GasMonkey

GasMonkey

Nitrogen Master Race
May 15, 2022
1,881
See you on the Other Side.
 
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blue_muse

blue_muse

Mage
Jan 31, 2021
552
I hear you on life. When there are too many factors to overcome, it defeats the purpose of living. You sound like you're merely cutting your losses. I'm sorry for your suffering and wish you a peaceful transition :heart:.
 
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lebrodude

Mage
Jul 18, 2022
512
Are you still with us OP?
 
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clockwork_cat

clockwork_cat

Member
Feb 24, 2023
42
You loved your job..why do you want to ctb exactly? Like do you know why you're so joyless? My job is one of the reasons I want to ctb 😅 it's hard to imagine loving a job whatsoever though, so I'm just curious.
Have you played the cat lady?
 
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lebrodude

Mage
Jul 18, 2022
512
Think this user may be gone…..
Now you can rest
 
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Source Energy

Source Energy

I want to be where people areN'T...
Jan 23, 2023
705
Update: I got delayed. Couldn't do it that day, and the next day I lost everything. Spent two weeks trying to fix it and reaching out to the only person who could help me. I can't bear being awake anymore, I am losing my mind.
Started the food fast. Is 11-12 hours going to be enough?
Think this user may be gone…..
Now you can rest
Not yet, still here. Got delayed with something. But in the morning I do it - unless for a miracle. Started the fast...
 
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dimstar

dimstar

Poor little woodpecker
Mar 17, 2023
320
12 hours is good enough. Last bit of advice I can give. Sorry it's to this point and the struggles of the other days. Hope you find peace, were always here for you. Will be feeling for your energy❤
 
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Source Energy

Source Energy

I want to be where people areN'T...
Jan 23, 2023
705
Anyone else feels a crushing pain in the heart, and difficulty breathing before even taking the SN? I've been feeling severe chest pain for weeks, as if all my chest was being crushed under a mountain, and strong jabs in my heart. It's gonna be over quickly.
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
11,508
Anyone else feels a crushing pain in the heart, and difficulty breathing before even taking the SN? I've been feeling severe chest pain for weeks, as if all my chest was being crushed under a mountain, and strong jabs in my heart. It's gonna be over quickly.
I'm sorry you have to go through all this suffering and that life brought you to this point. I was never so close to the point where you are now, tbh, but it sounds like a very early form of SI. I have my method (CO) ready when my time comes and I have to say, when I think deeply about the process and imagine it in my mind, how the last steps, I would have to perform, will be, I get strange feelings, although I'm not so close to the real action as you are now.

I wish you all the best and a peaceful journey! May you find freedom and peace on the other side!
 
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Vizzy

Vizzy

DEAD
May 6, 2023
1,869
Update: I got delayed. Couldn't do it that day, and the next day I lost everything. Spent two weeks trying to fix it and reaching out to the only person who could help me. I can't bear being awake anymore, I am losing my mind.
Started the food fast. Is 11-12 hours going to be enough?

Not yet, still here. Got delayed with something. But in the morning I do it - unless for a miracle. Started the fast...
Yes fasting 11-12 hours is enough
Anyone else feels a crushing pain in the heart, and difficulty breathing before even taking the SN? I've been feeling severe chest pain for weeks, as if all my chest was being crushed under a mountain, and strong jabs in my heart. It's gonna be over quickly.
sorry that's not due to sn, some other issue in your body and hope you find peace
 
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dimstar

dimstar

Poor little woodpecker
Mar 17, 2023
320
Anyone else feels a crushing pain in the heart, and difficulty breathing before even taking the SN? I've been feeling severe chest pain for weeks, as if all my chest was being crushed under a mountain, and strong jabs in my heart. It's gonna be over quickly.
Yeah I've felt it. When it first started before I realized what it was I felt like I needed to rip my heart out. I feel that again when I'm particularly close to the edge. I think its ctb urges and si fighting. Deep breaths do what you can to be peaceful. I mean really deep breaths.
 
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Source Energy

Source Energy

I want to be where people areN'T...
Jan 23, 2023
705
Yeah I've felt it. When it first started before I realized what it was I felt like I needed to rip my heart out. I feel that again when I'm particularly close to the edge. I think its ctb urges and si fighting. Deep breaths do what you can to be peaceful. I mean really deep breaths.
I'm worried about feeling suffocated tomorrow. I spent the last days perusing SN gbye threads. Most passed out in 5-10 mins, but no further details. I'm scared. Will it feel like being smothered?
 
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Vizzy

Vizzy

DEAD
May 6, 2023
1,869
I'm worried about feeling suffocated tomorrow. I spent the last days perusing SN gbye threads. Most passed out in 5-10 mins, but no further details. I'm scared. Will it feel like being smothered?
no suffocation in sn, you will feel like your heart racing after taking sn but it ain't that bad

There are thread with further details , I guess you didn't see it

Below is thread

 
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Source Energy

Source Energy

I want to be where people areN'T...
Jan 23, 2023
705
no suffocation in sn, you will feel like your heart racing after taking sn but it ain't that bad

There are thread with further details , I guess you didn't see it

Below is thread

Thank you, I guess I didnt see all of it, but I read all 10 pages the search got me. I need it to be easy, I suffered hell already

Oh, I did read this one. One of my fav threads. May he rest in peace
 
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LaVieEnRose

LaVieEnRose

Angelic
Jul 23, 2022
4,243
I'm worried about feeling suffocated tomorrow. I spent the last days perusing SN gbye threads. Most passed out in 5-10 mins, but no further details. I'm scared. Will it feel like being smothered?
The feeling of suffocation is caused by being unable to release carbon dioxide. SN ingestion doesn't prevent you from flushing it out. So as far as I understand it won't feel like that, at least as far as suffocation is generally understood.
 
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Vizzy

Vizzy

DEAD
May 6, 2023
1,869
Thank you, I guess I didnt see all of it, but I read all 10 pages the search got me. I need it to be easy, I suffered hell already

Oh, I did read this one. One of my fav threads. May he rest in peace
He passed away same day he wrote this thread and it is confirmed in the forum by his friends that he is dead
 
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dimstar

dimstar

Poor little woodpecker
Mar 17, 2023
320
I'm worried about feeling suffocated tomorrow. I spent the last days perusing SN gbye threads. Most passed out in 5-10 mins, but no further details. I'm scared. Will it feel like being smothered?
I'm sorry for your experience. But like vizzy said you wont feel suffocated. Most people do pass out quickly. Are you using any benzos? That can help with the anxiety and make losing consciousness faster. Sorry friend
 
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Source Energy

Source Energy

I want to be where people areN'T...
Jan 23, 2023
705
I'm sorry for your experience. But like vizzy said you wont feel suffocated. Most people do pass out quickly. Are you using any benzos? That can help with the anxiety and make losing consciousness faster. Sorry friend
No benzos but something that puts me to sleep anyway. Starting the water fast
 
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dimstar

dimstar

Poor little woodpecker
Mar 17, 2023
320
How you doing @Source Energy ? I hope your feeling calm and things go smoothly for you. Sending some of my energy your way❤
 
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helplessufferer

Member
Apr 24, 2023
49
i feel like OP took SN by now, i hope everything was smooth and peaceful <3
 
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Source Energy

Source Energy

I want to be where people areN'T...
Jan 23, 2023
705
How you doing @Source Energy ? I hope your feeling calm and things go smoothly for you. Sending some of my energy your way❤
Trying to have a convo with someone in real life. Doesn't really go thru. People can be so blind to other people's pain. Just laying here in limbo. Not eating, but not ready to complete ctb until the issue is talked through. Thank you, I need good energy coz mine died out
 
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dimstar

dimstar

Poor little woodpecker
Mar 17, 2023
320
Trying to have a convo with someone in real life. Doesn't really go thru. People can be so blind to other people's pain. Just laying here in limbo. Not eating, but not ready to complete ctb until the issue is talked through. Thank you, I need good energy coz mine died out
I'm glad you have someone to talk to even if its falling on deaf ears. You dont have to do anything unless your sure your ready, sn will still be there. Hope your convos go well but dont expect too much from other people you'll only be let down.
 
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Source Energy

Source Energy

I want to be where people areN'T...
Jan 23, 2023
705
I'm glad you have someone to talk to even if its falling on deaf ears. You dont have to do anything unless your sure your ready, sn will still be there. Hope your convos go well but dont expect too much from other people you'll only be let down.
It's not much a convo. It's me trying to explain myself and apologize and the person being deaf to it. We are both hurting each in their way. I have my little bottle and measuring glass by the nightstand, I stopped eating, my heart throbs...It is just this situation that holds me here while pushing me in the same time. It's agony
 
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Source Energy

Source Energy

I want to be where people areN'T...
Jan 23, 2023
705
I'm taking SN in 20 mins. Took Ibuprofen 40 mins ago 60 grams. Now I'm taking sleeping pills. Hope for my eternal rest and that nothingness awaits me
I'm taking SN in 20 mins. Took Ibuprofen 40 mins ago 60 grams. Now I'm taking sleeping pills. Hope for my eternal rest and that nothingness awaits me

If I am not back with an update in 48 hours you can delete my account.
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
11,508
I'm taking SN in 20 mins. Took Ibuprofen 40 mins ago 60 grams. Now I'm taking sleeping pills. Hope for my eternal rest and that nothingness awaits me
Have a pleasant journey! I hope you find peace & freedom on the other side!
 
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Letgo

Specialist
Apr 1, 2023
320
Wishing you peace and rest. Thinking of you.
 
Jezzibell

Jezzibell

On my way out. Yayyyyy
Apr 21, 2023
709
I wish for you everlasting peace, and I really hope that it will be easy and comfortable for you. Virtual hugs. X
 
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Crono

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Jun 1, 2023
314
I'm taking SN in 20 mins. Took Ibuprofen 40 mins ago 60 grams. Now I'm taking sleeping pills. Hope for my eternal rest and that nothingness awaits me
I'm taking SN in 20 mins. Took Ibuprofen 40 mins ago 60 grams. Now I'm taking sleeping pills. Hope for my eternal rest and that nothingness awaits me

If I am not back with an update in 48 hours you can delete my account.
Good luck, I hope it's quiet and you can go in peace.
 
canaryblue

canaryblue

Member
Jun 3, 2023
31
I'm taking SN in 20 mins. Took Ibuprofen 40 mins ago 60 grams. Now I'm taking sleeping pills. Hope for my eternal rest and that nothingness awaits me
You're making me cry :'( safe travels!
 
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