I want to kill myself so badly, have a 9mm

[L'absent]

Ummm.... no one said the chances were high. however it happens more often than you think. Especially in countries with good hospitals and medical care if you're found immediately. It's not like the movies or TV.

You wrote that people survive a long time after being shot in the head in your previous post.

 

[cloudyskye]

You wrote that people survive a long time after being shot in the head in your previous post.

I said people survive head shots a lot. Meaning a lot of people. Not most but a lot. Some are shot by others quite a few in attempted suicide. People have survived attempting with shotguns. It is catastrophic. It's not like failing at poison or hanging or even sn. You will be horribly injured.

 

[midstarscream]

Failed a suicide attempt in 2019 and I've still been miserable. People keep telling me life gets better but it never does. I can't fucking wait to kill myself but I always get so paranoid that I'll miss the brainstem and that I'll have a super painful death or that I won't actually die and paramedics will come and I'll just be a vegetable unable to kill myself ever again.

I have 9mm hollow points with my pistol. I have an MRI showing exactly where the medulla/pons/thalamus are in my skull. I've replanned this so many times, but my paranoid ass gets so fucking paranoid about recoil or involuntary last millisecond jerks that I don't even know where to shoot, at what angle, etc. I could just get a 12 gauge pretty easily but I've heard that with long barrels your neck extension can just make you blow your face off instead of hitting the brainstem.

I'm sure I want to die, I just wish I knew how, where to aim, how to angle, whether to use FMJ or HP, what caliber, fuck.... I hate my life so much I've literally devolved into insanity.

I'm quite a paranoid person too. I hope you find the peace you are looking for.

 

[BrokenMindAndBody]

Failed a suicide attempt in 2019 and I've still been miserable. People keep telling me life gets better but it never does. I can't fucking wait to kill myself but I always get so paranoid that I'll miss the brainstem and that I'll have a super painful death or that I won't actually die and paramedics will come and I'll just be a vegetable unable to kill myself ever again.

I have 9mm hollow points with my pistol. I have an MRI showing exactly where the medulla/pons/thalamus are in my skull. I've replanned this so many times, but my paranoid ass gets so fucking paranoid about recoil or involuntary last millisecond jerks that I don't even know where to shoot, at what angle, etc. I could just get a 12 gauge pretty easily but I've heard that with long barrels your neck extension can just make you blow your face off instead of hitting the brainstem.

I'm sure I want to die, I just wish I knew how, where to aim, how to angle, whether to use FMJ or HP, what caliber, fuck.... I hate my life so much I've literally devolved into insanity.

I wish I could obtain a gun... really I wish I could just have a painless death. But anyway. My state has the most strict gun laws in the USA and at points in my life I've been to a mental hospital. That basically stops me from getting a gun. But, I'm sorry that life sucks. The thing I'd worry about with a gun is accidentally surviving with brain damage and an awful disfigurement. My mom worked in an ER and once told me a story about a guy who survived. I'd be careful and again I'm sorry your life isn't turning out well. Mine hasn't either and my health will only get worse as I grow older.

 

[L'absent]

Yeah I know I'll likely die but if I miss the brainstem I'll probably feel excruciating pain worse than anything else I've felt before for a couple of seconds before succumbimg to ICP

Sorry, I didn't understand the answer well with the translation. It seemed like a general death, but instead it referred to a hypothetical suicide with a weapon. Well, usually when you shoot yourself in the head you lose consciousness, but not everyone loses consciousness. A small proportion of people remain conscious and it is not known how much pain they feel, or if they feel pain at all. My grandfather was hit by several bullets all over his body during the war and says he didn't feel anything particular immediately. He only felt some pain upon arriving at the nursing tent about half an hour later. But if you have this fear and are also hesitant, you should change your method. The gun is a method that has enormous lethality and when you pull the trigger you don't have a second chance to think about it.

 

[endofline2010]

At point blank, in the mouth, FMJ vs HP has effectively no difference.

 

[blacksand]

I said people survive head shots a lot. Meaning a lot of people. Not most but a lot. Some are shot by others quite a few in attempted suicide. People have survived attempting with shotguns. It is catastrophic. It's not like failing at poison or hanging or even sn. You will be horribly injured.

I'm keen to hear the survival stories of 9mm plus sized ammo aimed above the ear. I doubt there is any case and they'll be rewriting the medical journals if such a thing is as common as you claim. In any case adding nooses or water or cliffs and bridges after the gunshot is a very easy task.

 

[cicada6865]

Sorry, I didn't understand the answer well with the translation. It seemed like a general death, but instead it referred to a hypothetical suicide with a weapon. Well, usually when you shoot yourself in the head you lose consciousness, but not everyone loses consciousness. A small proportion of people remain conscious and it is not known how much pain they feel, or if they feel pain at all. My grandfather was hit by several bullets all over his body during the war and says he didn't feel anything particular immediately. He only felt some pain upon arriving at the nursing tent about half an hour later. But if you have this fear and are also hesitant, you should change your method. The gun is a method that has enormous lethality and when you pull the trigger you don't have a second chance to think about it.

My only fear really is that neighbors will hear it (in an apartment) and that paramedics will come and I'll wake up as a vegetable in a hospital, which would make my life so much worse than it is right now. Don't care much about second chances, but that could just be the depression talking. Might go do it in a field somewhere far away.

 

[Surai]

I just want a bullet through my dome to remind me just how easy it can be

 

[blacksand]

My only fear really is that neighbors will hear it (in an apartment) and that paramedics will come and I'll wake up as a vegetable in a hospital, which would make my life so much worse than it is right now. Don't care much about second chances, but that could just be the depression talking. Might go do it in a field somewhere far away.

Stand in knee deep water preferably the ocean.

 

[pariah80]

My question is how do people who ctb with guns prevent the bullets from going off track due to recoil or bouncing around the skull? If I weren't a coward I would only use a shotgun to the head to ctb. I couldn't risk living permanently disfigured and unable to physically ctb after.

They just pull the trigger and let the chips fall where they may. They do the best research that they can. They stay OFF of forums like this that will only confuse and frighten them into inactivity and self loathing. Then, they do it. That's it. That's how they do it.

Failed a suicide attempt in 2019 and I've still been miserable. People keep telling me life gets better but it never does. I can't fucking wait to kill myself but I always get so paranoid that I'll miss the brainstem and that I'll have a super painful death or that I won't actually die and paramedics will come and I'll just be a vegetable unable to kill myself ever again.

I have 9mm hollow points with my pistol. I have an MRI showing exactly where the medulla/pons/thalamus are in my skull. I've replanned this so many times, but my paranoid ass gets so fucking paranoid about recoil or involuntary last millisecond jerks that I don't even know where to shoot, at what angle, etc. I could just get a 12 gauge pretty easily but I've heard that with long barrels your neck extension can just make you blow your face off instead of hitting the brainstem.

I'm sure I want to die, I just wish I knew how, where to aim, how to angle, whether to use FMJ or HP, what caliber, fuck.... I hate my life so much I've literally devolved into insanity.

A temporal shot or (if the barrel is not too thick) in the mouth. Make sure you can get leverage to aim up just a little. JHP is the way to go. 9mm will get the job done. A lot of people on here live in places where guns are either restricted or very difficult to get. So, a lot of the information they get are from skewed, pro-life media that is used to dissuade catching the bus. Go to any general firearms forum or YouTube channel to get all the information you need. Stop listening to people who've never seen a gun, much less fired a gun, and are trying to commit suicide with aspirin.

 

[failureofahuman]

I'm legitimately jealous that you have a gun, if I got a gun I would be dead so soon

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

I think I'll buy a 12ga shotgun today

I need to do it soon. I'm lucky they're available.

 

[L'absent]

They just pull the trigger and let the chips fall where they may. They do the best research that they can. They stay OFF of forums like this that will only confuse and frighten them into inactivity and self loathing. Then, they do it. That's it. That's how they do it.

A temporal shot or (if the barrel is not too thick) in the mouth. Make sure you can get leverage to aim up just a little. JHP is the way to go. 9mm will get the job done. A lot of people on here live in places where guns are either restricted or very difficult to get. So, a lot of the information they get are from skewed, pro-life media that is used to dissuade catching the bus. Go to any general firearms forum or YouTube channel to get all the information you need. Stop listening to people who've never seen a gun, much less fired a gun, and are trying to commit suicide with aspirin.

A large caliber gun in the mouth on the soft palate is not good in your opinion?

 

[iwantmycatback]

I've watched a lot of videos of people shooting themselves in the head who are way less prepared than you. Most people just lift it up to the side of their head and shoot, as simple as that. Having actual MRI images and such of your head is a wonderful advantage you have over most people. Of course surviving a gunshot to the head is possible, but realistically, I think your chances of CTB with these preparations are pretty high.

The shotgun you're getting should definitely do the trick. However, as for the shaky hands part, I've seen advice on here before where people have suggested to practice shooting yourself in the head with an empty gun, just to get used to the weight, the feel, the sensation of it all, and the click of the trigger. With enough practice, the idea is that your brain and body should be able to become used to it, working on muscle memory more than a conscious awareness to execute an action.

 

[LoneTraveler]

Failed a suicide attempt in 2019 and I've still been miserable. People keep telling me life gets better but it never does. I can't fucking wait to kill myself but I always get so paranoid that I'll miss the brainstem and that I'll have a super painful death or that I won't actually die and paramedics will come and I'll just be a vegetable unable to kill myself ever again.

I have 9mm hollow points with my pistol. I have an MRI showing exactly where the medulla/pons/thalamus are in my skull. I've replanned this so many times, but my paranoid ass gets so fucking paranoid about recoil or involuntary last millisecond jerks that I don't even know where to shoot, at what angle, etc. I could just get a 12 gauge pretty easily but I've heard that with long barrels your neck extension can just make you blow your face off instead of hitting the brainstem.

I'm sure I want to die, I just wish I knew how, where to aim, how to angle, whether to use FMJ or HP, what caliber, fuck.... I hate my life so much I've literally devolved into insanity.

Just bought my first 9mm pistol, have a 45 but worried it has too much recoil. Biggest worry is somehow not killing myself but making myself a vegetable.

 

[E5463656]

You will literally 100% die with a 12 gauge. It was specifically engineered to efficiently kill at short range.
I'm not sure how difficult suicide by shotgun is..

 

[itriedinthislife2]

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Very often people don't hit the brainstem, but it doesn't matter. The bleeding is enormous and the brain swells immediately. You have the method with the highest lethality at your disposal. I have friends who work in hospitals and have never had a patient alive after being shot in the mouth, or even with a nail gun or those used to kill pigs. However, if you want to increase safety, use the rifle and the head with the brainstem, hypothalamus, pituitary gland, cerebellum, thalamus and cortex will also blow up.


We have statistical death rates of over 95% with people who kill themselves impulsively, without any calculation and without even having an idea of what the brainstem is. People who are perfectly ignorant of anatomy and even teenagers are practically killed by shooting themselves in the head. Survivors with bullets trapped in the skull are so rare that they shouldn't even be considered. Many have even used blank bullets which if used in the mouth are not so harmless

lol people masturnate over the fact that lad, put the gun to the side of ur head and pull the trigger and dont think about it too much and goodbye (obviously not a .22) i dont know its circle jerked so much as its not a gun lol... jesus my eyes hurt

Are you saying that the percentage of survivors of a bullet to the head is very high? Where did you get this data?

maybe he would like to try and add to that 90th percentile range? lol. oops

 

[human909]

I feel you, i hate my life so much just don't got the guts to do it. That's the fucking problem. Hope you find peace soon.

 

[VerifiedGinger]

If you plan to use a 9mm (not recommended) aim for the bump on the roof of your mouth.