Venting I want to attempt so bad right now

[Arb]

I just want to go already, but I don't have what I need yet.. I've been tempted to swallow the entire bottle of seroquel and lorazepam but I know it's only going to heavily sedate me not kill me.

Even mixed with alcohol, I'd prob end up just throwing it all up anyway.

Let me go, I'm sick of this life, I'm ready for whatever comes next

 

[karakoltriste]

I'm sorry Has something happened?

 

[darksouls]

sending you hugs and love

 

[Arb]

I'm sorry Has something happened?

Memories constantly resurfacing wether of abuse I've endured or mistakes I've made, constant nightmares about people who abused me or my fears, I can't get out of bed and I need to be constantly under sedation to even get through the days.

I can't take it much longer, it's "all in my head", so to people outside I just look lazy and unmotivated.

 

[FuneralCry]

It sounds like you've suffered a lot and I really understand just wanting to be gone, I just want to be free from it all as well, I just want to never suffer ever again and I see so much cruelty in how there isn't the option to just simply cease existing in peace, I wish you the best, I hope you find the relief you search for.

 

[korin]

You know, I kind of feel the same way. Everything's just piled up at me and I know I can't fix it. I really don't want to move past this month but I have no way to do it. No pills or anything. I even live with my parents too and so nothing much would happen if I tried. And same with others seeing me, as far as I believe to others I probably just look stressed and tired.