this isn't even your thread. Second, I don't owe you, or anyone else, any explanations regarding anything whatsoever, including my reasons for ctb. Those reasons are well documented in multiple other threads here on SaSu. Spoiler Alert...............it certainly isn't because of some significant other that I can't get over. Third, you incorrectly referenced what I wrote with a "This", when what I said was the complete opposite of what you stated in your remarks that followed. Forth, I made my remarks in reference to what the OP said in their post, not in anticipation of what you might say. Fifth, I couldn't care less what your reasons for ctb are.

I made a statement of fact in my post that, "I'd never CTB because of anyone else. I'll only take myself out because of me and me alone". It was a statement of fact regarding me and me alone. Just because you read into those words and intents and/or inference that is not there is not my problem. I didn't judge anybody. I merely stated a reason why I would not ctb.

 

[onetapgandhi]

First off, this isn't even your thread. Second, I don't owe you, or anyone else, any explanations regarding anything whatsoever, including my reasons for ctb. Those reasons are well documented in multiple other threads here on SaSu. Spoiler Alert...............it certainly isn't because of some significant other that I can't get over. Third, you incorrectly referenced what I wrote with a "This", when what I said was the complete opposite of what you stated in your remarks that followed. Forth, I made my remarks in reference to what the OP said in their post, not in anticipation of what you might say. Fifth, I couldn't care less what your reasons for ctb are.

I made a statement of fact in my post that, "I'd never CTB because of anyone else. I'll only take myself out because of me and me alone". It was a statement of fact regarding me and me alone. Just because you read into those words and intents and/or inference that is not there is not my problem. I didn't judge anybody. I merely stated a reason why I would not ctb.

You're a bully. You think only you are right and everything else except you is weak. You know what. Yeah. I don't think I agree with you either.

 

[Hiraeth]

I hope you've found peace.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

You're a bully. You think only you are right and everything else except you is weak. You know what. Yeah. I don't think I agree with you either.

You can think whatever you want about me. You're the one who started the nonsense with your passive-aggressive, in-my-face, line of questioning, basically attacking my stance that I would never ctb because of the actions of another. You dissed my beliefs and you call me the bully?

 

[Littlewittlelight]

Don't do that please it's someone's goodbye thread and it has happened before too. Take it to dms or make another thread for it if you still are not in an agreement. Please before we see another thread with messages filled with things not relevant to op. It's op's thread it was their fight. Don't even know what happened to her but whatever their reason was we don't need to state why we would ctb here. She must have not been here for advice and people did try to deter her but she didn't even reply. Now can stop and not continue? I just hope we don't argue here anymore.

 

[CHXX]

不管怎样，你自由了，祝福你

 

[Mtnwildflowers]

First off, this isn't even your thread. Second, I don't owe you, or anyone else, any explanations regarding anything whatsoever, including my reasons for ctb. Those reasons are well documented in multiple other threads here on SaSu. Spoiler Alert...............it certainly isn't because of some significant other that I can't get over. Third, you incorrectly referenced what I wrote with a "This", when what I said was the complete opposite of what you stated in your remarks that followed. Forth, I made my remarks in reference to what the OP said in their post, not in anticipation of what you might say. Fifth, I couldn't care less what your reasons for ctb are.

I made a statement of fact in my post that, "I'd never CTB because of anyone else. I'll only take myself out because of me and me alone". It was a statement of fact regarding me and me alone. Just because you read into those words and intents and/or inference that is not there is not my problem. I didn't judge anybody. I merely stated a reason why I would not ctb.

You're a bully. You think only you are right and everything else except you is weak. You know what. Yeah. I don't think I agree with you either.

How does that make this person a bully? The user is stating why they wouldn't ctb and is entitled to their own opinion. I didn't read that at all as a judgement on OP only as a personal statement. You can respect another persons reason to ctb while holding your own feelings as to why or why not you would choose to ctb.

You stated you've been fucked over by people and that's cool if that's why part of why you want to ctb. It's also fair to put out their other perspectives as to what makes you personally not want to do it for that reason. When I was young I use to think it was worth ctb over people…my view after decades of relationships is different. Wanting to ctb is there for other reasons, and if I did it over a person or persons, the only person that would have been dead at the end of the day is me. If you want to ctb over a person, heartbreak, getting fucked over by people..your life, your choice, and I respect that. At the end of the day though, dying means your life is taken away no matter what the reason is. Knowing it's truly what I want independent of an external factor like a person or relationship is much more satisfying to me. If that doesn't matter to you that's okay too. Doesn't make people bullies for sharing life perspectives when OP pretty clearly appears to be overwhelmed by the emotional part of their brain. I didn't read they were saying "don't do it" , inferring judgment, but just sharing one personal perspective which is very much allowed on this forum.

 

[Another Day Empty]

Omg people, please take this to a dm off of this thread.