I think I have a good CO/Grill setup

[Marigoldflower1984]

So next Sunday is going to be my second time attempting to leave this sick body and this time I'm going to try by CO/grill and I think I have the right materials but hopefully someone can let me know if there's anything I'm missing or not.

And I know I ask a lot of questions on here, but I don't have family - they have all passed on, nor do I have friends, I mean not close friends. I have "acqauintance-friends," and of those, I only have two. And despite my past weekend failure, this is the first time I've ever attempted ending myself and crossing over into the afterlife, so I just want to make sure I don't want to fail again. I want to go home, to be with my family and friends that are waiting for me. I'm tired of the physical pain and the emotional pain. So...with that being said, here's the set-up I have:

- The tent:




The lup charcoal - I plan to buy two bags of these so I'm thinking that should be more than enough:




Then the grill:



I think this grill should be big enough to put both bags of lump charcoal in it.


The lighters (I plan to buy two packs):



Then the carbon monoxide meter:




So I'm hoping I have the right set-up with all this, but I'm not sure, what do you all think?

 

[Georg]

I dont know but BUMP.
Good luck!

 

[MyMomWasMyLife]

I don't see where that monitor measures for carbon monoxide (CO).

 

[Marigoldflower1984]

I dont know but BUMP.
Good luck!

LOL does bump mean it's a good set-up or.....? lol

I don't see where that monitor measures for carbon monoxide (CO).

Oh darn, I thought CO2 was carbon monoxide, it's carbon dioxide.....so that's something I have to replace lol.
The highest ppm onitor I can find goes up to 99,000 PPM's so I don't know if that's good enough or not.

 

[dagger_of_truth]

Have you set up that tent before to see how ventilated it is? I would be afraid of the polyester melting before enough carbon monoxide is produced, with that kind of grill in the tent. I think the only way to know for sure what would happen with how you intend to do it, is to do a test run without you being inside. This is the best thread I've seen with people who have tried using carbon monoxide from charcoal:

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/carbon-monoxide-experience-share.240172/

 

[Marigoldflower1984]

Oh no, that is a great idea though! I'll this weekend and give a fiollow-up of whether it will withstand heat or not. Thanks so much for the tip!

 

[isthisthingon]

Oh no, that is a great idea though! I'll this weekend and give a fiollow-up of whether it will withstand heat or not. Thanks so much for the tip!

Anything new to report? How'd it go?

 

[Marigoldflower1984]

Anything new to report? How'd it go?

Tried and failed.....I'm SO depressed because I want OUT of here! I think I might just get desperate and drink ten whole big bottles of Arbor Mist alcohol while taking ten Triazolam pills and hope I never wake up......or drink antifreeze, something....ANYTHING painless to get OUT of here.

 

[isthisthingon]

Tried and failed.....I'm SO depressed because I want OUT of here! I think I might just get desperate and drink ten whole big bottles of Arbor Mist alcohol while taking ten Triazolam pills and hope I never wake up......or drink antifreeze, something....ANYTHING painless to get OUT of here.

Can you elaborate a little bit? Like how long did you wait for the charcoals? Did you pass out and wake up? Maybe a little play by play of the attempt in general? For research purposes

 

[Marigoldflower1984]

I waited for the charcoal to glow, smoke and smolder and then I brought it inside my cabin, and waited and I went unconscious, woke up the next day sore, but alive.....It made me SO goddamn upset I burst into fucking tears because I want OUT of here but can't seem to get the fuck OUT of here without pain and the ways that are pain like prescription pills, I can't even fucking find out if they work or not and other ways aren't working, ugh!

 

[tourn/ait/ne/nera]

I waited for the charcoal to glow, smoke and smolder and then I brought it inside my cabin, and waited and I went unconscious, woke up the next day sore, but alive.....It made me SO goddamn upset I burst into fucking tears because I want OUT of here but can't seem to get the fuck OUT of here without pain and the ways that are pain like prescription pills, I can't even fucking find out if they work or not and other ways aren't working, ugh!

I am so sorry!

 

[Marigoldflower1984]

Yeah me too.....Last night, my body was so wrapped with pain I cried so hard my head hurt......I don't know what to do anymore.

 

[isthisthingon]

I waited for the charcoal to glow, smoke and smolder and then I brought it inside my cabin, and waited and I went unconscious, woke up the next day sore, but alive.....It made me SO goddamn upset I burst into fucking tears because I want OUT of here but can't seem to get the fuck OUT of here without pain and the ways that are pain like prescription pills, I can't even fucking find out if they work or not and other ways aren't working, ugh!

You originally posted a tent, did you use a cabin instead? How did you seal the space?

 

[Marigoldflower1984]

I used a cabin with no windows so I didn't have to seal it, it was a small one room cabin.

 

[tourn/ait/ne/nera]

I used a cabin with no windows so I didn't have to seal it, it was a small one room cabin.

You mentionned something about a meter, I know you probably are in no mood for question, but what is it ?

 

[isthisthingon]

I used a cabin with no windows so I didn't have to seal it, it was a small one room cabin.

How much charcoal did you end up using? What size grill?

I have two 14" grills