GasMonkey
Nitrogen Master Race
- May 15, 2022
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Have you played the cat lady?You loved your job..why do you want to ctb exactly? Like do you know why you're so joyless? My job is one of the reasons I want to ctb it's hard to imagine loving a job whatsoever though, so I'm just curious.
Oh my! I haven't heard of it til now, I'll play in the weekend I think. ThanksHave you played the cat lady?
Not yet, still here. Got delayed with something. But in the morning I do it - unless for a miracle. Started the fast...Think this user may be gone…..
Now you can rest
I'm sorry you have to go through all this suffering and that life brought you to this point. I was never so close to the point where you are now, tbh, but it sounds like a very early form of SI. I have my method (CO) ready when my time comes and I have to say, when I think deeply about the process and imagine it in my mind, how the last steps, I would have to perform, will be, I get strange feelings, although I'm not so close to the real action as you are now.Anyone else feels a crushing pain in the heart, and difficulty breathing before even taking the SN? I've been feeling severe chest pain for weeks, as if all my chest was being crushed under a mountain, and strong jabs in my heart. It's gonna be over quickly.
Yes fasting 11-12 hours is enoughUpdate: I got delayed. Couldn't do it that day, and the next day I lost everything. Spent two weeks trying to fix it and reaching out to the only person who could help me. I can't bear being awake anymore, I am losing my mind.
Started the food fast. Is 11-12 hours going to be enough?
Not yet, still here. Got delayed with something. But in the morning I do it - unless for a miracle. Started the fast...
sorry that's not due to sn, some other issue in your body and hope you find peaceAnyone else feels a crushing pain in the heart, and difficulty breathing before even taking the SN? I've been feeling severe chest pain for weeks, as if all my chest was being crushed under a mountain, and strong jabs in my heart. It's gonna be over quickly.
Yeah I've felt it. When it first started before I realized what it was I felt like I needed to rip my heart out. I feel that again when I'm particularly close to the edge. I think its ctb urges and si fighting. Deep breaths do what you can to be peaceful. I mean really deep breaths.Anyone else feels a crushing pain in the heart, and difficulty breathing before even taking the SN? I've been feeling severe chest pain for weeks, as if all my chest was being crushed under a mountain, and strong jabs in my heart. It's gonna be over quickly.
I'm worried about feeling suffocated tomorrow. I spent the last days perusing SN gbye threads. Most passed out in 5-10 mins, but no further details. I'm scared. Will it feel like being smothered?Yeah I've felt it. When it first started before I realized what it was I felt like I needed to rip my heart out. I feel that again when I'm particularly close to the edge. I think its ctb urges and si fighting. Deep breaths do what you can to be peaceful. I mean really deep breaths.
no suffocation in sn, you will feel like your heart racing after taking sn but it ain't that badI'm worried about feeling suffocated tomorrow. I spent the last days perusing SN gbye threads. Most passed out in 5-10 mins, but no further details. I'm scared. Will it feel like being smothered?
Thank you, I guess I didnt see all of it, but I read all 10 pages the search got me. I need it to be easy, I suffered hell alreadyno suffocation in sn, you will feel like your heart racing after taking sn but it ain't that bad
There are thread with further details , I guess you didn't see it
Below is thread
goodbye thread - today 10:00 pm (UTC +2)
Today the time has finally come, I have my final exam. I will finally find out whether I have learned the right thing and can actually apply it. At least the part about being relaxed seems to fit, I'm completely relaxed and hardly think about tonight. Let's see how it develops. I am pursuing...sanctioned-suicide.net
The feeling of suffocation is caused by being unable to release carbon dioxide. SN ingestion doesn't prevent you from flushing it out. So as far as I understand it won't feel like that, at least as far as suffocation is generally understood.I'm worried about feeling suffocated tomorrow. I spent the last days perusing SN gbye threads. Most passed out in 5-10 mins, but no further details. I'm scared. Will it feel like being smothered?
He passed away same day he wrote this thread and it is confirmed in the forum by his friends that he is deadThank you, I guess I didnt see all of it, but I read all 10 pages the search got me. I need it to be easy, I suffered hell already
Oh, I did read this one. One of my fav threads. May he rest in peace
I'm sorry for your experience. But like vizzy said you wont feel suffocated. Most people do pass out quickly. Are you using any benzos? That can help with the anxiety and make losing consciousness faster. Sorry friendI'm worried about feeling suffocated tomorrow. I spent the last days perusing SN gbye threads. Most passed out in 5-10 mins, but no further details. I'm scared. Will it feel like being smothered?
No benzos but something that puts me to sleep anyway. Starting the water fastI'm sorry for your experience. But like vizzy said you wont feel suffocated. Most people do pass out quickly. Are you using any benzos? That can help with the anxiety and make losing consciousness faster. Sorry friend
Trying to have a convo with someone in real life. Doesn't really go thru. People can be so blind to other people's pain. Just laying here in limbo. Not eating, but not ready to complete ctb until the issue is talked through. Thank you, I need good energy coz mine died outHow you doing @Source Energy ? I hope your feeling calm and things go smoothly for you. Sending some of my energy your way❤
I'm glad you have someone to talk to even if its falling on deaf ears. You dont have to do anything unless your sure your ready, sn will still be there. Hope your convos go well but dont expect too much from other people you'll only be let down.Trying to have a convo with someone in real life. Doesn't really go thru. People can be so blind to other people's pain. Just laying here in limbo. Not eating, but not ready to complete ctb until the issue is talked through. Thank you, I need good energy coz mine died out
It's not much a convo. It's me trying to explain myself and apologize and the person being deaf to it. We are both hurting each in their way. I have my little bottle and measuring glass by the nightstand, I stopped eating, my heart throbs...It is just this situation that holds me here while pushing me in the same time. It's agonyI'm glad you have someone to talk to even if its falling on deaf ears. You dont have to do anything unless your sure your ready, sn will still be there. Hope your convos go well but dont expect too much from other people you'll only be let down.
Have a pleasant journey! I hope you find peace & freedom on the other side!I'm taking SN in 20 mins. Took Ibuprofen 40 mins ago 60 grams. Now I'm taking sleeping pills. Hope for my eternal rest and that nothingness awaits me
Good luck, I hope it's quiet and you can go in peace.I'm taking SN in 20 mins. Took Ibuprofen 40 mins ago 60 grams. Now I'm taking sleeping pills. Hope for my eternal rest and that nothingness awaits me
I'm taking SN in 20 mins. Took Ibuprofen 40 mins ago 60 grams. Now I'm taking sleeping pills. Hope for my eternal rest and that nothingness awaits me
If I am not back with an update in 48 hours you can delete my account.
You're making me cry safe travels!I'm taking SN in 20 mins. Took Ibuprofen 40 mins ago 60 grams. Now I'm taking sleeping pills. Hope for my eternal rest and that nothingness awaits me