My life isn't worth living and it's my fault. I did the to myself. Im not fixing it because I dont want to. I cant make myself. Im such a pathetic motherfucker.
I have a behavioral addiction that controls my life but I dont know how to make myself give it up. The concept of not relying on this anymore feels like pulling out barbed wire thats been imbedded in my guts. Ive lost every hobby and every desire. Im failing at life.
I wish I didn't have a survival instinct. I wish I had caught the mother fucking bus when I was 14 years old. I remember I was going to do it, I was so close, but I let people talk me out of it over and over again and that is the biggest mistake of my life.
I have a behavioral addiction that controls my life but I dont know how to make myself give it up. The concept of not relying on this anymore feels like pulling out barbed wire thats been imbedded in my guts. Ive lost every hobby and every desire. Im failing at life.
I wish I didn't have a survival instinct. I wish I had caught the mother fucking bus when I was 14 years old. I remember I was going to do it, I was so close, but I let people talk me out of it over and over again and that is the biggest mistake of my life.
