Venting I still don't enjoy living that much

[TekkenPlayer]

I just don't see any point in anything still
Nothing brings me pleasure anymore
Only hanging out with friends and family
And that's short-lived cuz the moment we stop hanging out I feel a complete void
No activity makes me feel any fun
I don't care enough to put effort into achieving anything in my life
I just wish people just forgot I exist so that I could kms without hurting anyone

I do appreciate people liking me and I understand not many people have that
Which is what I believe is the only thing keeping me going

I'm just tired

 

[timf]

You might find some satisfaction in something like volunteer work such as mentoring kids or reading to the elderly. Sometimes an activity that takes you out of yourself can be rewarding.

 

[sanrioslayer]

Me too, at the end of the day everythings just so hollow empty and meaningless

 

[fedup1982]

Me too. I'm so fed up of this existence. If I had a painless method I'd take it

 

[mushi]

even with friends and family i still feel the void lol. like im sitting behind a pane of glass watching myself put on a show. smiling, laughing, making jokes, saying the lines. like an actor in a movie. make it as smooth and as painless as possible until it's over.
because no one ever really likes the real me. i like the real me even though i annoy the shit out of myself. so i just isolate and hang with my cats

 

[eggsausagerice]

I just don't see any point in anything still
Nothing brings me pleasure anymore
Only hanging out with friends and family
And that's short-lived cuz the moment we stop hanging out I feel a complete void
No activity makes me feel any fun
I don't care enough to put effort into achieving anything in my life

i relate heavily big dawg. it really sucks to only feel happy when people want to hang out with you and immediately be sad when you go home. i just seem to feel even more sad going back home because i want to hang out with my friends more.

the feeling of emptiness and anhedonia feels all consuming. i've been told to pick up hobbies, volunteer, or get a job. but i'm just not very interested in anything and i always think that i'm going to be a failure.

like im sitting behind a pane of glass watching myself put on a show. smiling, laughing, making jokes, saying the lines.

it also feels like i'm watching myself talk to people without being able to be in the moment. i can make jokes and be fun to be around but i'll still feel like nothing inside. at least company from others distracts me from how alone i feel. none of it ever feels real to me. sometimes i have intrusive thoughts about saying crazy stuff so that i can sabotage my remaining relationships, but i keep it to myself to avoid losing them. i still care about the people around me.