I think I want to live?

[thelastunicorn]

I thought I would be more active on here, but a lot of things have happened. I was in a manipulative relationship for six years, (my family has been calling my situation "Room", like the movie with Brie Larson), he ended things in the worst way possible and pushed me to a mental breakdown. My brain basically short circuited, and I self harmed to which he ended up calling the police and I was taken to the hospital. Since then, my family has all reached back out, I am now living 13 hours away from him, and I have had no contact with him in almost two weeks. I honestly feel like a switch flipped in my brain. I haven't felt constant stress or anxiety, I haven't had nightmares or been really upset. There's just a feeling of calm and relief. Today I had a job interview, and I was able to just sit outside and let the sun sink into my skin, and I felt alive for the first time in a long time. Things can get better, I'm sure I'm going to have my rough moments soon, but I am for once in my life optimistic and can say I can see myself sticking around.

 

[bl33ding_heart]

That's amazing, I hope your life continues to improve.

 

[3dogsinatrenchcoat]

I'm very happy for you! Congratulations
I hope you get the job too!

 

[BradGuy123]

That's wonderful. I'm glad things are looking up for you.

 

[JeyJeyOfJeypore]

Room huh. I havent seen that one yet

I guess you finally escaped The Invisible Man

 

[Left to rot]

That's awesome ! I hope things keep improving<3

 

[JoeFailure]

I thought I would be more active on here, but a lot of things have happened. I was in a manipulative relationship for six years, (my family has been calling my situation "Room", like the movie with Brie Larson), he ended things in the worst way possible and pushed me to a mental breakdown. My brain basically short circuited, and I self harmed to which he ended up calling the police and I was taken to the hospital. Since then, my family has all reached back out, I am now living 13 hours away from him, and I have had no contact with him in almost two weeks. I honestly feel like a switch flipped in my brain. I haven't felt constant stress or anxiety, I haven't had nightmares or been really upset. There's just a feeling of calm and relief. Today I had a job interview, and I was able to just sit outside and let the sun sink into my skin, and I felt alive for the first time in a long time. Things can get better, I'm sure I'm going to have my rough moments soon, but I am for once in my life optimistic and can say I can see myself sticking around.

Follow that feeling! You can build momentum and build a nice life for yourself. I'm really happy to hear stories like this and even if you don't know me, I'm rooting for you!