borntobesilly:/
Dumbass
- Jan 2, 2024
- 1
Hello
I am in my kurt cobain painting his ceiling age now. Since i was 16 i started trying and i never expected to still be here, did not learn any way of coping bc selfdestruction felt more fitting.
even in the moments where i would want to continue i have no ability to enjoy anything other then getting tats and drinking.
1 and a half years ago i od'ed willingly on a huge amount of rc benzos and got found a day later
Was 2 days in intensive care and had no concience but apparently i kept trying to pull the catheter outta my dick
I remember the happiness i felt before i passed out bc i thought that would be it(im aware that wasnt the best choice) and the regret when i released how much i hurt my friends.
After that i existed for my friends out of guilt but i cannot continue this way even tho i am dreaded with the thought how they would react.
(Pic not related idk i wanted to make a joke but it sucks)
I cannot live and i was doomed from the start
I am in my kurt cobain painting his ceiling age now. Since i was 16 i started trying and i never expected to still be here, did not learn any way of coping bc selfdestruction felt more fitting.
even in the moments where i would want to continue i have no ability to enjoy anything other then getting tats and drinking.
1 and a half years ago i od'ed willingly on a huge amount of rc benzos and got found a day later
Was 2 days in intensive care and had no concience but apparently i kept trying to pull the catheter outta my dick
I remember the happiness i felt before i passed out bc i thought that would be it(im aware that wasnt the best choice) and the regret when i released how much i hurt my friends.
After that i existed for my friends out of guilt but i cannot continue this way even tho i am dreaded with the thought how they would react.
(Pic not related idk i wanted to make a joke but it sucks)
I cannot live and i was doomed from the start
