Venting I want my suffering to end

[Scythe]

I hate waking up everyday and coming to terms with being alive and that my sufferings presists. It's painful to just exist sometimes, and I hate feeling like I'm reliving the same week over and over again. My life is repetitive, and I hate that. It's the same shit over and over and over and over again. I have too many loose ends to tie up, so I'm in a constant struggle of whether to live or to die. I wish I can just let go of everything. But I want to leave something behind for people to find when I'm gone. I wish life didn't just escalate so fast, then I will have the motivation to tie up my loose ends.

 

[Living_Hurts_so_Much]

@Scythe I completely understand. I feel the same way. Every night I wish for this to be the end. The last time I close my eyes. To be free from the pain life inflicts on us.

 

[Zegers]

My life is the same loop of hardship, i should have left this years ago but still stuck here.

 

[Wormfood]

I can't help but thinking about Nine inch nails 'every day is exactly the same'. Take a listen

 

[Zegers]

every day it's the same, same shows, same threads on reddit, same anxiety, same food, same physical discomfort, same shit every day, every day. I wonder why there is nothing good or interesting for me here... like other people lives.

 

[FuneralCry]

Your feelings are understandable. It would be ideal to finally be free from this cruel existence. The non existent have no worries, concerns or problems and they are not trapped in this life, having to endure the same day over and over again with the chance of things potentially getting worse at any moment causing extreme suffering. Those who leave this world are certainly lucky. I've always disliked the concept of life and seen absolutely no benefit to being here, only disadvantages. I'm also tired of it all.

 

[Scythe]

I can't help but thinking about Nine inch nails 'every day is exactly the same'. Take a listen

It's a okay song, but somewhat reliable. Thanks for the recommendation.