I survived MY second SN attempt, AMA

[letsgetittogo]

I survived this time because I freaked out halfway through due to SI, and made myself puke. AMA about the way SN feels leading up to unconsciousness, as well as how the regimen was like prior to taking SN.

 

[bambie200]

Did you feel like you were suffocating/choking at all before you passed out/Vomited? About how long after taking the SN did you freak out?

 

[UKscotty]

Yeah I think people who go by SN or N are so brave.

Both methods sound horrific mentally, I'd freak out too sitting in my head waiting to die for 15+ minutes.

Did an ambulance come?

 

[MrFreshTheCat]

did you take any meds before the SN?

 

[silentcicada]

What did it feel like when your SI kicked in, did something in particular trigger it? Was that why the first attempt failed? Did you have to go to the hospital to prevent poisoning?
Would you try SN again? If yes, what would you do differently?

Wishing you a speedy recovery. Sorry for all of the questions.

 

[sewycidial]

How did it feel physically and mentally after taking it, i heard after just 10 minutes you pass out were u in any pain or were u starting to get sleepy?

 

[letsgetittogo]

I didn't feel like I was suffocating / choking at all actually. I felt lightheaded as hell and I def could feel my heart beating out of my chest. the most "distressing part" for me is the fact that I have an anxiety disorder, so the tachycardia feels strangely similar to a panic attack. I think that's why I instinctively started freaking out super bad. The hardest part was dealing with my heart beating out of my chest. Other than that it feels no worse than having Covid / a bad fever, In terms of feeling nauseous or with a migraine.


I'm a really skinny guy, so I react super quickly to both the lead-up substances AND the SN, I pretty much freaked out as soon as I started feeling the physical reactions. Which was REALLY REALLY quick, I wasn't keeping track of the time after I sipped my SN but it was probably within 10 minutes that I started wanting to make myself puke.

What did it feel like when your SI kicked in, did something in particular trigger it? Was that why the first attempt failed? Did you have to go to the hospital to prevent poisoning?
Would you try SN again? If yes, what would you do differently?

Wishing you a speedy recovery. Sorry for all of the questions.

The first time I failed SN, it was because I really didn't want to die sober, so I drank a bit of my Mom's favorite tequila because i found it comforting. I did see it through and passed out normally (expecting to die) and woke up hours and hours later after I puked in my sleep. I went to the hospital after but they didn't find any heart murmurs / problems, I just felt like a bag of ass for a few days. I'd like to include im in the military, only job is relatively physical, and I've experienced no problems.

I would try SN again. I've mentioned in other threads that the symptoms are really manageable. Yes there is discomfort, but if you've ever had a really bad cold, it's WAY worse than SN. On top of that, in my case, I've passed out really quickly from it, so you don't deal with it for long.

I don't really know why my SI was triggered. I think the only "weakness" of SN is that you DO have to wait a few minutes, even if they're quick. I'm not sure if that makes sense but, it's not like jumping where it's over in a few seconds, so it gave me time to think and think and overthink until I began to panic a bit.

Hope this helped :)

did you take any meds before the SN?

I did the normal regimen, with anti anxiety meds and anti emetics, did a food and water fast this time around. Nothing negative to report as far as its effectiveness, it definitely worked the way it was intended, I just have myself yack it out :)

I used Vizzy's SN Bible and I'd trust it to work in the future too

Yeah I think people who go by SN or N are so brave.

Both methods sound horrific mentally, I'd freak out too sitting in my head waiting to die for 15+ minutes.

Did an ambulance come?

This is exactly it!!!! Yes my biggest struggle is taking it and sitting with my decision for that amount of time. It definitely gives you time to overthink. I think SN is a great method, but for some anxious types like me, SI could be somewhat hard

 

[MrFreshTheCat]

and how many grams of SN did you take? was it the recommended dose for your height/weight or you got more / less?

 

[letsgetittogo]

How did it feel physically and mentally after taking it, i heard after just 10 minutes you pass out were u in any pain or were u starting to get sleepy?

Discomfort, no pain.

I won't lie and say it felt like heaven and I dozed off, it feels like you're starting to get lightheaded uncontrollably (maybe can be compared to drinking too much and being close to blacking out? idk it's hard to explain it def isn't like "falling asleep" it's def more like "I'm losing my ability to see clearly"

Definitely doable, I think definitely a lot less scary or painless than other methods. Would never hate on it because it's still my method of choice, and I know I would attempt again

 

[sserafim]

How did you get over SI and fear of failure to start the attempt?

 

[letsgetittogo]

and how many grams of SN did you take? was it the recommended dose for your height/weight or you got more / less?

25 grams with 25 grams as a backup ((second dose) I didn't take the second dose obviously, since im still here. I didn't really do the height and weight calculations because I'm only 150 pounds, and I've seen the 25g dose has been effective with most (lots even say 25g can be overkill?)

How did you get over SI and fear of failure to start the attempt?

Taking it initially was pretty easy. I felt ready to go, I was in a comfy space, I was playing my favorite songs I smoked some cigs :) I put myself in the mood before hand, if that makes sense. I made myself feel peaceful. My body def raises red flags after I realize how absolutely insanely salty it tastes, and that's when the prospect of my death hit me this time around. Thus, I freaked out, not because I want to NOT ctb, but because my brain was screaming at me to live out of instinct

 

[sewycidial]

Damn dude your brave to pull that trigger twice and i'm sorry life is this painful for you. My SN came today but i have not taken it yet

 

[Guy Smiley]

Thank you for sharing your experiences, and I'm very sorry that you're struggling so much.

For your second attempt, do you think you would have been able to not puke if you hadn't intentionally made yourself do it? What did you do after you puked? Did you just go lie down or did you go to the hospital?

 

[Thanksforeverything]

How long after ingesting it did you throw up? Did you feel like you were close to passing out despite the discomfort? Also, I don't know if you were rushed to the hospital afterwards or not, but do you feel any lasting effects currently?

 

[Deleted member 65988]

I def could feel my heart beating out of my chest. the most "distressing part" for me is the fact that I have an anxiety disorder, so the tachycardia feels strangely similar to a panic attack. I think that's why I instinctively started freaking out super bad. The hardest part was dealing with my heart beating out of my chest.

This could be one of the more powerful symptoms of SN that cause people to be triggered into si, I've experienced it multiple times throughout the years and for anyone unfamiliar with Tachycardia, it's very unnerving as a first time experience, I've also had that feeling of my heart beating out of my chest and feeling dizzy although what I've experienced isn't panic attacks but very similar, except I have a heart issues so I may be able to handle the tachycardia by itself since I'm rather use to my heart beating really fast although I've got Beta-blockers on hand either way.

Thus, I freaked out, not because I want to NOT ctb, but because my brain was screaming at me to live out of instinct

Yeap, this evolutionary trait that has been one of the key aspects of human survival for thousands of years now is such a hard thing to get over. I think that's why some of those who've attempted with it called out for help, because the realization that death is imminent hits them and being humans, we assign death as a bad thing despite never having experienced it ourselves. If anything, this solidifies my choice of benzos to accompany this in order to be out of it. Otherwise, it seems if your brain didn't do what it naturally did, it sounds like you would've definitely ctb this time.

Would never hate on it because it's still my method of choice, and I know I would attempt again

So 3rd times the charm? All light-heartenedness aside, it's rather fascinating to see someone this determined for it again.

Also, detail your regimen and mindset this time compared to how it was the 1st time if you don't mind. What anti-anxiety meds did you use and how strong were they?

I don't really know why my SI was triggered. I think the only "weakness" of SN is that you DO have to wait a few minutes, even if they're quick. I'm not sure if that makes sense but, it's not like jumping where it's over in a few seconds, so it gave me time to think and think and overthink until I began to panic a bit.

Right, I doubt it wouldn't be anything but horrifying to see your mortality slipping away within a few mins so I'd second this as a weakness, it's one of the things I don't blame people for when it comes to why they won't take this method, I guess you have to plan for everything to give it as good of a chance at working. Seriously, this is why I'm going to go for it with benzos, I'd rather not be without them for this, I thought I could do it like others have but I'm not other people and thus, I'd like to at least give it some level of assurance that it will be the 1st and last time.

 

[Meditation guide]

Do you think taking a beta blocker such as propranolol would help with the racing heart?

You said you went to the hospital the first time. Did they give you methylene blue?

So making yourself puke the second time was all it took to recover?

You said you took meds to relax you but apparently they didn't help. How would you overcome SI on your third attempt?

Thank you for sharing your experience!

 

[Deleted member 65988]

Yes my biggest struggle is taking it and sitting with my decision for that amount of time. It definitely gives you time to overthink. I think SN is a great method, but for some anxious types like me, SI could be somewhat hard

I think that would be anyone's biggest hurdle to get over with SN, how do you deal with that time in between ingestion and unconsciousness.

 

[Anxi0usandDepressed]

Damn dude your brave to pull that trigger twice and i'm sorry life is this painful for you. My SN came today but i have not taken it yet

Where are you guys getting SN??? It seems totally unobtainable to get online where I live. (Australia)

 

[edgar allan poe]

Yeah I think people who go by SN or N are so brave.

Both methods sound horrific mentally, I'd freak out too sitting in my head waiting to die for 15+ minutes.

Did an ambulance come?

That's exactly why I would much rather use a gun, so fast you wouldn't even know you died.

 

[schizochicken]

That's exactly why I would much rather use a gun, so fast you wouldn't even know you died.

Wish i had one.

 

[Deleted member 65988]

Where are you guys getting SN??? It seems totally unobtainable to get online where I live. (Australia)

Not surprised considering the bans over there and the deaths that took place in Australia from SN

Wish i had one.

I've just made peace with the fact that a gun can't be obtained so it's just up to making the best of what options you have. Plus, you need a particular caliber and gun to make sure its powerful enough to get it done and even then, most people have a hard time pulling the trigger due to si even if it is going to be much, much faster.

 

[edgar allan poe]

Not surprised considering the bans over there and the deaths that took place in Australia from SN

I've just made peace with the fact that a gun can't be obtained so it's just up to making the best of what options you have. Plus, you need a particular caliber and gun to make sure its powerful enough to get it done and even then, most people have a hard time pulling the trigger due to si even if it is going to be much, much faster.

You just have to overcome si for one second, plus you can be slightly drunk and still pull it off.

 

[Deleted member 65988]

You just have to overcome si for one second, plus you can be slightly drunk and still pull it off.

Sure but in those circumstances, people have still had a very difficult time committing to it, even when drunk and in fact, being drunk and requiring some level of focus to pull it off rarely goes well, be it jumping off a bridge or gun or train or whatever methods out there that are quicker than this. Loosening inhibitions with being drunk is fine but even that could leave room for mistakes to be made.

 

[edgar allan poe]

Sure but in those circumstances, people have still had a very difficult time committing to it, even when drunk and in fact, being drunk and requiring some level of focus to pull it off rarely goes well, be it jumping off a bridge or gun or train or whatever methods out there that are quicker than this. Loosening inhibitions with being drunk is fine but even that could leave room for mistakes to be made.

Overcoming si is never easy, what I'm saying is that overcoming it for a second as appose to using sn and waiting 15 mins is a huge difference. Just look at how many people off themselves with a gun in the u.s.

 

[Justnotme]

I am amazed how people can survive after taking 25 grams of nitrite. I understand that people vomit, but in the end, it's as much as 25 grams of poison...

It looks like you have a stomach of steel that can withstand alcohol and poison.

Are you sure that you have sodium nitrite and that its purity is 99%

By the way, did you call an ambulance after vomiting?

 

[Deleted member 65988]

Overcoming si is never easy, what I'm saying is that overcoming it for a second as appose to using sn and waiting 15 mins is a huge difference. Just look at how many people off themselves with a gun in the u.s.

i don't disagree but beyond that, its meaningless to me since i cant get a gun so its a moot point, I'm aware that its much easier as opposed to waiting 15mins to go out since most people want something fast, convenient and effective. Anyway, i don't want to take this thread elsewhere from its original point.

 

[Intoxicated]

I survived this time because I freaked out halfway through due to SI, and made myself puke.

How exactly did you induce vomiting?

 

[roku6]

How did the SN taste like?
Did you call the ambulance this time? 25g is pretty much a lethal amount even if you vomited I am surprised you got away not going to ER.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

How successful do you think one would be if this method were to be combined with drowning? I ask because this is how I plan to go. There are several large bodies of water near me that I can simply swim into and hope to drown there after consuming SN so I'd like to know if that's possible.

 

[Defenestration]

Thanks for informations