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FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
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This post is just more repetitive complaining, I know that I am the most boring person in existence, if anyone sees this it is not worth reading, I do feel bad sometimes taking up space on a forum with pointless posts. I am just writing about this again to pass the time, and I know it is just a waste of time writing this, but everyday I have the same thoughts, that I should not have been born, if I was never alive in the first place it would mean that I would never have to suffer.
There is nothing positive about living, there is nothing that brings me any enjoyment, it just feels wrong being alive. I never feel relaxed, there is nothing here for me, nothing that comforts me and the future will only get worse. The future is so dark and depressing. I do not deserve a miserable life that I am not meant for, I deserve the peace that death brings. A lot of this week has been spent feeling ill, it can be horrible being trapped in this human body and anyone who says that life is positive overall is wrong. For all the people who are not suffering that much now, it can quickly change and that is why life is so horrible.
It is just awful having to deal with this pointless existence, life is so depressing and if not sad, it is just empty. I do not know how I am supposed to deal with decades of this life, I am still in my early 20's, even know I feel like I have been alive for a long time. I never want to reach old age, I just want freedom, I want non existence, but the fact that ctb is so difficult means that I am trapped in this world.
There is nothing positive about living, there is nothing that brings me any enjoyment, it just feels wrong being alive. I never feel relaxed, there is nothing here for me, nothing that comforts me and the future will only get worse. The future is so dark and depressing. I do not deserve a miserable life that I am not meant for, I deserve the peace that death brings. A lot of this week has been spent feeling ill, it can be horrible being trapped in this human body and anyone who says that life is positive overall is wrong. For all the people who are not suffering that much now, it can quickly change and that is why life is so horrible.
It is just awful having to deal with this pointless existence, life is so depressing and if not sad, it is just empty. I do not know how I am supposed to deal with decades of this life, I am still in my early 20's, even know I feel like I have been alive for a long time. I never want to reach old age, I just want freedom, I want non existence, but the fact that ctb is so difficult means that I am trapped in this world.