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Hey everyone! I'm pretty new here but I gotta say everyone I have interacted with has been so helpful and kind. I've never felt so welcomed into a group or conversation as much as I have in this forum.

I just wanted to share that I was able to place my order for SN through chemimpex, they still have to verify my information in order for my purchase to go through but I'm hopeful it'll be cleared. I have another website in mind in case it doesn't work but I have high hopes. I would suggest this place if you live in the US or Canada since their shipping procedures are pretty similar to standard American companies and the price was pretty reasonable with shipping.

I was a bit hesitant to try since these places always ask for company names or job titles, I honestly just lied and used my old college/university email. Which is why I'm still not celebrating all the way since there's a chance it could get flagged. This is my first time using this website for this kind of purchase, so I suggest everyone do their research before trying but I did want to recommend it since it seemed pretty easy and smooth. Especially, because it has been a bit difficult trying to contact sellers I've tried websites and business apps from places like China and India the past few days, but those have been a bit tricky to navigate.

If everything gets cleared I'm going to plan everything out like pick a date, choose a regiment etc. I read the SN resource guide and so far I have most things needed except for like the food scale and testing strips but that'll be obtained once I have the goods. I did have a question, I don't have any benzos or sedatives to deal with the anxiety and agitation but I have access to a family member's muscle relaxers and buspirone does anyone know of any cases where this has been used as a replacement? Would me possibly using this as a substitute be a good idea?

I have been experiencing panic attacks and could try getting Xanax or something similar, but I honestly don't want to have to go through another doctor's appointment as I'm chronically ill (hEDS crew here) and I'm sick and tired of seeing doctors :/ I would also like to do this as soon and as uninterrupted as possible and I'm afraid this could ring alarms for my providers. They would also be hesitant to give me these meds since it could interact with my other ones but anyways

I'm still doing my research and whatnot about the method so feel free to share your method or things you're doing to make this process easier for yourself and achieve peak success and comfort :)
 

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