I want to commit suicide with someone else

[colkatt2928]

I want to commit suicide with someone, not because I feel alone exactly, because everything that enters this world and departs does so alone. There is no way I can overcome the fact that I am a failure at everything, including death, so I figure doing it with someone will increase my chances of success. Besides, we both get what we want in the end, I hope.
I am a shameful person, I just want to leave..

 

[Darkover]

where abouts are you from i'm in england uk i'm going to use herion to overdoes on

 

[jude502]

If someone had N or Fent i would def partner with them in a heartbeat

 

[Smart No More]

There's a partners thread here on the forum. You can post in there but please be very careful. There's predators here and they'll exploit weakness with a demonic lack of shame or empathy. Things you can't even imagine go on! It can always get worse, trust me!

 

[hiddenbpd]

I want to commit suicide with someone, not because I feel alone exactly, because everything that enters this world and departs does so alone. There is no way I can overcome the fact that I am a failure at everything, including death, so I figure doing it with someone will increase my chances of success. Besides, we both get what we want in the end, I hope.
I am a shameful person, I just want to leave..

I relate. I came here looking for some encouragement to get past the fear stage (although I'm not actively asking for that since it's against the rules )

 

[FuneralCry]

I would personally rather die alone, far away from any people, but after all we are all different. I wish you freedom from your suffering for when the time is right for you to leave.

 

[hiddenbpd]

There's a partners thread here on the forum. You can post in there but please be very careful. There's predators here and they'll exploit weakness with a demonic lack of shame or empathy. Things you can't even imagine go on! It can always get worse, trust me!

Is it bad that I want to find these people? I want someone to help me get the courage to ctb

 

[Smart No More]

Is it bad that I want to find these people? I want someone to help me get the courage to ctb

It's okay to feel however you feel as long as you tackle it head on with an honest and critical mind. The problem I fear is that you can't imagine the things you could endure before you get what you want. Yoy couod be made a slave, raped and tortured for as long as your body will allow and wnd up dying the most miserable of deaths. And that's tame compared to the plethora of possibilities. I would expand fuether but don't want to teigger or entice some fucker to try this shit. Your mind cannot imagine the pain it can feel until it feels it and it's better that way but honestly don't let it cloud your judgement. I know you're suffering and you want out in a way that's certain. What you don't want is more indefinite suffering though right?

 

[hiddenbpd]

It's okay to feel however you feel as long as you tackle it head on with an honest outlook. The problem I fear is that you can't imagine the things you could endure before you get what you want. Yoy couod be made a slave, raped and tortured for as long as your body will allow and wnd up dying the most miserable of deaths. And that's tame compared to the plethora of possibilities. I would expand fuether but don't want to teigger or entice some fucker to try this shit. Your mind cannot imagine the pain it can feel until it feels it and it's better that way but honestly don't let it cloud your judgement. I know you're suffering and you want out in a way that's certain. What you don't want is more indefinite suffering though right?

You're right. I guess I never really thought people would go to those lengths on here, but makes sense. Lots of people to take advantage of here. I wish escape was easier. We shouldn't have to fight this hard for peace.

 

[Smart No More]

I agree.

As long as there's greed and a fight for resources there's always going to be a society that fails itself and its citizens in some way. We're somewhat paradoxically civil and uncivilised in the same moment.

Just to add to my previous comment...

There have actually been cases of people that were preyed on here. In various forms. But there was at least one account where someone had described wanting to do terrible things to a girl in return for providing her death at the end of it. Anywhere there is weakness there will be people looking to exploit it.

 

[colkatt2928]

where abouts are you from i'm in england uk i'm going to use herion to overdoes on

Oh, I'm from us Florida

There's a partners thread here on the forum. You can post in there but please be very careful. There's predators here and they'll exploit weakness with a demonic lack of shame or empathy. Things you can't even imagine go on! It can always get worse, trust me!

I understand, I'll try my best to stay safe, thanks so much!

Is it bad that I want to find these people? I want someone to help me get the courage to ctb

It's understandable, i feel it's easier to go through it when accompanied by another person
But it might not always go well so take your time and be careful

 

[WaitingForMyRide]

I'm kinda looking also for the same reason. I believe someone else will boost my motivational factor and I'll feel more comfortable CTB'ing. Is your method SN?

 

[planningmyexit]

I would personally rather die alone, far away from any people, but after all we are all different. I wish you freedom from your suffering for when the time is right for you to leave.

Same

 

[RUPA]

me too. but it seems much more complicated than I thought
can't afford to be a victim of scams, criminal acts

 

[colkatt2928]

I'm kinda looking also for the same reason. I believe someone else will boost my motivational factor and I'll feel more comfortable CTB'ing. Is your method SN?

Oh I see, well I was just thinking of going by carbon monoxide or maybe do a double method, I don't really have access to many things and i can't do it at home for sure

 

[makethepainstop]

I would never compromise myself or my control over something this important. I would never trust anyone else with my own plans. There too many pious Christian MF ers and do-gooders who would love nothing better than to save you. Then that makes them feel heroic for saving you, and gives them bonus points with their God.

 

[Luna88]

I don't want to be alone either. But I'm so scared of people taking advantage of this. I'm trapped and so desperate.

 

[NightNight20]

I feel you. To many unknowns for me to seek it out but I understand wanting to do it with someone

 

[Need2BFree]

Hey! Your not a shameful person

Personally I don't see anything wrong with 2 people ctb together along they aren't being manipulated into anything against their will.
Would I ctb with someone I would like to.

 

[coyotestark]

As would I.. unfortunately I believe it is a shitty, unrealistic pipe dream.
And I would caution using the partner's thread. I had a person ask me to kill them....not good.

 

[8evergo]

I don't want to do it alone either, I wait for the right moment and am always ready