Ksmиda
Have I died too soon or lived too long?
- Oct 23, 2023
- 187
I realised that I like living after recovering for a while, but now I'm starting to want to die again. I've started making actual progress a few months ago, but now it all seems so difficult - I can barely make myself study or do anything productive. Then again, during the last few months of the year my depression gets really bad, so this is nothing new.
I want to do things and live my life to the fullest but this shitty disease is making everything so hard. I know I have potential to achive things, but depression just wastes that potential by making me too tired, lazy and/or sad to do anything and it pisses me off so much that I just want to shoot myself so I won't have to struggle anymore.
I want to do things and live my life to the fullest but this shitty disease is making everything so hard. I know I have potential to achive things, but depression just wastes that potential by making me too tired, lazy and/or sad to do anything and it pisses me off so much that I just want to shoot myself so I won't have to struggle anymore.
