I think I'm ready to do this.

[tiredangelgirl]

I always used to wonder whether or not when we live this life, if it's just a test for something that's on the beyond, maybe an alien-like life where you live in paradise, nothing like heaven or hell, just an after-life in a completely different universe, completely different planet, makes you think. Either way, I hope you find what you're looking for on the other side.

if you haven't had dmt before, I recommend it. I always thought this way too and every dmt experience i've had pretty much confirmed this. in a beautiful way. at the end of the day it's a drug so who knows how accurate it is but sure as hell felt real

I've felt lost too lately, suffering is truly baked into the human experience, however, we are truly blind to what awaits us in the afterlife. Having said this, I think it's our duty as humans to try and find meaning in this endless suffering. I'm not trying to downplay your feelings at all but there is a way out, this feeling is only temporary. The people here will support you on your journey to healing, you can message me if you want to talk about it further. I'm no therapist, but I want to help.

this ain't the place for this bs dude. people hear this type of stuff from everyone in our day to day lives. this is our safe space for people who deeply understand. be respectful or get off

 

[sadgvn]

Hoping everything for you is painless my friend.

 

[uniqueusername39]

I've felt lost too lately, suffering is truly baked into the human experience, however, we are truly blind to what awaits us in the afterlife. Having said this, I think it's our duty as humans to try and find meaning in this endless suffering. I'm not trying to downplay your feelings at all but there is a way out, this feeling is only temporary. The people here will support you on your journey to healing, you can message me if you want to talk about it further. I'm no therapist, but I want to help.

we all need help here, can you make a post on how to heal all of us? you just might be the savior we all need.

 

[Sparr0w]

i wish you luck and peace

 

[Myforevercharlie]

I've felt lost too lately, suffering is truly baked into the human experience, however, we are truly blind to what awaits us in the afterlife. Having said this, I think it's our duty as humans to try and find meaning in this endless suffering. I'm not trying to downplay your feelings at all but there is a way out, this feeling is only temporary. The people here will support you on your journey to healing, you can message me if you want to talk about it further. I'm no therapist, but I want to help.

I've send you a pm.

 

[Lost in a Dream]

I've felt lost too lately, suffering is truly baked into the human experience, however, we are truly blind to what awaits us in the afterlife. Having said this, I think it's our duty as humans to try and find meaning in this endless suffering. I'm not trying to downplay your feelings at all but there is a way out, this feeling is only temporary. The people here will support you on your journey to healing, you can message me if you want to talk about it further. I'm no therapist, but I want to help.

Well, I tried finding meaning in it. I tried for years, but found none. I've been a dysfunctional mess since before I joined this site, and it hasn't gotten any better, so this feeling I have isn't as temporary as you might think. I appreciate your offer to help, but I have to find my own way out.

 

[http-410]

Sad to see you go. I wish no one had to take this step, but sometimes the suffering is just too much. I can relate, especially after many years of suffering with no real improvement as you describe.

I wish you the best in every way, and that everything goes as smoothly as possible - no matter if and how you "decide". Should you have second thoughts, don't be ashamed to come back here.

 

[Lost in a Dream]

Sad to see you go. I wish no one had to take this step, but sometimes the suffering is just too much. I can relate, especially after many years of suffering with no real improvement as you describe.

I wish you the best in every way, and that everything goes as smoothly as possible - no matter if and how you "decide". Should you have second thoughts, don't be ashamed to come back here.

I think I am having doubts again. I was so ready to do it yesterday, if I could've had the opportunity, then I would be gone by now. It's so damn frustrating. I got everything ready to use, but now it's just sitting there. I don't know why I keep doing this to myself.

 

[Shivali]

:Herz:

 

[Shadowlord900]

I think I am having doubts again. I was so ready to do it yesterday, if I could've had the opportunity, then I would be gone by now. It's so damn frustrating. I got everything ready to use, but now it's just sitting there. I don't know why I keep doing this to myself.

Have you lost faith in your method succeeding? It's pretty common to be scared of the thought of the method failing.

I've read the rest of your thread and see you're gonna try attempting without an antiemetic. If you had any antiemetics and/or other drugs, would you have more faith in your method succeeding?

 

[Lost in a Dream]

Have you lost faith in your method succeeding? It's pretty common to be scared of the thought of the method failing.

I've read the rest of your thread and see you're gonna try attempting without an antiemetic. If you had any antiemetics and/or other drugs, would you have more faith in your method succeeding?

No, it's not that. I don't know what the problem is honestly.

 

[Challu]

Its OK. @Lost in a Dream

 

[http-410]

Don't beat yourself up about it. Since suicide is the biggest and most difficult thing you can do to yourself, it is perfectly normal to have doubts. Maybe another window of opportunity will arise, or maybe something else will grow out of your doubts. I would give myself some time.

 

[Lost in a Dream]

I don't think I can do it today. The last 4 hours have been a total waste and my fast reached 12 hours half an hour ago. The glasses are still empty and everything's just sitting there still, so I guess I'll just eat something and try again later.

 

[KettleKorn]

That may be easy for you to say but you know nothing of what someone else is going through I don't mean to sound mean or be an asshole but if someone is set on this being the right course of action unless you have something to add to their chosen method you should be supportive and wishing everything goes smoothly and they find peace with the path they've chose and you can find all you've said on goggle or by calling a number just as useless

That's true, I know nothing of this person's suffering, but what I do know is that suicidal ideation is a fucked up beast that clouds your vision.

 

[zipperstuck5171]

I'm right there with you. Tomorrow mine is set. Crushed up the non gel caplets and putting them in a bowl if pushing and the gel caps are easy to take. I'm just ready to go. Nervous but I'll take care of business.

 

[suicidalloser]

farewell & well wishes

I've felt lost too lately, suffering is truly baked into the human experience, however, we are truly blind to what awaits us in the afterlife. Having said this, I think it's our duty as humans to try and find meaning in this endless suffering. I'm not trying to downplay your feelings at all but there is a way out, this feeling is only temporary. The people here will support you on your journey to healing, you can message me if you want to talk about it further. I'm no therapist, but I want to help.

you got about $10,000 to settle half of medical bills from ER, ambulance and psych ward stays? i.e. that "help" "healing" you just whipped out to someone you know nothing of their pain or battle.

see how easy it is to spit typical toxic positivity but not actually tangibly fix or be there every day in the long run assuring it gets solved completely and securely.

that's too much for you, is it not?
that's too burdening isn't it?

 

[Lost in a Dream]

farewell & well wishes

I'm not planning on doing this any time soon, and I definitely didn't do it back when this thread was written. I still have suicide as an option later on if I ever need it though, but thank you for reminding Gman that their suggestions aren't as helpful as they think.

 

[suicidalloser]

That's true, I know nothing of this person's suffering, but what I do know is that suicidal ideation is a fucked up beast that clouds your vision.

the only thing that's clouded is your ability to understand.

I'm not planning on doing this any time soon, and I definitely didn't do it back when this thread was written. I still have suicide as an option later on if I ever need it though, but thank you for reminding Gman that their suggestions aren't as helpful as they think.

you're welcome. they have a lot to repeat, nothing to tangibly fix.