Venting I want to leave so badly, but I can’t. It’s killing me.

[bunny_brownie9]

I was going to leave last month but things got in the way.

I have a very important holiday coming up next month with my LDR bf, and my boyfriend graduates. I can't have all of that ruined by me doing this. Everyday it's even harder to stay and I just want to be at peace.

This would delay things until mid June but I can't ruin him graduating and having a good future.

I also have a few events before then that I want to attend (concerts lol I'm a huge nerd). I don't know how I can hold on until June.

 

[UKscotty]

There is no rush and putting other people first shows you are a caring person.

Too many are me, me, me what about me and my suffering.

You sound like a nice person.

 

[Malaria]

I feel very similar

 

[bunny_brownie9]

There is no rush and putting other people first shows you are a caring person.

Too many are me, me, me what about me and my suffering.

You sound like a nice person.

I feel guilty and believe that I always will, but I want to feel that I've left at a time when things are settled for them and there is lots of hope for them to do well in life, plus having made lots of good memories.

I try my best to be nice haha

I feel very similar

it's very difficult

 

[LunarLight]

I understand how difficult it is for you to leave them. It shows you're a caring person. However, don't forget to take care of yourself first. Whether it's therapy, meds, or if you've tried everything, CTBing, you should focus on yourself.