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yellothere

yellothere

I don’t want to die... I just want to go back
Aug 12, 2021
100
I am afraid to dox myself, you will know where I am from. I guess it doesn't matter. But I typed up what happened (it's like 20 pages) it's like a 30-40 minute read. But I named all the people that I asked for help. And explained what happened to me.
I wrote it because if I die, I don't want the people treating me as incompetent, or crazy, who kept trying to shove drugs down my throat to think they were right. I want someone to see that I tried and the system failed me. That it wasn't due to not takin medications. That I was right the entire time. That if people would have listened to me, I would be ok right now. That everything that my ocd and anxiety did made sense to me.

I want someone to tell me how much wasn't fault. I don't understand how so much could go wrong.

I want someone to understand me. To feel my pain. To be on this journey with me.
Is anyone willing?
 
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Tamz

Student
Sep 1, 2021
116
Sure. I will read it and try to understand your pain.
Let's take your journey.
 
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yellothere

yellothere

I don’t want to die... I just want to go back
Aug 12, 2021
100
Sure. I will read it and try to understand your pain. Let's take your journey.
Sure. I will read it and try to understand your pain.
Let's take your journey
Thanks! I will PM you the blog link!

I just blame myself so much for not standing up to myself. Or crying and breaking down all the time over my partner when they were just being frustrated.
Sure. I will read it and try to understand your pain.
Let's take your journey.
I will PM you. There is another part I regret. I just tried so hard to control my situation: what people thought of me, my health, my relationship with my partner, that I lost it all. I just wish doctors didn't think they automatically know everything.
 
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ItsTimeToExit

Live to die another day
Jul 20, 2021
99
Will be happy to read your work.
 
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mentalhealthfighter

Lets win together
Jun 15, 2021
362
I will read it for you my friend
 
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yellothere

I don’t want to die... I just want to go back
Aug 12, 2021
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thelastofit

thelastofit

Member
May 20, 2021
15
I am afraid to dox myself, you will know where I am from. I guess it doesn't matter. But I typed up what happened (it's like 20 pages) it's like a 30-40 minute read. But I named all the people that I asked for help. And explained what happened to me.
I wrote it because if I die, I don't want the people treating me as incompetent, or crazy, who kept trying to shove drugs down my throat to think they were right. I want someone to see that I tried and the system failed me. That it wasn't due to not takin medications. That I was right the entire time. That if people would have listened to me, I would be ok right now. That everything that my ocd and anxiety did made sense to me.

I want someone to tell me how much wasn't fault. I don't understand how so much could go wrong.

I want someone to understand me. To feel my pain. To be on this journey with me.
Is anyone willing?
Sure
 
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Panna

Panna

Enlightened
Aug 31, 2020
1,005
I am afraid to dox myself, you will know where I am from. I guess it doesn't matter. But I typed up what happened (it's like 20 pages) it's like a 30-40 minute read. But I named all the people that I asked for help. And explained what happened to me.
I wrote it because if I die, I don't want the people treating me as incompetent, or crazy, who kept trying to shove drugs down my throat to think they were right. I want someone to see that I tried and the system failed me. That it wasn't due to not takin medications. That I was right the entire time. That if people would have listened to me, I would be ok right now. That everything that my ocd and anxiety did made sense to me.

I want someone to tell me how much wasn't fault. I don't understand how so much could go wrong.

I want someone to understand me. To feel my pain. To be on this journey with me.
Is anyone willing?
I'd be more than happy to help with this. If thats ok
 
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PeacefulTonic

Enlightened
Aug 10, 2021
1,006
I am afraid to dox myself, you will know where I am from. I guess it doesn't matter. But I typed up what happened (it's like 20 pages) it's like a 30-40 minute read. But I named all the people that I asked for help. And explained what happened to me.
I wrote it because if I die, I don't want the people treating me as incompetent, or crazy, who kept trying to shove drugs down my throat to think they were right. I want someone to see that I tried and the system failed me. That it wasn't due to not takin medications. That I was right the entire time. That if people would have listened to me, I would be ok right now. That everything that my ocd and anxiety did made sense to me.

I want someone to tell me how much wasn't fault. I don't understand how so much could go wrong.

I want someone to understand me. To feel my pain. To be on this journey with me.
Is anyone willing?
PM me, I would love to read it.
 
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SoVeryDone

Member
Mar 6, 2021
25
I would read it. I have a story to tell, too but I just haven't been able to do it yet. I wish you well.
 
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moths

Member
Mar 7, 2021
51
u deserve to have your story heard. id love to read it
 
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Murakami'sCat

Member
Aug 26, 2021
38
I'd be happy to read it too, if you still want to share. :hug:
I admire anyone who can communicate how they feel because find it so hard to put onto paper, so to speak.
 
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Cherry Crumpet

Cherry Crumpet

Hiraeth
May 7, 2018
280
I'd be happy to read your story. You deserve to have your words and feelings heard.
 
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eryu

eryu

Member
Sep 25, 2021
90
I'd like to read it too. I'm interested in stories of other people being harmed by medical incompetence/negligence.
 
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dyingalone123

Experienced
Sep 8, 2021
211
Willing to read your story too! I'm going through crappy life when it was normal a few months ago. I don't have the will for live anymore either
 
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Chisel

Chisel

My dreams where I live. My life is my nightmares
Sep 27, 2021
63
Sounds like I am dealing with similar. Could I read it also?
 
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