Venting I sometimes forget how hard it is to CTB, and it scares me.

[Mors.Mors.Mors]

I am in so much physical pain lately that the idea of CTB is always in my head, and sometimes I joke about it, or at other times I just tell myself that I can kill myself whenever I feel like it, but the reality is that it is not true. Every attempt to achieve it is always met with a great deal of anxiety, I am not even able to progress past a certain point. Don't you feel the same way?

How many more tragedies have to happen, how much more suffering is necessary to make the leap of faith?

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand, personally it feels so cruel to me how I simply cannot just die painlessly to escape from all the suffering, all I hope for is a painless death like never waking again, I really wish it's not so difficult to be gone. But anyway I wish you the best.