i don't see a reason why i have to live or exist for even a minute more. furthermore to work so hard to risk extreme torture and for the horror of existing.
to me the worst pain and most horrible things outweigh the meaningless fleeting pleasure addictions by a billion times.
every human and other sentient animal can suffer constant unbearable pain and is all the time in danger of falling into a hell a trillion times worse than one can imagine.
you have to work all day a job , chores to feed all these needs for food , water, shelter, sleep , that don't need to exist .
so you are a slave to these needs, to evolution , to the mind, and to society and to taught beliefs.
so you have to work all day to "enjoy" some fleeting meaningless garbage like watching an "entertaining" video or eating food which provide some soon forgotten meaningless very fleeting pleasure. and i am working so hard just to risk extreme torture , and being gaslighted into being a slave on multiple levels, brainwashed
i'm a brain , brain cells that can suffer unending constant unbearable pain . why is that so good? to me it's an abomination and a horror
these are just a few reasons why i would never want to exist even another minute. why would i want this horror to continue for trillions to the quadrillion power years ? for what reason why why why ? never .
i never asked to be brought alive . the only reason i haven't killed myself is i fear remaining alive with brain damage or other damage a prisoner in their mental hospital prison after a suicide attempt.
90 years of this hell working everyday to keep away the pain of hunger, cold wind, thirst, boredom, suffering every day, trying to fix problems , worry, to do lists, chores, work a job, stress , humiliation, bad memories, depression , diseases, parasites, attacks , accidents, more horrors is too much already .... so i should wish for a quintillion to the septilliion power years more of this nightmare? one day is too much for what reason? 3 seconds of the worst pain is too much . i guess people have never felt the worst constant pain for a few minutes or forgot how bad a split second of bad pain is like burning yourself , the cold wind outside , unbearable pain..
there's no evidence for any afterlife, reincarnation or immortality
there are massive many decades of evidence and experiments that show a human is just another animal . the brain creates a model of a self and all thinking, feelings consciousness
we all die but i don't want to suffer even a minute of constant unbearable pain.
