I want to stream my CTB, is this wrong?

[Pidgeons_Sparrows]

Id like to livestream my (hopefully succesful) CTB attempt using SN, is something wrong with me lol?
I will CTB soon, not in the next 2 weeks but
Would anyone like to see this?

I dont know I just think it would be like a gift, paying back to this community, giving you more data about the SN method to analyze its effectiveness and perhaps find ways to improve it

Also obviously to make myself feel less alone, death after all is very scary and the experience is way more bearable when there is someone watching you and talking to you or soothing you during the deed


My plan:

-Begin complete fast, no food and water 24 hours before anything
Once 24 hours are up:
-4x 10mg Metoclopramide tablets
-Wait 40 minutes
-6x 5g SN bombs, rolled up using cigarette paper or toilet paper to mitigate throat burn and bad taste
-Either 50x 10mg Diazepam or 10mg of liquid Bromazolam, maybe even Flubromazolam? Extremely potent hypnotic Benzo
-Maybe also some Propanolol

 

[justastranger]

I mean ig if you are doing it for analayzing, the thought of doing it isn't so bad. But if you were to livestream it people could call people to your house or something possibly getting you caught yk?

 

[luminiby]

I'm not sure if that would be wise given that once people know your intention they will of course attempt to stop you. If it's for scientific reasons as you expressed, I see the intention but it's most definitely not going to come off as such with the public witnesses involved

 

[that smell]

I don't think it's wrong to record or stream it as long as it's not broadcasted to unwilling viewers.

Why are you planning to parachute the SN instead of just dissolving it in water and drinking it?

 

[Pidgeons_Sparrows]

I mean ig if you are doing it for analayzing, the thought of doing it isn't so bad. But if you were to livestream it people could call people to your house or something possibly getting you caught yk?

I mean it would be very hard for people to find my location If all i did was livestream myself in my room or bed taking it

Hows someone supposed to figure out where i am lol

I wanna do it for analyzing and for calming. I want someone to talk to me and soothe me while i CTB ideally.

I'm not sure if that would be wise given that once people know your intention they will of course attempt to stop you. If it's for scientific reasons as you expressed, I see the intention but it's most definitely not going to come off as such with the public witnesses involved

It would be for scientific reasons and also to calm myself down and have someone to talk to while it happens. To make death less lonely.


Lol obviously I wouldnt stream it to the normie crowd of pro-lifers, more like something private, with 5 or 10 people invited, maybe from this site, and nothing more

 

[Death is my goal]

imo, just ctb don't bother

 

[Pidgeons_Sparrows]

I don't think it's wrong to record or stream it as long as it's not broadcasted to unwilling viewers.

Why are you planning to parachute the SN instead of just dissolving it in water and drinking it?

Of course, It will only be with viewers who consent and actually want to watch and know what they are about to watch, not gonna publicly stream it on facebook or twitch or some bullshit like that, thats just stupid

Gonna parachute / bomb the SN to avoid throat burn and the godawful taste. Im not very resistant to disgusting things and im pretty sure the taste alone will make me gag, vomit, or spit it out, judging by stories from people who have taken SN here.

 

[justastranger]

Of course, It will only be with viewers who consent and actually want to watch and know what they are about to watch, not gonna publicly stream it on facebook or twitch or some bullshit like that, thats just stupid

Gonna parachute / bomb the SN to avoid throat burn and the godawful taste. Im not very resistant to disgusting things and im pretty sure the taste alone will make me gag, vomit, or spit it out, judging by stories from people who have taken SN here.

I've heard it's different for some people though, because some say its disgusting some say it's just salty. It will be different for each person

 

[Pidgeons_Sparrows]

I've heard it's different for some people though, because some say its disgusting some say it's just salty. It will be different for each person

Im not very resistant to salty things, I hate really salty foods or anything very salty

 

[katara]

i don't think anyone here would have an issue with that. I personally dont really like the sn method, but some people might find it reassuring to see what it looks like, and to know what to expect.

 

[FacePALM]

Look I don't know you or your story but please think of the repercussions of this. I am assuming you have a family, would they want to see you die? I am not talking about the stream but about the recording of it. I feel like I've said it eight millions times now but I have a friend who killed herself, she recorded it and her mother saw and had to come to terms with that, I don't particularly think that helped her.

All I am saying is really think this trough. And no I don't think it's wrong, I don't think it's smart though. But I understand the dying alone thing. I completely understand. Sorry you are going trough this.

 

[Pidgeons_Sparrows]

Look I don't know you or your story but please think of the repercussions of this. I am assuming you have a family, would they want to see you die? I am not talking about the stream but about the recording of it. I feel like I've said it eight millions times now but I have a friend who killed herself, she recorded it and her mother saw and had to come to terms with that, I don't particularly think that helped her.

All I am saying is really think this trough. And no I don't think it's wrong, I don't think it's smart though. But I understand the dying alone thing. I completely understand. Sorry you are going trough this.

I do have a family yes but I barely have contact with them nowadays. My parents sucked so I moved out into my own tiny apartment a while ago. Honestly they would probably never find the video.

Meh I dont care if my family gets traumatized by it. I never really liked my family.

 

[AshClouds]

Do not live stream it. Some shitheads will record it and they'll spread to other shitheads who'll spread it all across the internet for cheaps laughs.

Seriously, don't consider filming it

 

[Das Nichts]

At least mask up if your streaming / recording this to preserve some anonymity.

 

[FuneralCry]

I personally wouldn't see it as being the best idea but after all it's your choice.

 

[Disaster]

I also wouldn't like to be alone, but unfortunately that's how we die in this society.almost everywhere seeing someone kill themselves and not getting them "help" would be a crime. Would you like those viewers to be prosecuted?

 

[YEAR2050]

if you feel like it, go for it. depending on when you plan to start the stream, you might have people irl trying to stop you before youre gone, though. idk if you care about being made fun of, but some people might, like ronnie mcnutt

 

[Pidgeons_Sparrows]

At least mask up if your streaming / recording this to preserve some anonymity.

Fair fair, I am a pretty ugly fuck anyway so getting a mask would be nice, not like anyone wants to see my face lmao

Do not live stream it. Some shitheads will record it and they'll spread to other shitheads who'll spread it all across the internet for cheaps laughs.

Seriously, don't consider filming it

Not intending to publicly livestream it for everyone to see, moreso a private video call or something where I pick a few people online that I trust

 

[dyn00ss]

Id like to livestream my (hopefully succesful) CTB attempt using SN, is something wrong with me lol?
I will CTB soon, not in the next 2 weeks but
Would anyone like to see this?

I dont know I just think it would be like a gift, paying back to this community, giving you more data about the SN method to analyze its effectiveness and perhaps find ways to improve it

Also obviously to make myself feel less alone, death after all is very scary and the experience is way more bearable when there is someone watching you and talking to you or soothing you during the deed


My plan:

-Begin complete fast, no food and water 24 hours before anything
Once 24 hours are up:
-4x 10mg Metoclopramide tablets
-Wait 40 minutes
-6x 5g SN bombs, rolled up using cigarette paper or toilet paper to mitigate throat burn and bad taste
-Either 50x 10mg Diazepam or 10mg of liquid Bromazolam, maybe even Flubromazolam? Extremely potent hypnotic Benzo
-Maybe also some Propanolol

I don't think this idea is wrong, of course in some cases and situations it can be bad because of privacy, I even thought about making a broadcast too, so no I don't think it's strange and I've watched a live broadcast about..

 

[SpiderLink]

Id like to livestream my (hopefully succesful) CTB attempt using SN, is something wrong with me lol?
I will CTB soon, not in the next 2 weeks but
Would anyone like to see this?

I dont know I just think it would be like a gift, paying back to this community, giving you more data about the SN method to analyze its effectiveness and perhaps find ways to improve it

Also obviously to make myself feel less alone, death after all is very scary and the experience is way more bearable when there is someone watching you and talking to you or soothing you during the deed


My plan:

-Begin complete fast, no food and water 24 hours before anything
Once 24 hours are up:
-4x 10mg Metoclopramide tablets
-Wait 40 minutes
-6x 5g SN bombs, rolled up using cigarette paper or toilet paper to mitigate throat burn and bad taste
-Either 50x 10mg Diazepam or 10mg of liquid Bromazolam, maybe even Flubromazolam? Extremely potent hypnotic Benzo
-Maybe also some Propanolol

Personally I think that's a terrible idea. Someone could easily find out where u live, and cops arrive at your door. You'd probably get charged too for live streaming it. I think of this as like watching a murder, it's just too graphic. Doesn't matter how u do it, it's not a movie..

 

[Das Nichts]

Not intending to publicly livestream it for everyone to see, moreso a private video call or something where I pick a few people online that I trust

I can relate to the idea that my Ctb could give others certainty that the method works and maybe take away the fear.

However you need to be aware that it's guaranteed that this shit will be leaked publicly. Ist just takes on asshole that pretends.

 

[glitterypearls]

don't people remember that poor dude who livestreamed himself CTB with a gun on discord which I assume he did it in a discord server among online friends, someone recorded it and now it's on every gore site where people make jokes about him, call him names and disrespect him.

one of those 10 people will record it, you can't trust anyone not to record it, If you are okay with it getting recorded and posted online to be mocked and disrespected for entertainment then yes go ahead and do it, but if you don't want that to happen then don't stream it.

someone will record it and your family will see it one day and it will break their heart just from reading the comments.

a user here trusted someone from this forum and she said that during trying to CTB the police came because that user figured her info somehow and they even banned the user from this forum I think, but this just shows that you can't trust anyone, if you want to help people here maybe do what most people would do which is update on their own post every time they do something, some even update what they felt after taking it then they wiped their devices and hopefully died peacefully.