Venting I will never believe in myself or other people

[ALonelyFreak]

Whatever I'll achieve I'll never believe in myself that I'm skilled, beautiful, smart, whatever. When I complete my damn PhD I'll still think I'm an idiot. Because when I tried my hardest I failed. Because I've heard I'm fat and ugly. Because I never hear complements unless I force people to complement me.

And I'll never believe others care about me that others value me. I'll keep thinking people want to hurt me or don't mind hurting me. Cuz when I'm being hurt nobody notices. So I'll always think people just want to abuse me somehow. I'm just a pawn to everybody.

 

[Require_love]

Same. It's always "you're so weird".
Maybe I am. You know, I used to believe in myself and others once. That was very stupid. I lost hope in myself, and I just want to lose hope in others, so that I'll never be hurt again.
Hugs.

 

[SVEN]

I don't want to hurt you and I'm sorry so many of us are hurting.

 

[cemeteryismyhome]

Same (except no PhD and I've been called skinny and ugly). On this site we stare reality in the face and call it like it is. But I sincerely hope you find some comfort in your life.