I want to spend my last $800 on a gun

[SummerChristmasEve]

I walked out of my job today and honestly never want to set foot in there again. I can't afford to be out of work for more than a month. I can either spend this money on bills, or I can finally ctb. I think I can get a used handgun for like $300, and maybe ctb in a hotel room. I'm really not wanting to traumatize anyone when finding my body, so some advice on where to do it would be good. Home is not an option but I do have a car.

 

[as i am as am i]

If you're not looking to do it in a public space and ideally dont want to traumatize anyone, doing it in nature has always been my thought. Idk how close nature is to you, but theres quite a lot of abandoned woods near me

 

[SummerChristmasEve]

I'm in the suburbs, so it's hard to find actual wooded areas that aren't just property lines. Should I write a note about where to find my body? If they deem I'm a missing person I probably should, right?

 

[nihilistkaze7]

if your goal isn't to traumatize anyone, then i wouldn't leave a note on where to find you- anyone who finds your body is a potential victim of PTSD.

if it were me, i'd set an automated message to send after enough time has passed for my body to be eaten by animals, and decomposed down to bones

 

[itsgone2]

If you have a car why not drive for a while and find somewhere secluded? Only problem with hotel is you could injure someone else. Bullets can deflect off things mine klkkkkkkkkk

 

[FadingSnowFake]

I can relate to spending the last of your money on the means. I promised myself to use either my last $100, or my first salary after being unemployed, to buy SN. I bought the SN three months ago, turns out the new employment is working out for now.

As for your question, only thing I can think of would be to maybe drive as far out as possible to a viewpoint of some kind at a time when it is deserted. Cover the car windows from the inside and leave a big note outside warning that it's a crime scene/suicide and to call the police to have the body removed. I wish you all the best, whatever you may decide.