Venting i think im going through religious psychosis (or so my friend claims)

[TheAngelBornInHell]

(islam)

I dont know whats wrong with me, Ive been getting triggered so bad about religion the past month. I hate getting some sleep paralysis and nightmares I see some demons telling me about god and repent or how the end of the world is coming. it sometimes get hallucinations but im not sure.
it jusf got to a point i decided to come bsck to religion so I told my mom im going to start praying by next week for the first time in 3 years and she was happy she said the people who were good and kept praying then suddenly stop for a very long time meant god hated them and forbid them physically from praying because of something they did and I deduced my relationship with my boyfriend (having a boyfriend is haram so..) is the reason that happened. and im really fixated on religion the past month i cant stop listening to the quran and podcasts about god it makes me feel insane but atleast it'll make me feel less anxious. you know Im not a miserable person im very happy and stuff but I think I was more happier when I was still praying.i really cant stop thinking about religion.

my co-worker always also shamed me for my lack of faith all year long and i ended up sick of it.

Im feeling both suicidal and super weird right now. I know suicide is haram.. But if i pray alot, maybe itll go away. maybe I wont have to worry about going to hell.or if I do end up cba ill go to heaven for praying hard enough.

 

[fadedghost]

(islam)

I dont know whats wrong with me, Ive been getting triggered so bad about religion the past month. I hate getting some sleep paralysis and nightmares I see some demons telling me about god and repent or how the end of the world is coming. it sometimes get hallucinations but im not sure.
it jusf got to a point i decided to come bsck to religion so I told my mom im going to start praying by next week for the first time in 3 years and she was happy she said the people who were good and kept praying then suddenly stop for a very long time meant god hated them and forbid them physically from praying because of something they did and I deduced my relationship with my boyfriend (having a boyfriend is haram so..) is the reason that happened. and im really fixated on religion the past month i cant stop listening to the quran and podcasts about god it makes me feel insane but atleast it'll make me feel less anxious. you know Im not a miserable person im very happy and stuff but I think I was more happier when I was still praying.i really cant stop thinking about religion.

my co-worker always also shamed me for my lack of faith all year long and i ended up sick of it.

Im feeling both suicidal and super weird right now. I know suicide is haram.. But if i pray alot, maybe itll go away. maybe I wont have to worry about going to hell.or if I do end up cba ill go to heaven for praying hard enough.

An Islamic psychiatrist may be able to help you understand whether your thinking is merely religious and therefore considered normal or clearly very psychotic.

i don't believe in religion at all. (please note the part at the bottom, my signature, is there for every post, not just yours)

usually psychiatrists say religious psychosis involves beliefs that are not normal among religious. to me, you sound psychotic if you are having hallucinations.

i don't believe in religion and think it's all delusional, but you also could see a Islamic psychiatrist (some must exist) who could help determine whether you have normal religious beliefs that are not considered psychotic among psychiatrists or are psychotic enough that intervention of some kind is warranted.

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[bl33ding_heart]

Please see a psychologist/psychiatrist if possible. The hallucination aspect is definitely not normal.

 

[chaotic_crow]

I've been in religious psychosis before. To me it does sound like you are, it's a tricky one to deal with. Id definitely recommend seeing someone if you're comfortable. If you feel like praying would bring you comfort go ahead and try. I also don't think your god would punish you for falling back a little. He sees your pain and adding to it will often push people further away from their religion. A lot of people operate out of fear when it comes to religion don't let them shame you because they have a different relationship with your/their god. Every path is different and the gods have been around long enough to understand everyone has their struggles

 

[todienomore]

Id say track down a digital copy of "nutrition power" book by William Walsh (annas archive, library genesis) and maybe consult someone like bryce

https://x.com/photobiogenesis

like schizophrenics commonly do way better with a low carb diet, there are studies. Im not trying to gaslight you i just want to support your intuition that its a biological issue. For example im personally concerned about kynurenine pathway dysfunction so i take a lot of melatonin, which is an antioxidant. With psychosis, the brain is often frying in its own waste. Most people are deficient today in melatonin, magnesium, thiamine, etc its not hard to end up deeply inflamed