Story I Survived....

[exitplease]

I don’t remember everything but I can tell you what was in my plan and the few things I remember. I had 3 glasses with 25gm SN but I vomited it all out, until I was dry heaving. I had written down in my plan that I should call the hospital as soon as a threw up the 3rd glass and I had them dialed just in case. After throwing up the 3rd glass I called the hospital and it all happened in maybe less than 12 minutes because I didn’t pass out yet.

When I woke up in the hospital I obviously had a panic attack, I thought I’d actually succeed but I was wrong. I’m still very confused how I couldn’t be successful with 75gm SN (I threw up a lot, but, still…)

That's horrifying. Thank you for sharing your experience. Did you take an antiemetic?

My method was SN and I somehow survived... My account was Griffith but it got deleted because I was inactive because I was in a hospital for weeks. Part of it was just being unconscious...
But it's fucked that I survived, not my own family is neglecting me, I've lost all my friends, life is just treating me like shit more and more... People cared more about me when they thought I was dead... I hate it, why am I always cursed, nothing goes my way... Not even death....

Thank you so much for sharing your experience with SN. After feeling comforted that I had finally found a reliable and peaceful method, this has scared the living shit out of me.

 

[conarc]

No worries, SN is still safe. Just read peaceful pill handbook and dont believe in scaremongering.

That's horrifying. Thank you for sharing your experience. Did you take an antiemetic?

Thank you so much for sharing your experience with SN. After feeling comforted that I had finally found a reliable and peaceful method, this has scared the living shit out of me.

Why do you say that and in another thread you ask for sources? Part of me wants to ask if you are a prolifer or from authority.

 

[アホペンギン]

That's horrifying. Thank you for sharing your experience. Did you take an antiemetic?

Yeah, I took an antiemetic, metoclopramide 30mg.

Usually I take 5mg daily because I struggle with nausea but 30mg was definitely not enough for SN. I took note of it and I’ll make sure to use more next time or I’ll get domperidone next time I visit my doctor.

 

[peaches]

It was the most peaceful thing I've ever experienced...

I don’t understand how peaceful and vomiting can exist in the same experience.
I’m highly emetiphobic. I literally would rather shoot my self than vomit.
I do not have any ctb option that involves nausea or vomiting.

 

[Larysa]

No worries, SN is still safe. Just read peaceful pill handbook and dont believe in scaremongering.

Why do you say that and in another thread you ask for sources? Part of me wants to ask if you are a prolifer or from authority.

You can’t comprehend that someone could be seriously conflicted and trying to find as much information as possible in order to weigh it up?

Plus personal accounts are not “scaremongering”.

 

[conarc]

You can’t comprehend that someone could be seriously conflicted and trying to find as much information as possible in order to weigh it up?

Plus personal accounts are not “scaremongering”.

Personal accounts dont exist. Authorities and prolifers are writing here as well and pretend to be one of "us".

 

[Larysa]

Personal accounts dont exist. Authorities and prolifers are writing here as well and pretend to be one of "us".

Personal account as in personal testimony.

 

[limerent]

Don't be too harsh on yourself, take your time to process your emotions and the situation and don't rush things. I'd imagine it's really painful for everyone around you to feel distant or against you but remember that SS is always a place to hangout if all else fails.

 

[Meditation guide]

My method was SN and I somehow survived... My account was Griffith but it got deleted because I was inactive because I was in a hospital for weeks. Part of it was just being unconscious...
But it's fucked that I survived, not my own family is neglecting me, I've lost all my friends, life is just treating me like shit more and more... People cared more about me when they thought I was dead... I hate it, why am I always cursed, nothing goes my way... Not even death....

Why were you in a hospital for weeks? What was it like after you took SN such as pain? vomiting? Thank you for sharing any info you can. I'm sorry you went through all that!