I think I am relapsing into depression again

[itsoverforme303]

I thought I was getting better after going through some tough times recently. But I think I am beyond help. I thought it was the stress and anxiety that was affecting me but I think my brain is beyond repair now. Nothing is helping anymore. Everything is normal, the weather is fine, I should be happy. But I am not. I can't stop feeling like I am out of energy, I am worthless and I need to die to stop the pain. I can't stop thinking about suicide, even though I have no reason to. What is wrong with me? I wish I had someone to talk to. I have no one. No one wants to talk to me. What did I do to deserve this?

 

[pauly369]

Same here.
Theres also the fact that the suicide rate increases during spring.
No normal person could ever possibly be happy living in this terrible world.

 

[untraveler]

This sucks. :/ Sometimes it's hard to tell why we feel depressed or better. Like pinpoint what happened to make us feel this way. What's the reason. Sometimes I feel trapped in myself like I have no control over my stupid mood and can only observe it. Which is so boring already, because I know it very well. Do you know how did you get better? How long did it last? I'm curious how did it feel for you. What did you noticed then? Do you remember?

 

[Jdieiejdjaow]

Did you have a period of excessive energy where you couldn't sleep before you felt normal and then fell into depression?

 

[Nobody'sHero]

Same here.
Theres also the fact that the suicide rate increases during spring.
No normal person could ever possibly be happy living in this terrible world.

I wish that I remained ignorant about how the world works and had the ability to just go on with my life without over thinking reflecting... Just a blissful ignorance. Fuck this bullshit fucking place.