Venting I still can’t get over it

[ijbolijbol8979]

I still miss my old friends who ditched me.
I still miss my ex who ditched me.
I can't ever forget what people did to me, and I wish I did. I wish I could forget everyone. I wish I can just stop being scared of dying and leaving my mom. I'm going to commit suicide when I finally have the guts to do it. I don't fucking care anymore
I feel so lonely
I can't anymore
Fuck college fuck work fuck me too

 

[wtg]

that is life, people come and go, took me 4 years to realize that

 

[westerly_merlin]

People are self centred and fickle. The more I have learned about people the more I love my dog.

 

[bankai]

People are self centred and fickle. The more I have learned about people the more I love my dog.

Dogs are wonderful. I've had dogs all my life.Aren't they? @darksouls

They deserve our love

Maybe not my neighbor's dog that barks all the time. But most dogs, sure.

 

[westerly_merlin]

Dogs are wonderful. I've had dogs all my life.Aren't they? @darksouls

They deserve our love

Maybe not my neighbor's dog that barks all the time. But most dogs, sure.

It is impossible to feel sad with a puppy licking your face. Best therapy ever!

Plus you can tell a dog your darkest thoughts and it will never judge you or tell anyone else.

 

[ijbolijbol8979]

Dogs are wonderful. I've had dogs all my life.Aren't they? @darksouls

They deserve our love

Maybe not my neighbor's dog that barks all the time. But most dogs, sure.

I have a dog, shes my best friend, she loves me and doesn't leave my side, unlike my old friends and ex…

 

[lasttogo]

I could have written this. Sorry you are living with it.

I miss my friends. Even my best friend left. I am too depressed and I can't function in normal society. I am so poor I have been sick for the last two years. They were tired of me lashing out and disappearing, and then coming back. I can't blame them. So I didn't come back this time.

My other friends left a long time ago for similar reasons. And I had a husband once, too. Same story. Him I can blame lol. It's so hard to mourn people that are still alive. I'm still learning how. I don't think it will ever go away, but I found throwing a funeral in my mind for the people that have left helped.

 

[Goodgirlryeo101]

In this world you have to learn to rely on yourself because people are people after all and you were born alone and you will die alone.

Most people put their self interest first so you even if they come back with an "apology" never accept it and move on with your life.

We are here for a short time, for now I'm just doing what I love watching series and sometimes we laying music and relaxing.

The world is full of problems and yes people are so cruel to another and that's why you should never have expectations of anyone because expectations only lead to disappointment.

As long as I have a roof over my head, food and my series I'm good. I will be adventuring a lot of spots in my city come next summer. Enjoying your own company is very important. I don't feel lonely but I have had depression and this is something I'm living through with. I do have happy moments too.

Me living is to spite someone thought had power to make me "commit suicide" when he himself doesn't even know his end date. Looool

Downfall??? Loool he did me a favour I won't ever have to work thanks to him for contacting my workplaces I can wake up and sleep when I want and my schedule in solely based on me and not on anyone else.

Thanks for this man. I'm the source of my own happiness and I don't need validation from anyone or friends. These are the same people I would ignore if see them in real and they would ask why and claim how they regarded me as their "sister" loool. I know myself I dont need anyone to tell me who iam. I don't need to lie to be liked even by strangers because of desperation of "acceptance" .

Keep crying and talking about me whilst I'm sleeping and enjoying my series

 

[Parnate]

I have friends and roommates , they are good but I am so depressed that I just don't hang out much with them. I don't have any energy left after my job. I spend my weekends lying in bed all day. My roommates even asked me to get involved with them, talk to them but I feel better alone, even though I want to socialise and talk . Complicated.

I still miss my old friends who ditched me.
I still miss my ex who ditched me.
I can't ever forget what people did to me, and I wish I did. I wish I could forget everyone. I wish I can just stop being scared of dying and leaving my mom. I'm going to commit suicide when I finally have the guts to do it. I don't fucking care anymore
I feel so lonely
I can't anymore
Fuck college fuck work fuck me too

Have you tried medicine and counselling?