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You've got to be kidding me. I'm relying on SN from L too. If it didn't work then I'm afraid it won't work for me. I fucking hate this LIFE
If youre worried, why not get one of those aquarium tests? Its a good idea regardless. Also, I have friends on here who ordered from L, have made their goodbye threads and never came back. I personally don't think it's the seller - or at least not entirely.

One thing of note is that from the pictures weve seen of L's SN, the packaging looks shoddy: https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/sn-arrived-very-disappointed.41152/

If the packaging were not sealed correctly, or if it were to become damaged somehow, this could explain why OP's didnt work and others did.
 
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If youre worried, why not get one of those aquarium tests? Its a good idea regardless. Also, I have friends on here who ordered from L, have made their goodbye threads and never came back. I personally don't think it's the seller - or at least not entirely.

One thing of note is that from the pictures weve seen of L's SN, the packaging looks shoddy: https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/sn-arrived-very-disappointed.41152/

If the packaging were not sealed correctly, or if it were to become damaged somehow, this could explain why OP's didnt work and others did.

It didn't work because of puking.
 
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It didn't work because of puking.
Puking seems quite common though, and has never been enough of a problem for anyone else for that alone to cause failure
 
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Are you on any antipsychotic meds?
 
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I don't think it's puking that's the issue, but that it was immediate puking.

And/or that the SN wasn't pure enough.

Personally, I wouldn't trust any SN without testing. I already had 99% lab grade not be pure enough with testing and had to order another.
 
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If youre worried, why not get one of those aquarium tests? Its a good idea regardless. Also, I have friends on here who ordered from L, have made their goodbye threads and never came back. I personally don't think it's the seller - or at least not entirely.

One thing of note is that from the pictures weve seen of L's SN, the packaging looks shoddy: https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/sn-arrived-very-disappointed.41152/

If the packaging were not sealed correctly, or if it were to become damaged somehow, this could explain why OP's didnt work and others did.
I tried the blood test and got a pretty brownish color
 
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And what did you eat as your last meal or food that day,?
 
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Thank you for sharing :heart: SN is my go-to method so this information is much valuable to me.

During your recovery, have you noticed any changes in yourself from before you tried the SN to where you were now? In regards to your physical ability and even mentally?
 
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And what did you eat as your last meal or food that day,?
Spaghetti Bolognaise
Thank you for sharing :heart: SN is my go-to method so this information is much valuable to me.

During your recovery, have you noticed any changes in yourself from before you tried the SN to where you were now? In regards to your physical ability and even mentally?
No. I've had side effects from the meds I'm being made to take since the attempt. But nothing unrelated to that.
 
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I don't remember. I also take psych meds. Would that interfere with SN?
Check out Stan's guide. It discusses this. I think from memory it might be that anti-psychotics act as an anti-emetic, so don't take both. And I think it explains where to check the different things you're taking wont react badly together.
 
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I tried the blood test and got a pretty brownish color

It needs to be dark chocolate brown. There is a link in the Resources Compilation for the blood test thread, which has photos of how dark the blood should be.
 
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Spaghetti Bolognaise
High carb dense meal, a pint of water over 6 hours, immediate puking, no AE which helps empty stomach And moves food to the intestines (not that that would prevent death)

my guess is the immediate and frequent pukes, then what remained in you might have been met with some carbs in your intestines causing longer time to die.
if you were blue then it was nitrite for sure and maybe if it's 95% or lower took longer.
Or you have a guardian angel that says it's not your time to go.

These are guesses.
 
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Check out Stan's guide. It discusses this. I think from memory it might be that anti-psychotics act as an anti-emetic, so don't take both. And I think it explains where to check the different things you're taking wont react badly together.

It needs to be dark chocolate brown. There is a link in the Resources Compilation for the blood test thread, which has photos of how dark the blood should be.

It was really hard to make out how brown the blood was because I had only one drop of it. I hate to prick my hand to draw blood out of it, it hurts and leaves a painful sensation after I'm done. But it was brownish for the little blood I had
 
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I don't remember. I also take psych meds. Would that interfere with SN?
If you are on APs you don't take AEs. It acts as the AE. And u don't mix them cuz they can react
 
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It was really hard to make out how brown the blood was because I had only one drop of it. I hate to prick my hand to draw blood out of it, it hurts and leaves a painful sensation after I'm done. But it was brownish for the little blood I had

Well, it's up to you if you want to take a risk with brownish.

I hear that it hurts to prick your hand, but there are other parts of the body.
 
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Well, it's up to you if you want to take a risk with brownish.

I hear that it hurts to prick your hand, but there are other parts of the body.
Does it have to be human blood? I saw another thread a while back where someone went and bought some lamb from the supermarket and used that.
 
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Does it have to be human blood? I saw another thread a while back where someone went and bought some lamb from the supermarket and used that.

I just looked at that thread and the test didn't work. Someone suggested it may have been preservatives.
 
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Hi there. I've been a long time lurker of this site, but never made an account, as I didn't really feel I had anything valuable to share with the community. But after the experience I had, I now felt I had an important experience I wanted to share. Two weeks ago, I followed what I thought was all of the right steps, and failed the SN method despite not being found for 7 hours.

I ordered SN from the Craft site, from the Ukrainian seller beginning with an L.

I had thought about getting AE, but hadn't ordered any, and went to the doctors and couldn't get a prescription for them, so just decided to go without. I didn't use any anti-acids either, or anything to go with the SN.

The reason I am posting this now after two weeks is because I spent several days in ICU, followed by more on a mental health ward at the hospital, and have only just got out.

So anyway, I fasted for 6 hours. I know Stan's guide said 8, but it also said 4 is fine if you know your stomach is empty by then. I was confident my stomach was empty. It was quite hot that evening, so during fasting I did drink a bit of water (maybe about a pint over 6 hours). I mixed 25g of SN, which I used food scales from the kitchen to measure out, and mixed it with 50ml of water. Very quickly I felt really nautious and started vomiting. Maybe two minutes had passed. It just looked like a little bit of water. I vomited again shortly after. And then several times after this, my stomach seemed to be empty and I kept just dry heaving. At some point I drifted into unconsciousness. I really don't know how long it had been. My guess would be about half an hour. I kept waking up with really bad pains in my stomach throughout the night and then quickly drifted back into sleep/unconsciousness. Quite a significant pain, but nothing I couldn't handle. I would say a 7 out of 10.

At around 7 a.m, 7 hours after I took the SN, my mother heard me calling out in pain from the other room, found me blue and came in and called the EMS. I don't remember anything about the ambulance trip, or the beginning of the hospital visit. But I'm told at some point they pumped me full of methylene blue, and that I would have died had they not have done. My confusion is why on earth was 7 hours not enough to kill me. This is supposed to be more than enough time, no?

Please know that I do not have any agenda, and am not telling you this to make you second guess SN as a method. I was unconscious for most of it, and whilst it wasn't painless, I would say that the pain is manageable. Not as bad as having food poisoning or anything like that. I would try this again if I was more confident it would work this time.

One of my thoughts is that I did not test the SN. I know that at least two users on this forum have made goodbye threads and haven't been seen since, who have ordered from the same seller. But nobody has actually tested its purity. Maybe it's not as pure as is required, and this is why I was still alive when my mother found me? I don't want to tarnish the sellers reputation unfairly. I know two other people probably had success with this sellers SN, so maybe it was something else? Perhaps it is pure enough to CTB with, but is borderline, and this is why it took longer than expected? I can see he has disappeared off the craft site now, anyway. Maybe it was as a result of vomiting so quickly? I know from the goodbye threads we have seen that vomiting should not be an immediate failure. But maybe vomiting so quickly means less of it gets correctly absorbed, and nobody has vomited as quickly as me yet?

I cant try and CTB again because I'm now not allowed to close my bedroom door, or leave the house alone. So I guess I'm going to have to suck it up for a while before they ease off.

If anyone has any questions, I'll do my best to try and answer as much as I can. I'd also really appreciate any advice if anyone can think of anything I might have done wrong.
Wow thank you so much for this information. How did it taste?
 
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What were your O2 saturation levels ?
 
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Wow thank you so much for this information. How did it taste?
Really salty. Similar to sea water. It isn't very pleasant. I'd recommend mouthwash or a mint or something after. I don't think it's bad enough that it would typically cause people to vomit on it's own though. I think it was mainly the nausea that made me throw up.
What were your O2 saturation levels ?
Does this have something to do with the oxygen levels in my blood? I've seen this mentioned before on here, but I didn't think to ask, and they never told me anything like that.

Tempted to ask my parents, but I don't want to sound too clued up on the topic, as they haven't caught on that I've been using this forum yet.
 
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Really salty. Similar to sea water. It isn't very pleasant. I'd recommend mouthwash or a mint or something after. I don't think it's bad enough that it would typically cause people to vomit on it's own though. I think it was mainly the nausea that made me throw up.

Does this have something to do with the oxygen levels in my blood? I've seen this mentioned before on here, but I didn't think to ask, and they never told me anything like that.

Tempted to ask my parents, but I don't want to sound too clued up on the topic, as they haven't caught on that I've been using this forum yet.
How old are you? You should be able to access your files
 
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How old are you? You should be able to access your files
19. I think looking online I'd have to contact my GP and ask for a hospital discharge summary.

If I at some point do that I'll report back. If I want to make a phone call though I'll have my parents nosing in. So I'll need to think of a reason why I'm so interested.
 
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19. I think looking online I'd have to contact my GP and ask for a hospital discharge summary.

If I at some point do that I'll report back. If I want to make a phone call though I'll have my parents nosing in. So I'll need to think of a reason why I'm so interested.
I know some people don't automatically get sent to the pysch ward and immediatley get discharged from the hospital. I'm putting a pamphlet of legal notes to use in denying a discharge to a pysch ward, and I'm putting these notes in a wallet secured in my pants so in the hospital I can ask for my clothes then pull out my notes about denial of a psych ward- I made this to use incase of a failure with my SN and I get sent to the psych ward.

Do you think with four pages of legal notes about denying a visit to a psych ward, they would discharge me before then?
 
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19. I think looking online I'd have to contact my GP and ask for a hospital discharge summary.

If I at some point do that I'll report back. If I want to make a phone call though I'll have my parents nosing in. So I'll need to think of a reason why I'm so interested.
Ahhh gotcha.
 
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I know some people don't automatically get sent to the pysch ward and immediatley get discharged from the hospital. I'm putting a pamphlet of legal notes to use in denying a discharge to a pysch ward, and I'm putting these notes in a wallet secured in my pants so in the hospital I can ask for my clothes then pull out my notes about denial of a psych ward- I made this to use incase of a failure with my SN and I get sent to the psych ward.

Do you think with four pages of legal notes about denying a visit to a psych ward, they would discharge me before then?
Why do you think this will matter ?
 
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Why do you think this will matter ?
I made a pamphlet of legal notes about denying a visit to the psych ward INCASE I fail with SN and end up in a hospital. If that happens I do not want to get sent to a psych ward.
 
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I made a pamphlet of legal notes about denying a visit to the psych ward INCASE I fail with SN and end up in a hospital. If that happens I do not want to get sent to a psych ward.
But you can't deny a visit if you attempted suicide ... if you don't go willingly,, they force you legally .. but i don't know what country you're in.
 
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Thank you for sharing your story ... I really appreciate you doing this. Obviously just speculating, but I would think when you vomited it was probably highly efficient and expelled most of it out. Other people have still had "success" after puking but who knows if it was more dry heaves. Your stomach was empty and you said you puked out more liquid than the 50ml ... so I think this is the only one that makes sense.

I hope you try and find a little joy in your day to day life since you are here for while. Sometimes when I despair that I am still here I just remember that I will be dead for eternity, so if existence isn't complete and total torture, I don't feel the pressure to do it just yet.
 
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