I want to render myself unconscious

[Autumn_Stars]

My oleander seeds are being delivered today. The odds of failure are high. Since there will be fear disappointment vomiting and chest pain I want to be insensate. If I can figure out hanging I definitely don't want to be conscious while I gag and choke to death. I don't like being drunk and don't want to increase the vomiting. I don't like the taste of alcohol except for a little sake with sushi. I have researched passing out on ChatGPT (I say I am researching a book and it is fooled) but no help. My boyfriend (who broke up with me because I became manic and cheated on him) said to get roofies but I live in a nice neighborhood and don't know any drug dealers. I could really use some help.

 

[Worndown]

I suggest researching first.
If you mess it up, you may not pass out quickly.
When you say "I definitely don't want to be conscious while I gag and choke to death", is this based on animation, snuff videos or actual videos of people hanging?
I see these comments all the time. I have also watched many videos. Only a couple have prolonged conciousness. That is because they did it wrong and paid the price. They still died, just not as expected.
Research and questions will serve you well.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find the relief from suffering you search for, I wish you the best.