I want to die

[itsoverforme303]

I think my brain is broken. I can't concentrate or do anything. I took medicines but it didn't help. My parents keep abusing me. I need to die. I can't take this anymore. I will never get better. This won't stop till I die. No one wants me alive. Everyone will be better off if I die.

 

[Michelstaedter]

I honestly never understand those who say things like, "Nobody wants me alive" or "The world would be better without me."

In this forum, we want to read and find methods that provide us with "eternal rest." Literally, we don't want to fail, nor do we want anyone who feels the same way we do to fail. It's the same as saying we don't want other users to live... Yes, but with suffering.
The world wouldn't be a better place without us, because in theory, we don't cause more harm than others who want to live or are still alive do, whether to other people, animals, or nature. Consequently, I believe that "the world will be a better place if..." is an idea based on our desire to die, not a stated goal. Therefore, I don't believe it will be a better place if you die.

 

[itsoverforme303]

I honestly never understand those who say things like, "Nobody wants me alive" or "The world would be better without me."

In this forum, we want to read and find methods that provide us with "eternal rest." Literally, we don't want to fail, nor do we want anyone who feels the same way we do to fail. It's the same as saying we don't want other users to live... Yes, but with suffering.
The world wouldn't be a better place without us, because in theory, we don't cause more harm than others who want to live or are still alive do, whether to other people, animals, or nature. Consequently, I believe that "the world will be a better place if..." is an idea based on our desire to die, not a stated goal. Therefore, I don't believe it will be a better place if you die.

Everyday my parents tell me that they are suffering because of me. That I brought shame to the family name by losing my job. That I am being a financial burden on them because they have to pay for my medicines. My mother told me that I should have died abroad instead of coming back to my country. Maybe I am over reacting but I think they'll have more peace if I die. They can also have my money legally then.

 

[Michelstaedter]

I think it's unfair to tell you that. A child can make mistakes, yes, they can intentionally cause harm to their parents, yes, but there are limits between what is the child's responsibility and theirs. In this case, their suffering isn't because of you, it's because they're idiots who had children with the intention of benefiting from them. It's as if I had a child with the hope that they'd become famous in something and give me money from their achievements. If they don't, I'm going to blame them for making me miserable (I was already miserable before them).

I think your point about everyone being better off without you is fallacious, since your parents aren't "everyone." Personally, I don't feel like if you leave this world, it will be a better place. Your parents' burden is their own ego and stupidity in not knowing their son is trying to kill himself because of them.

 

[telekon]

I honestly never understand those who say things like, "Nobody wants me alive" or "The world would be better without me."

In this forum, we want to read and find methods that provide us with "eternal rest." Literally, we don't want to fail, nor do we want anyone who feels the same way we do to fail. It's the same as saying we don't want other users to live... Yes, but with suffering.
The world wouldn't be a better place without us, because in theory, we don't cause more harm than others who want to live or are still alive do, whether to other people, animals, or nature. Consequently, I believe that "the world will be a better place if..." is an idea based on our desire to die, not a stated goal. Therefore, I don't believe it will be a better place if you die.

I personally feel so insignificant that my death would be neither here nor there in the question of the world's "goodness." I affect very little these days.

 

[Infinitespace_]

The mind is the devil don't believe everything it tells you

 

[Terrible_Life]

I honestly never understand those who say things like, "Nobody wants me alive" or "The world would be better without me."

In this forum, we want to read and find methods that provide us with "eternal rest." Literally, we don't want to fail, nor do we want anyone who feels the same way we do to fail. It's the same as saying we don't want other users to live... Yes, but with suffering.
The world wouldn't be a better place without us, because in theory, we don't cause more harm than others who want to live or are still alive do, whether to other people, animals, or nature. Consequently, I believe that "the world will be a better place if..." is an idea based on our desire to die, not a stated goal. Therefore, I don't believe it will be a better place if you die.

The world would be a much better place if everyone could go to a drugstore and get nembutal for free because governments would respect the dignity of a human being and allow him to make this decision.

 

[Alexandra_]

I'm so sorry. I dream of dying too. Only death can help me. I'm so tired. I have no more strength