i wanna ctb to start over

[i wanna be a cat]

If i saw God in my living room telling me he's real and we go to either hell or heaven after we die, i would rethink if i wanna ctb or not.
If some magical creature told me everything goes black forever after we die, i probably wouldn't ctb for the next couple of years because the idea of nothingness after death terrifies me like nothing else.

I really hope we get reincarnated after we die, i mean obviously im not directly killing or getting rid of my soul when i ctb.
I see ctb as an opportunity to leave the life that i failed at and start again as someone completely different, hoping i wont want to ctb in that life too. it may sound stupid, i dunno what others except after death if they even except anything at all but these are just my thoughts.

 

[Darkover]

Birth is a form of existential rape

A child never gives its consent to be dragged kicking and screaming into this reality, and forcing it to is unconscionable.
The only certainty in life is death. The most terrifying thing to a human is death. By bringing a child into the world, you force another being into a form of existential bondage where it is perpetually frightened of and certain of its own impending death. It's completely unjustifiable.

 

[𝗟𝗼𝗻𝗲𝗹𝘆]

I used to be terrified of death for that same reason, thought of there being nothing was scary. But then I started thinking about "eternal life" and quickly realised I would never want that. Imagine living forever, sounds like a torture to me.
I'm agnostic though so I don't really have strong beliefs on what happens after we die, I'll find out when the time comes.

 

[asian.neet]

If i saw God in my living room telling me he's real and we go to either hell or heaven after we die, i would rethink if i wanna ctb or not.
If some magical creature told me everything goes black forever after we die, i probably wouldn't ctb for the next couple of years because the idea of nothingness after death terrifies me like nothing else.

I really hope we get reincarnated after we die, i mean obviously im not directly killing or getting rid of my soul when i ctb.
I see ctb as an opportunity to leave the life that i failed at and start again as someone completely different, hoping i wont want to ctb in that life too. it may sound stupid, i dunno what others except after death if they even except anything at all but these are just my thoughts.

This is what I really hope happens to me as well when I ctb. I don't feel myself being human. I'm not a human. I feel body dysmorphia when I look in the mirror.

I wish I could get reincarnated as a different species on a different planet. Maybe that'll save me from the eternal torture of being human.

 

[FuneralCry]

I feel the opposite way, in my case I only wish for nothingness and the thought of not existing is all that comforts me, I don't desire any kind of existence, I wish to be eternally free from having the ability to suffer.

 

[user56765567]

I know if I saw God in my living room and he told me the same thing, It would make me want to ctb even faster to get away from him and his horrible and broken system in place and I would gladly accept my place in hell to get as far away from that being as possible. Finally, to me personally if reincarnation/rebirth exist with some version of enlightenment and karma, I will personally be Ctbing over and over again forever and ever as an eternal middle finger to that horrible system. It would be inexcusable to me no matter what prize there would be at the end of it as I couldn't do something like this all over again in any form.

 

[RichardFirst]

If I die tomorrow
I'd be all right
Because I believe
That after we're gone
The spirit carries on

I think that we all nurture a hope that a CTB will literally be just that: catching the bus to a new destination.

 

[leavingthesoultrap]

What if you get reincarnated in the third world?

 

[Myforevercharlie]

If I die tomorrow
I'd be all right
Because I believe
That after we're gone
The spirit carries on

I think that we all nurture a hope that a CTB will literally be just that: catching the bus to a new destination.

Dream Theater:)

 

[Smelly_ballz]

I often want to ctb bc I want a redo. I don't believe in an afterlife or anything, but sometimes when I think about my wasted childhood, I think death might give me back my innocence. Nothing can though.

 

[hi-okbye]

i believe we reincarnate too, but just not right after we die. i believe there's an in between state, maybe where we meet our loved ones, do some things, etc. i'm not sure i can't predict that part. but after we're done with that i believe we move on with all the people we're connected with (soulmates, etc), and we prepare for our next life.

 

[carnivalforone]

i just want to experience a good life for once, one where im not repulsive, one where my parents tried to parent, one where i didnt fuck everything up, one where i had friends to do stuff with, one where i didnt have to struggle financially for all my life, one where i wasnt dumb,ugly,lazy,and pathetic. i do want to reincarnate once im gone, i do want to at least experience what i see other people enjoy, maybe a life where im not so mentally ill and alone, but maybe not forever just one retry.

 

[tarococo]

I absolutely relate to this. I always found comfort in the idea of being reincarnated after death, being able to start over and getting another chance to do things right.
I'd give everything to be a kid again and maybe have a normal childhood and loving parents. To actually have plans growing up and to achieve them, just like everyone else around me.
So don't worry, I don't think this sounds stupid at all.

 

[flakeyknight]

I am also hoping to reboot my life after I CTB. Prevent the accident that led me to this point as well as touch grass more often and hit the gym at an earlier age to stand up to my peers so I wouldn't be the broken unemployable mess I am today.

 

[ADeadBunny]

Super relatable, I sometimes fansasize about making a deal with the entity over life itself and starting my life over again with some of the knowledge I have now. I wonder how much farther I could get. I wonder if I would manage to be happy. It's a pointless exercise that doesn't do much except make me hurt deep inside, but it does make me hopeful that if I ctb, the other side might be nice. I think it will be nice regardless, I doubt that even the cruelest of creatures would fashion a place worse than this. The suffering I feel is unbearable most days and I don't have anything to live for. I don't think I ever really did.

 

[Finalnight]

If i saw God in my living room telling me he's real and we go to either hell or heaven after we die, i would rethink if i wanna ctb or not.
If some magical creature told me everything goes black forever after we die, i probably wouldn't ctb for the next couple of years because the idea of nothingness after death terrifies me like nothing else.

I really hope we get reincarnated after we die, i mean obviously im not directly killing or getting rid of my soul when i ctb.
I see ctb as an opportunity to leave the life that i failed at and start again as someone completely different, hoping i wont want to ctb in that life too. it may sound stupid, i dunno what others except after death if they even except anything at all but these are just my thoughts.

I used to like the idea of reincarnation too, but if that meant reliving your life and going through the exact same hell again, in the exact same way, as if we were inside a loop repeating itself over and over, I'd just prefer absolute nothingness any day

 

[Abyssal]

If god told me to my face that I'd be tortured for eternity if I ctb, I would have bigger issues. Shit, if heaven and hell are real I'd be in hell whether I ctb or not. I really hope death is nothingness, god I really hope I don't have to suffer further

 

[sad_rock]

I just hope there is a choice where our consciousness will end at... whether it is to unplug from existence or restart.

 

[DT2007]

If i saw God in my living room telling me he's real and we go to either hell or heaven after we die, i would rethink if i wanna ctb or not.
If some magical creature told me everything goes black forever after we die, i probably wouldn't ctb for the next couple of years because the idea of nothingness after death terrifies me like nothing else.

I really hope we get reincarnated after we die, i mean obviously im not directly killing or getting rid of my soul when i ctb.
I see ctb as an opportunity to leave the life that i failed at and start again as someone completely different, hoping i wont want to ctb in that life too. it may sound stupid, i dunno what others except after death if they even except anything at all but these are just my thoughts.

I feel exactly the same. A chan e to start a new one without having to carry the baggage from this life. A clean new start as someone else.

 

[RichardFirst]

Dream Theater:)

Correct. The second last song on the greatest concept album ever written, Metropolis Part II.