Venting i want to die ig

[depressedguy68975]

i don't want to bother people i love with this but i feel like ill literally explode if i don't put it out somewhere. I WANT TO DIE. and i really wish i was not too much of a chicken so i can just die in peace. also i'm scared of attempting again (and not succeeding again) and my possibility of going back to uni going from 1% to 0%. like if i've got to be alive, it can't be at home, it's so fucking painful and i just feel like im not meant to be alive yk. (also my uni said that they suggest that i don't come back because bipolar disorder is "too risky")
and like i have been crying so much for the past two days since they told me that and i lost hope all over again that my eyes and my brain seem like they're going to be permanently hurting.

 

[iwashere]

what the fuck? universities can just kick u out for having bipolar? that's absurd lol

 

[depressedguy68975]

what the fuck? universities can just kick u out for having bipolar? that's absurd lol

they can't kick me out technically but they're trying to pressure me to leave. also they just created a new policy that states that a student's stay on campus (in the residence halls) is dependent on a mental health review by their psychiatrist (who they control). so they can't kick me out but they can technically keep stalling and saying i can't come back for this semester and so on until i give up. i'm fighting them though now and i hope i win lol.

 

[iwashere]

this is nuts!!! why have i never heard of this. i'm so sorry, that's absolutely ridiculous.