Story I think im really gonna do it

[Archie2222]

I'm only 21 and things already suck so bad. Im tired. I dont want to be alive. I dont see the point. Life has just been getting worse and worse for me. I have no relationship with my parents, I have no family, I lost my job, I'm sleeping in my car, things just keep getting worse amd im losing control. Even when I had a better handle on things i still wanted to die. There was one single girl who prevented my suicide for the past 2, almost 3 years. A week ago she told me she was losing interest, but to just give her time because she needed to collect her thoughts and she believes things will get better between us. Today she told me its time to break up. I dont know what to do. That was the only thing that mattered to me. She said she's uncertain about our future. You think IM not uncertain about the future? No! But i kept figbting for you. She told me i need to learn how to be my own person. Nastya, I don't even want to be a person. How am i supposed to be my own? I think im really gonna do it now. I want to OD on heroin but I dont know where to get it. I wish people could still run a hose from theor car exhaust into the cabin, but modern catalytic converters make the exhaust too clean now. Otherwise, that would probably be my most preferred method. I want to go out in some way that makes me feel high. Thats all I know. I want it to be the biggest high of my life so I can die with a smile. Its my poetic way of regaining control.

 

[ctb_warrior]

I'm only 21 and things already suck so bad. Im tired. I dont want to be alive. I dont see the point. Life has just been getting worse and worse for me. I have no relationship with my parents, I have no family, I lost my job, I'm sleeping in my car, things just keep getting worse amd im losing control. Even when I had a better handle on things i still wanted to die. There was one single girl who prevented my suicide for the past 2, almost 3 years. A week ago she told me she was losing interest, but to just give her time because she needed to collect her thoughts and she believes things will get better between us. Today she told me its time to break up. I dont know what to do. That was the only thing that mattered to me. She said she's uncertain about our future. You think IM not uncertain about the future? No! But i kept figbting for you. She told me i need to learn how to be my own person. Nastya, I don't even want to be a person. How am i supposed to be my own? I think im really gonna do it now. I want to OD on heroin but I dont know where to get it. I wish people could still run a hose from theor car exhaust into the cabin, but modern catalytic converters make the exhaust too clean now. Otherwise, that would probably be my most preferred method. I want to go out in some way that makes me feel high. Thats all I know. I want it to be the biggest high of my life so I can die with a smile. Its my poetic way of regaining control.

It's sad to see you are suffering so much . You don't deserve it. I hope and wish you find the right way to attain peace..i wish you love, luck and success in everything you choose

 

[Archie2222]

It's sad to see you are suffering so much . You don't deserve it. I hope and wish you find the right way to attain peace..i wish you love, luck and success in everything you choose

Fuck dude thank you i've been crying all day. I dont know what's wronf witg me man