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unabletocope
I'd like to shut down
- Mar 13, 2024
- 728
I don't know why I'm so awkward. I never felt totally secure with people. Never quite clicked into with people. As I focus on the epicentre of that feeling now.. I never felt I was in place, I never felt I was clicking with where I was, fitting into where I was. I never figured out how to fit. I tried to fit, I did everything I could to fit. But I couldn't and my inability to fit has fucked up my life. I will never settle down, get the best of life. I'm out of sync with everything, I'm too regarded as embarrassing, my health and potential is gone, you can't repeat the way you grew up and the way I am shattered is at odds with any kind of enthusiasm for life. I don't know how I ended up on a suicide forum but it's an inevitable conclusion for someone who has screwed up like I have, as I fall down to die I feel what is lost and focus on what I am walking towards, despite the wreckage its all I have got now